Summary (full): Spencer just got out of a bad relationship –with a lying, cheating guy. He hasn't been the way since. He listens to sad, depressing songs/bands like Evanessence. He also has been extremely angry. The team doesn't notice –except for Hotch. Can Hotch help Spencer out of this sad/depressed/angry stage before he drags the rest of the team, down too? OOC Spencer and Hotch.
Author: DarkUniverseNeverGiveUpKiryu
Story Title: Search and Destroy
Chapter Title: Choke
Chapter Number: 1
Word Count: 1,670
Warnings: Sad, depressed, somewhat angry, all in all OOC Spencer, savior Hotch, soon HotchXReid, little murder, soon smut, a lot of OOC Hotch and OOC Spencer.
Pairing: HotchXReid.
Rating: M, or MA.
~*(CM)*~
Look into my eyes
I am the one who you despise
Cause I exposed your lies
And it's my turn to watch you burn (watch you burn)
I hope you choke
On the letters that you wrote
Telling me that you will be here 'till the end
You'll never see
A different side of me
A side that you just did not ever understand
Sing it like last time
With every line
Ends a rhyme
You'll get great reviews
But I refuse to be reused (to be reused)
I hope you choke
On the letters that you wrote
Telling me that you would always be my friend
You'll never see
A different side of me
A side that you just did not ever understand
I hope you choke (on the messages you wrote)
I hope you choke (on the promises you broke)
I know you'll choke (on the messages you wrote)
I know you'll choke (I hope you choke)
Choke ~By the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
We just wrapped up a case in Bakersfield, California and were getting ready to head back to Quantico. My head's ringing with the loudness of the volume I had set on the iPod I recently bought. I hope you choke, Lake. I think with a snarl as the song ends, soon followed by Skillet's song ''It's not me, it's you.''
Feel a tap on my shoulder, and I jump, twisting to see Morgan looking at me, amusement in his eyes. I take out a earbud to show him I'm listening. ''Got it loud enough, pretty boy?'' He chokes. I glance back at the iPod screen to see I could turn it up a little louder. ''No,'' I say before going back to packing.
Morgan jumps at my words but I didn't notice. ''Hey, kid,'' he says, picking up my iPod. ''I didn't know you liked Christian Rock –Skillet, no less.''
''There's a lot you don't know about me, Morgan.'' I state simply. He raises an eyebrow at me. I zip up the bag with a sigh, snatching my iPod away from Morgan. Sling the bag over my shoulder. ''Do you know if the others are ready to go? I want to get out of here as soon as possible.'' I say, slipping my iPod into my pocket after wrapping the cord to the earbuds around it. ''Er, I don't know.'' Morgan says as he slings the strap to his bag over his shoulder.
We walk out to see, sure enough, the others are ready to go. Cross my arms over my chest as Hotch says a few words before we all check out, then leave, climbing into the black Suburbans. The trip to the jet is quick, I barely have time to pull out my iPod before we're on the plane and all electronic devices need to be turned off.
As soon as we're allowed to get out our devices, my iPod's admittedly out and plugged into my ears, Evanessence's song ''My Last Breath'' the first song I listen too. I close my eyes and rest my head back, sighing. I can tell the others are staring at me –because you know, this isn't usual for ''Spencer Reid''. Well right now I don't feel like being ''Spencer Reid''! They can all go and fuck themselves! Oh naughty naughty, Spencer, what would the others say if they heard those thoughts?
Feel someone lightly tap my knee. Open my eyes with a snap to see JJ leaning over the arm of her seat, tapping me on the leg. ''What?'' I snap, pulling an earbud out. ''Er, Spence, can you please turn it down?'' Glare lightly at her but do what I'm asked.
Crushcrushcrush by Paramore comes on, and I can't help but think ''I'd like to do that to them all.''
~*(CM)*~
Reid isn't acting like himself, he isn't himself. That is completely obvious. He hasn't been himself all week. Am I the only one who has noticed? Glance at the boy genius to see him sitting crossed legged, arms crossed over his chest, head back. What's got him so mad?
I know, actually we all know, that Reid has a boyfriend named Lake. Reid's introduced us all to him, he was all ''happy happy'' about it. I didn't like Lake at first, neither did any of the others, he just didn't seem right for Reid. Then his little boy came out and Lake was all kind, I guess he was alright then. Not that my opinion mattered to Reid or Lake.
