[b]Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters mentioned, they all belong to Masashi Kishimoto. The only thing I own is the plot so please don't sue me.[/b]
100 Theme Challenge
#41 - Alone
Pairing: Naruto
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Alone.
It was something I never wanted.
I never wanted to be alone.
It was why I made Sasuke my rival. So I would always have someone to be there to compete against.
It was also why I worked so hard constantly trying to bring him home.
This loneliness reminds me too much of when I was a child.
Back when all the adults shunned me and told their kids to avoid me. That biting, searing loneliness that I never wanted to feel again.
It's what made me act out and pull pranks on everyone. My pranks forced them to pay attention to me. They forced people to acknowledge my existence. Even if it was only a moment to scold me.
I thought that things would get better in the Academy, but it was more of the same. Everyone only had eyes for Sasuke Uchiha. All the girls loved him for his good looks and too cool attitude. The teachers loved him because he was a genius, following in his older brother's footsteps.
I made Sasuke my rival then and there. Though he didn't know it at first, I wanted to compete against him. I wanted his attention to be on me. He had everyone else's attention on him, so if he focused on me then their attention would be on me too. Even if that attention was to see me lose to the Uchiha, they still paid some attention to me.
After the Valley of the End, my failure to bring Sasuke back, I had to leave the village. I couldn't stay here knowing that they would go back to ignoring me again since Sasuke wasn't there to compete against. So I ended up leaving the village with Jiraiya. He took me away from that loneliness for three whole years. Then I had to come back. I couldn't stay with Jiraiya forever, besides I had to save Sasuke from Orochimaru. I needed him back. I needed him here with me, to compete against me. To keep me from being lonely again.
But even now, Orochimaru is dead, as is Itachi. Sasuke though, he's in the clutches of the Akatsuki now. I still haven't been able to been able to bring him back. Things are looking more desolate. I may have to be alone since the villages all want to kill Sasuke. Even Sakura tried to kill him, but if he has to die...then we die together. I won't go back to being lonely again.
