No one seems to understand. I don't know if I understand either. I just need someone to understand. Even if it is that fat man who is always playing chess in the park on the rainiest of days. Is rainiest a word? I don't know. Or I simply just don't understand.
Who could I trust? If someone did understand, would they be honest? I am not honest with myself but I don't understand what everything means. The earth, the stars, everything is a lie. It may be a shame to live in this wretched world but I can change that. If everyone was gone or if I was gone. There would be no distrust.
I think my fear is holding me back. Holding me back from trusting or understanding. I hold my fears close to me because I do not see the world without fear. Without understanding is normal but everyone fears. Even me. I feared of losing the love and I did. Whatever I fear comes true. I just don't seem to understand the world. Everyone fears someone else and that is why there is no understanding or trust between us.
Whispers. That is what I hear all of the time. Secrets. And that is why there is no trust. No understanding of each other. Whispers are dishonest. Secrets being whispered into your ear and piercing your soul. I don't understand why those fears whisper inside my head. Telling me to leave this dark world.
Everything hurts. The rain pelting down on your face. The crows that haunt you, following you and stalking you. The whispers hurt. Hurt. Pain is what I feel. Everything is pain. This world is pain. It is in pain. Crying out in pain. I am just a little leaf in the wind. A star in the sky that doesn't shine very brightly. I want no pain. There shall be understanding and trust will I go instead of pain and fear and secrets.
This world means to much to leave though. My love and my friends. Whoever they may be. I think that this world is a test, getting us ready for whatever may come or where ever we may go. I understand now. Why there is pain and fear. Why secrets and lies rule over trust and honesty.
Everything hurts so much, we don't feel it. We feel nothing. Except pain and greif. Everyone is falling. Falling into the darkness of this world and fading beneath it. I decide to go away from this world. I can't breath. It hurts. The terrible pain. I have lost it all. Everything is nothing. But nothing means everything. I still don't understand.
Who could I trust? If someone did understand, would they be honest? I am not honest with myself but I don't understand what everything means. The earth, the stars, everything is a lie. It may be a shame to live in this wretched world but I can change that. If everyone was gone or if I was gone. There would be no distrust.
I think my fear is holding me back. Holding me back from trusting or understanding. I hold my fears close to me because I do not see the world without fear. Without understanding is normal but everyone fears. Even me. I feared of losing the love and I did. Whatever I fear comes true. I just don't seem to understand the world. Everyone fears someone else and that is why there is no understanding or trust between us.
Whispers. That is what I hear all of the time. Secrets. And that is why there is no trust. No understanding of each other. Whispers are dishonest. Secrets being whispered into your ear and piercing your soul. I don't understand why those fears whisper inside my head. Telling me to leave this dark world.
Everything hurts. The rain pelting down on your face. The crows that haunt you, following you and stalking you. The whispers hurt. Hurt. Pain is what I feel. Everything is pain. This world is pain. It is in pain. Crying out in pain. I am just a little leaf in the wind. A star in the sky that doesn't shine very brightly. I want no pain. There shall be understanding and trust will I go instead of pain and fear and secrets.
This world means to much to leave though. My love and my friends. Whoever they may be. I think that this world is a test, getting us ready for whatever may come or where ever we may go. I understand now. Why there is pain and fear. Why secrets and lies rule over trust and honesty.
Everything hurts so much, we don't feel it. We feel nothing. Except pain and greif. Everyone is falling. Falling into the darkness of this world and fading beneath it. I decide to go away from this world. I can't breath. It hurts. The terrible pain. I have lost it all. Everything is nothing. But nothing means everything. I still don't understand.
