Hi there, here is the first chapter of my new story, what you have all been waiting for! It's a Secret told the tale of Youko's past, and this story tells of events after the series. I intend for this to be a big story, and I hope you all enjoy it. For those of you who are big Hiei and Kurama lovers I have to warn you that they will be together for a short time, but this is a Kuronue and Kurama and Youko story. Let's get started now!
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Words Once Spoken: Prologue
It is late evening and we sit at our desk doing homework. We only do it because mother is always so proud. She gave so much to raise us, shuuichi's feelings of love and gratitude towards her have transferred to me. But that doesn't mean we don't do things behind her back. For instance, we have tried almost every human drug that we could find here. None of them had any effect.
Alcohol on the other hand, is very good here. We go and get drunk at least once a week, we are well known in quite a few bars around here. In part I blame my part of us for this. That part of my past, that is a permanent part of my soul, it has rubbed off on his. That experienced part of me had taught him much, and the way I treat him, like a toy, doesn't really help much either.
At night sometimes, under the full moon usually, our souls manifest outside of our body, most likely to relieve its stress at having two souls within it. I admit that I have taken advantage of Shuuichi during these times. I assert my dominance over him and he meekly submits to my will. He blindly obeys me when I instruct him in a ceremony he has no clue of the reason for. I never asked him, I just began the ceremony when our powers developed when we were ten. It is an intimate thing that we do, not like love in the flesh. If we continue this ceremony, our partially divided souls will completely unite for a human lifetime.
My part of us treats the other part as inferior. I view him as a weak human despite how untrue that is. As we are one, I have taught our combined consciousness many of my old ways. I have never tried to shield him from any violence or anything else in my past. In fact, I have forced my memories on him. We both love each other very much, but I still miss Kuronue dearly. My soul, having been the last one to enter this body, is able to escape our body at times. I control it most of the time. But when that happens, my soul must stay with shuuichi, who remains within.
Anyway, we always put on a polite and kind face for the world. This body has looks that are almost as good as mine were. And that makes almost any human he meets desire him. He has learned much about love making from me, and his body is by no means a virgin. He has had many lovers. He has slept with most of the good looking kids at his school. That is not an exaggeration. Like me, gender doesn't matter to him. We have had quite a few affairs with older humans as well. Somehow though, shuuichi has remained innocent in the eyes of everybody.
Then there are our team mates. None of them know of our true personality. We have seen the dark side of this society, and are not as loving as we have made them think we are. Yusuke, we respect him as a fighter and companion. Much like my old teachers, I trust and rely on input from him. I truly admire his fighting spirit, though why he is so attached to that weak little Keiko girl I might never understand. Their love seems to pale in comparison to Kuronue and myself, but then again, we are older. Yusuke only returned to human world last month.
Kuwabara is an idiot. His stupidity gets on our nerves, but he has a good heart. His code of honor, flawed though it is, makes us respect him a little bit. That is probably the only reason we imagined his presence at the tournament in demon world. He is not as dumb as he used to be, but Yukina will still never love him.
Botan and Koenma. They are not very high on my list right now. Koenma is back in spirit world working for his daddy like he always will be. Chances are I will never see him again. Botan either, more of a loss, but not much. I care about her, a little, as a friend. Her cheerfulness in a way reminded me of Kuronue. He is always at the forefront of my thoughts. Genkai is worthy of my respect. She, like Sho, is wise and gentle. Some may not see it that way, but Genkai is, or was, a powerful fighter that should be honored.
Then there is Hiei. I knew him in the past, he hasn't changed much since then. I would give my life to protect him. He is a good teammate who is far more intelligent than the others. He doesn't waste time on stupid distractions as the others do. His straightforward view on life and his power do indeed attract me. The fact that he is so attractive doesn't hurt either. Of course, I am aware that this is merely a physical attraction. My heart can only belong to Kuronue.
