chapter one

"come on ness don't be like that" his husky voice breathed into my ear, as he laid next to me. I closed my eyes and ignored his pleading with me.

cause the truth was I was annoyed, I was annoyed at the fact that my father refused to let us be happy more importantly me,

his daughter be happy with the one I loved.

But He never understood the feelings me and Jacob had for each other, when I was little he was my protector,

when I got older he became my closest companion...my best friend....and now he could be my soulmate..my one true love.

.My father would not accept this fact he considered it wrong as Jacob ,my Jacob was 19 and I was only seven years old........ well technically I was 18 well at least I looked it any way.

Finally I opened my eyes and breathed "imp fine".

Jacob knew never to push me when I didn't want to talk about things.

"right I think its time we faced the real world ness,don't you"..."we can't stay up here forever"

he was right we had to leave sometime, but the comfort of his warm arms was such a disappointment to leave.

"fine lets get this show on the road I guess" I sighed as I detached my self from the place I most wanted to be, his warmth.

we walked down to the living room hand in hand, as we always had but since declaring the love I had for Jacob just a few months back, everybody looked at things we did in a different light,

Well except alike she always seem to like Jacob even before I came along she wasn't particularly horrible to him,

But aunt Rosalie was a completely different matter she hated Jacob ,she pretend she didn't for me but you could she the lying annoyance of him being there in her eyes.

Grandma Esme greeted us at the bottom of the stairs.

"should I say good afternoon" she beamed.

I blushed, which was something I inherited from my most gracious mother, I looked down at my shoes until the glow from my cheeks had calmed. Though I swear I heard the muffled laughter of uncle em in the background, He would pay for that later that's if my mom didn't get to him first.

I walked into the living room and fell into the sofa with Jacob not too far behind's looked across the room to see my father Edward, in a heated discussion with my mother and alike.

Two against one at least as I had a funny feeling whatever they were saying was about me or messier related anyway.

My ranting thoughts were interrupted my a growling noise that seemed to becoming from my father,

"Jacob!" he sneered" could you please keep your thoughts to your self "

I looked around to stare at Jacob, and there he was in mid thought probably thinking of a witty comeback to my father's outrageous growling.

I put my hand to Jacob's face showing what had happened last time he got too smart for his own good. I didn't think he wanted another attack of the Titians(AKA father, Emmett and jasper).Which basically is what had happened the last time his thoughts went wayward about me.

Chapter two

Jacob and I relaxed back into the sofa, while the rest of my family fanned out ,throughout the house Esme was cooking up some of her now famous cookies; she had became a frequent baker with Jacob and half the pack around most of the time, Alice and Rosalie where working on fixing up my new closet; they decided I needed a proper fully stocked closet since I hit a legal age if you know what I mean.

Carlisle and dad had gone hunting in the main land and my two most infamous uncles had joined them, and mum was away to see Charlie.

Me and Jacob where finally alone. Well technically anyway...I knew that the all seeing eyes wouldn't be far from spying on us. I raised my hand to Jacob face and brushed his cheek softly; this was my hint to Jacob that I wanted to be alone with him.

A huge grin raised on his face which made me have to concentrate; I was a weakling for his beautiful smile

"lets go ,we can go to mine Billy's gone for the weekend away fishing so we'll have the place to your selves" he winked at me .

I laughed" good I can never seem to get enough alone time with you"

We ran the whole way , we had learnt from past times that running was so much easier than using any types of transportation; which was kind of sad about, I missed riding on the back of Jacobs motorcycle .

When we finally reached his house we knew we could use this time to be alone ,so we slowed our pace knowing that we had all the time in the world.

Jacob reached for my hand the heat of his hand sent shivers down my spine; every time he touched me it felt like the first time we had admitted we had feelings for each other, and Jacob had kissed me.

That was my first kiss ;I was glad it was with Jacob.

When we reached the porch of the house Jacob swung me up in those big burling arms of his ,slowly kissing me starting at my collarbone working his way up my neck his hot breath, breathing heavy and uneven made a smile appear on my face.

I lifted his face and whispered into his ear ,"maybe we should move this inside we don't want the whole reservation talking now do we"

Jacob must of agreed ,as he rushed me inside slamming his house door behind us. he led me to my most favourite room in his house his room; now don't get the wrong idea it all was very innocent …well most of the times any way.

He lay me down on his bed while he lifted a few things from about his room ;he seemed to automatically start to tidy when I was in here. I really didn't understand that like I would care or even that my attention would move to the state of his room- rambling again, sorry.

I pulled Jacob down on the bed beside me ,I haven't realised that he had removed his shirt I lifted my hand stroking his chest moving it up his arms and along his neck.

Pulling him down I kissed him roughly pulling his hot sweaty body on top of me ,I felt my lips part as his tongue traced the bottom of my lip I teased him by biting his lip delaying the process, he sighed.

After a few seconds our breathing had become more a heavy pant but that seemed to draw us even closer together I felt Jacobs hands roam up and down my thigh ,while I had my hands fully locked in his hair pulling him closer -I just seemed to think even our bodies entangled together on this small bed wasn't satisfying enough for me.

I felt Jacob starting to undo my buttons on my shirt feeling this hot hands trace my chest area made me moan with delight, I Pulled my shirt off throwing it over Jacobs shoulder .It seem that that small layer of material had seem to make an almost brick like wall between our bodies.

Jacob kissed along the line of my jaw moving his lips down my body ,but also his hands.

Once he started unbuttoning my jeans I knew I had to stop this-I knew it was going to happen sometime but not yet not now I wasn't ready.

Chapter three

"Jacob stop ,I can't not now you know I would tell you when I was ready"

He sighed "nessie please I don't understand ,I thought well.. I just thought you were so excited that maybe you were ready now"

"sorry it was my mistake" he took a deep breath and sat up right on the bed.

I leaped off the bed searching for the place I had thrown my shirt- ummmm I didn't realise I had thrown it that off it was sitting over the lamp; strange. I lifted my shirt and started getting dress ,starting with the buttons of my jeans.

Jacob stood up approaching me from behind, I felt his soft warm breath in my ear.

"ness you know I love you, and when ever you feel the time is right I will be ready to accept the fact, you are the most important thing in my life and I would never want to do anything that would hurt you in any way possible you know that rite?"

I felt a tear streamed down my face I turned to face him

"Jacob I love you more than any one will ever know". I stood on my tippy toes and wrapped my arms around his neck while I kissed him softly on the lips.

Suddenly the kiss became so intense I forgot where I was, all I could feel was his warm hands in the small of my back.