May lay awake again, insomnia getting the best of her. She could never seem to sleep at night. Old memories flashed through her head, waking her up as she laughed at the good memories, or when bad memories flashed in, she'd cry until she fell back asleep. Tonight, sad memories came in, tormenting her with memories of the one she loved most.
She thought of Ash Ketchum. This boy had been like a teacher to her. He'd shown her how to battle and he'd cheered her on at contests. Sure, they fought now and then, but it was pretty rare. Ash was also honest with her, unlike Drew, who only teased her.
May felt alone out here in Johto. She wished Ash could come out here, but she knew she had to let him go. If she didn't, things would only become more painful. As he chest tightened, her hands flew to her heart. She began singing a sad tune.
Gone. Gone. Gone. Blown away.
Washed away with the memories.
All I have left is a small ribbon.
I loved you with such a passion...
Is it all gone now?
Tears rolled steadily down her cheeks, but she kept singing. She needed to get her feelings out. Maybe then she'd be able to let go.
I stare into your eyes.
Please don't say good-bye.
I need you by my side.
I need you to support me.
Help me be the best that I could be.
I'm always better with you.
The lyrics she sang were true. She'd always been better off with Ash. She felt stronger and more motivated around him. May almost felt she couldn't have lived without him. Why had she parted from him? May picked up the melody.
So why did I say good-bye?
Why didn't I even try?
Why is there this pain in my chest?
I've been tossed aside like all the rest.
The sunlight shone so beautifully.
But I wonder if it was in despair underneath?
No one could be happy...
To say farewell...
May was crying so hard now, she was surprised that she still sounded so perfect as she sang. Her voice should be wavering, but it stayed strong. She took a deep breath, crying a but more. She tried to keep her voice from cracking as she kept singing powerfully.
Maybe we'll reunite.
I want to see you.
You are a part of me.
Why did I leave?
It was because of me.
You are the light in my life.
I wish I could smile.
Why did I let you go?
May almost couldn't breathe anymore, yet her song was still so crystal clear. She decided to reach its end. Get out her last few feelings and then try to forget. She had to say just a few more words, even if he couldn't hear it. May wouldn't stay silent.
As your face flashes through my mind.
Perfectly paused in time.
I can't help but cry.
I said I'd be fine without you, but that was a lie.
I see how much I love you now that you're gone.
Now everything feels so wrong.
I'm drenched in my own tears.
Drowned out by my own fears.
But if I had one more chance...
If you gave me one last glance...
I'd say it then and there...
I...
I love you...
May finished, breaking down in tears. She couldn't forget. No matter how much she cried or tried to hide it, she'd never forget her first love. Suddenly, everything turned bitter-sweet.
If he felt the same, wouldn't he return to her someday? And if he didn't, well then that was how things would be.
Everything had seemed so dark and hopeless for May, but don't you see the light better when you're surrounded by darkness?
May wasn't giving up. There was no way. She'd find him again. An whether he rejected or accepted her, that didn't matter. She just needed to tell him someday.
Someday...it seemed like an eternity away, but...she could live with it. She only needed to say three words afterall.
I love you...