Quite honestly, I am growing sick of this human world. It is dull and full of weaklings. I should return to the band and see who is left. I think I might do that soon. Or I would if I could make an excuse for mother. I can talk to her over the phone like I did during the tournament, but it would be a frustration. I guess I will just have to wait for a chance to come along.
Shuuichi
Youko and I are in a sense, one being. Our souls share everything with each other. The personality and feelings each of us experience separately have slowly changed each other. I fear that we are merging into one being. I don't know if it is possible and Youko refuses to talk to me about it. He may not say it, but I think he fears it as well.
Youko has taught me a great many things. One of the most important was how to wear a mask of perfection. I have done some horrible things, few of which I regret. I wanted to do those things, and Youko enabled me to do so. I am grateful to him for that. But in a way, I feel bad for it. I never had a childhood, have never been innocent. Youko has been with me since before birth, and he has educated me about life since then. Strange though, we believed in Santa Clause for a few years. It was only when this body gained spirit awareness did he realize that it was just mother who placed the gifts.
Mother. I truly love her. She gave birth to me, she gave me life. Even though Youko tried to teach me that she was an inferior human, she is still my mother. My undying love for her has indeed been transferred to her other son. For though he denies it, what happened to him was no different from what happened to me. We both entered her and were born in her blood. It is only because of the spell he cast that Youko keeps his memories of being Youko. It also allows him to take his old body's form.
I have a feeling that if that amulet was removed from his soul, either the spell would be broken and he would no longer be able to resist spirit world's pull, or we would be wrenched apart. That would be a death sentence to the both of us. After growing together for so long, our souls have attached to each other. When he leaves our body, he is still anchored to it, and cannot leave its presence.
We have fought together with others, and though Youko denies it, we would give up our life for any one of our teammates. But Youko is a stubborn Kitsune, and he seems to enjoy being contrary. He always tells me that I am to soft hearted for my own good. Then I point out that that's what Hiei always tells him. It shuts him up. But we always get along with each other, after all, our souls are connected.
We fought once though. During the tournament to become king of demon world, I tried to renounce him and his past. I wanted to remain with mother as Shuuichi and not have Youko getting in my way. Needless to say, that didn't last long. I can't deny who I am. He has been controlling my body more and more lately. He does this to protect me, we both feel that something horrible is about to happen.
For that desire to protect me, I love him. But then again, doesn't that mean that I love myself? I suppose that is a good thing, to a certain degree. These past years, I have learned that life without Kuronue is incredibly boring. He always brought fun into all that we did. Though this part of our soul never truly met him, it is close enough. We share our memories of him, so I feel all that Youko does on the matter. He is mine, as well as Youko's soul mate.
Lately we have had absolutely nothing interesting to do. Getting drunk at the bars on Saturday nights is about all the fun we have these days. That reunion when Yusuke showed up was the most fun we've had since the tournament. Though Genkai is still alive, we have decided to go into the Makai to locate a few demons that would be willing to learn to live peacefully with humans.
It will be slow going for a while, but I believe we will eventually succeed. Youko says it is a stupid idea. But since Hiei is coming, we will go. We haven't had any good lovers lately and a forbidden child will be perfect. At first the thought of ruining our friendship occurred, but then we remembered that Hiei desired us too. Hopefully, that is all that he feels, desire.
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And that is how it begins. I'm sorry to those of you who dislike them this way, tell me your concerns and I shall read them. Don't worry, the first few chapters are the only time when any of the above mentioned activities take place. After the first few chapters, the story will be more like my last one. In the style of writing I mean. So please stick with me. The real story can't begin without Kuronue (hint hint). Anybody with questions can put them in a review, but emailing it to me at is a better was to get a fast response, and a more detailed one.
The fact that this is in the first person and they are just talking about themselves is just the prologue. Thank you to anybody who read my last story, and welcome to those who are reading this one. You don't need to read my last story, but I would recommend it. Please read and review with your honest opinion. I will update soon!
