AN: This story covers the Sailor Moon 'R' anime series, mine and many others favorite season. It is full of angst angst and romance. It starts on a high and goes down quickly from there.

I do not own Sailor Moon, I'm only trying to use words to explain the depth of the characters and the stories that she has drawn so well.

To Protect Her (Darien's Journal pt3)

(PG-13) By Bobbin

Prologue:

I am writing this journal to record the events and my thoughts and feelings about my unusual life so I will not forget again. What is written is true. If anything should happen to me, I leave this journal to my heirs in the order listed below, to be shared as they see fit.

To Serena Tsukino: I want you to know I have always loved you.

To Andrew Furuhata: Forgive me. I would have told you sometime.

To Mr. and Mrs. Tsukino: If something has happened to me, then possibly Serena is gone too and you have a right to know. She kept her secret because she just wanted to be a normal girl. Her family has always been her sanctuary.

1 Courtship

The emptiness within me has been filled. We see each other nearly everyday, usually with the other girls. Andrew calls them "Darien's harem". How can I tell him we are there for Her?

More infrequently, we are alone (except perhaps for Luna.) I like these times the best. We talk of many things- my studies, our hopes for the future, the Negaverse battles. We speak rarely of our former lives- they tend to take over and we lose control. I got some deep scratches from Luna about that once. Tuxedo Mask was the Prince on his best behavior at the Moon court.

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I've been asked why do I go out with such a clumsy goof-ball? How can I respond with 'we are soul-mates, reunited lovers from another millennia; that I am the Earth and she is the Moon'; that she saved the world with the power of her love. More, she is sunshine to my clouds; joy to my sorrows; a bright awakening from my nightmares. She is caring and honest in a world of cruel deceit. She is the child that died in me when I was young.

"Because she makes me laugh." I reply simply.

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I'm glad that Serena has a lot of understanding friends to provide excuses (and chaperones) for us. I love her so much and want to be with her whenever possible. I'd rather fight a hundred monsters than face her father about seeing her. I know he's protective of his family, I remember how he glared at me at the VR Arcade, and I barely even knew her then. If he knew what was really going on, he'd probably lock her up until she's 21, and I've already waited millennia. At times, I must let the formality of TM control my desires. The Prince and the Princess were both older, and it was another time. Though two worlds were against us, we were more free. My nights have become torture sessions of a more delicious kind. I don't know if they are memories or dreams of his dreams or my own. Our relationship will grow with time. Until then, I must be the strong one. My beautiful Serena, so full of love and joy and life, it is hard to resist you.

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Andrew asked me why I wanted to be with such a childish young girl. I told him, "She won't be too young forever." That shocked him- and me. "Forever?" Yes, this is a 'forever' thing. I'm glad she's childish; if she were more mature, I'd forget how young she really is.