Did those two break up? No no that can't be, last I heard those two were happy, not on the verge of a break up.
Did anyone else notice, the malice in his voice when he spoke to JJ? He never talked with that tone in his voice to JJ. Something's definitely wrong. I probably shouldn't pry, but this is Reid we're talking about, Reid's never like this. I guess I'll have to keep an eye on him.
The jet lands a few seconds later after I had completed that train of thought, and everyone's (practically) scrambling around trying to get their things, get out of there, and go home. Except for Reid. He just sits there, glaring at us all, and it's only when Morgan leaves the jet he lets the ''pissed off'' face crumble, replaced by a face of pure depression and sadness. He obviously doesn't know I'm here.
''Reid,'' I call out. He jumps and turns to look at me, and much to my dismay, the ''pissed off'' face is back up. ''What?'' He snaps. I jump inwardly in shock. Did he just snap at me?
''You okay?''
''Yeah, fine!'' He snaps. He grabs his bag before storming off the jet, I have to hurriedly grab my stuff and run after him. ''Reid-!''
''What?'' He snaps again. God, what is his problem? ''Don't you need a ride home? Morgan and the others already left...'' Spencer looks around, like he just realized the others were gone. He tenses up and says, ''Yes, I do.'' We head over to my vehicle and climb in. Spencer admittedly puts on his seat belt, and only when we get halfway to Lake's house he says, ''Thanks...Hotch...''.
''Your welcome,'' I say. Spencer's eyes widen when he sees Lake's house come into view. ''What are you doing, Hotch?! Turn around! Take me to my house! Not that jackasses!'' I blink in surprise. Something did happen between them. Pull the car onto the curb and cut the ignition. Turn to him. ''Why? For the past year and a half this is where you've had me, or Morgan, take you after a case. Reid, did something happen between you two?''
''Why do you care?'' He says, glaring at me. ''Hotch you may be my boss but this has nothing to do with you so if you would please stay out of it that'd be awesome!'' Raise my hands up in front of me, and say, ''Look, I'm sorry, Reid. Let's just forget this happened, okay?'' His angry expression crumbles and he nods slowly, ''Yeah...okay.''
God, Reid's like a woman on her time of the month! Emotional role a coaster! Wait did I just compare his mood to what of a woman's during their menstrual cycle? Turn the vehicle on again and turn the car around and drive towards Reid's apartment. I'm not sure when he went back there the last but I don't really think I should push too much.
Pull onto the curb outside Reid's apartment. He gets out after grabbing his bag and when he's about to slam the door shut, he glances over his shoulder at me and whispers out, ''Thanks...''
''Your welcome, Reid.'' I say and watch as Reid slams the door shut before walking into the apartment building. I put the car out of park and pull away from the curb, heading home.
~*(CM)*~
''Daddy!'' I hear Jack shout as soon as I open the door. ''Oomph.'' I cough out when Jack practically tackles me, wrapping his small arms around my middle, giggling. ''Hey Jack,'' I say, ruffling his hair. He looks up at me, wide-eyed. ''Where's Aunt Jessica?'' I ask as I crouch down in front of him.
''Upstairs,'' Jack says and only a moment later, does Jessica come down. ''Oh, hi Aaron. Perfect timing.'' She says. I nod, as I step away from the door as Jessica puts on her coat. ''Jack already had dinner –but he still needs to take a bath.''
I nod, ''Okay, Jessica, I'll take care of it.''
''I know you will, Aaron.'' Jessica says with a small smile. ''Alright, bye Aaron,'' she bends over and kisses Jack on the top of his head, ''bye Jack.''
''Bye Aunt Jessica!'' Jack says, waving. ''Bye Jess.'' I say as I shut the door behind her. I turn to Jack and kneel in front of him. ''Hey, why don't you go pick out your pajamas while I go get the bath ready, how does that sound?''
Jack nods, ''Okay!'' He says and starts to run upstairs but stops and turns to look at me, ''As long as you promise to read me a story after.'' I nod, ''I promise.''
''Cross your heart?'' I cross my heart, ''Cross my heart.'' I repeat. Jack hesitates before running upstairs, me following close behind.
