Dane Soar
Rating: K+ for depressing-ness
Summery: After her death all he does is sit, no matter what they tell him
Characters/Pairings: Kurama, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Yukina, Shizuru, Hiei, Botan
Comments: Another one of those 'Kurama's mother death' story, I never tire or writing them, they really are fun to do, which is a horrible thing to say.
Spoilers: None
Focus: After Shiori's death
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I sat by the window in the empty house, staring out into the street.
Kuwabara had told me it would be all right.
He sprawled in the chair opposite mine, slouching with his hands on his knees.
"Look Kurama, it's going to be alright. I mean, it's not the end of the world or anything."
"Perhaps not for you."
"I didn't mean it like that, you know that. There is something after this, is what I'm trying to say. I remember when my mom died, I thought it was all over, but it does get better. Not right away, but you'll see, it'll be alright."
Yusuke had told me if I needed it, he'd be there for me.
He had turned the chair around and sat on it, crossing his arms on top of it and leaning his chin on them.
"If you ever need me I'll be there. I really will, too, if you ever want help. Look, I dunno what you're feelin' now, I was never good at this emotion stuff, but whatever you need, tell me and I'll see what I can do."
"That's kind of you, Yusuke."
"Don't give me any of that formal crap, Kurama, are you really alright?"
"I am."
"Damn, you're way too good at lying. Look, I mean it, I'll be there, you know? I can't leave a friend like this."
Yukina told me she was sorry.
She sat formally in the chair, her hands folded in her lap.
"Kurama, I'm so sorry, I was stronger, maybe I could have healed her."
"You know that's ridiculous, Yukina, there was nothing you could have done."
"No, surely I could have done something. She was so sickly for so; long I should have been able to save her."
"There's nothing any of us could do."
"Kurama, I'm sorry."
Botan told me that Koenma was worried.
She sat slightly formally but leaned forward in her seat as she spoke.
"He's talking about taking you off assignment for a while, he's worried that you might not be up to something like a mission right now."
"Tell him that I thank him for that."
"Your mother would be worried about you if she saw you now."
"I know, Botan."
"But you're doing this anyway?"
"It's all I can do."
"Koenma's worried, but so am I, Kurama."
Shizuru told me she thought I was being stupid.
She crossed her legs when she sat, and held a cigarette in her hand.
"Sitting around moping like this is really stupid, Kurama."
"Please don't smoke in here, Shizuru."
"Don't you try and change the subject on me. This is really unhealthy, you know. Keep it up and you could wind up really sick."
"I doubt that will happen."
"You're being really stupid."
Hiei told me I should have expected this.
He'd disregarded the chair, sitting on the windowsill instead.
"You should have expected that she would die eventually. She was only human."
"Leave me alone, Hiei."
"Why are you doing this? You know it'll do nothing."
"Yes, I do. I don't want to talk about it right now."
"Don't avoid the subject. My point is that you knew it would only be temporary, having her; why bother with all this foolishness? You're not human, don't try to act like one."
"Leave me be, Hiei. Let me morn for a while at least."
"Fine, be a human then. When you tire of all this, I'll be back. Otherwise, die like a human. You expected this, anyway."
Though they told me that, I still sat by the window, staring down into the street.
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