The secret to love
Bellamy's POV
Octavia and I were sitting in the tent that we shared outside of the drop ship. Octavia had told everyone she saw that she needed to talk to me alone and no one was to interrupt us. I was sitting on the animal pellets on the floor that I like to call my bed. Lincoln had provided everyone with them now that he was living in camp with us. I accept that he is part of Octavia's life now...doesn't mean they can stay in the same tent yet. "Why won't you tell her," she said breaking me out of my train of thought.
"Tell who what O?"
"Why won't you tell Clarke that you love her?"
"I don't love her"
"Bell the only person you are fooling is yourself and Clarke. Have you noticed how much you to argue, that only happens when she is putting herself in danger or vise-versa."
"Octavia we are leaders together, she is our only healer in camp, and she just worries too much." As the words were coming out of my mouth they felt wrong I know I'm lying to Octavia and I dint like it but I can't risk my relationship with Clarke. Octavia is right but it would kill me if I lost her.
"I know you're lying and so do you. You better get your head straight because everyone in this camp is sick of you and Clarke arguing all the time. We know you love each other that's why everyone listened to me and left us alone and why everyone listened to Lincoln and left him and Clarke alone."
" What did you just say?"
"Listen Bell that wasn't suppose to come out just ignore it. You two belong together. I love you but I hate seeing my brother fight with my best friend because they are scared to admit there feelings. Lincoln feels the same way Clarke is like a little sister to him and you are his best friend. So please do what's best for this camp."
" Dammit O! I can't lose her! And that's exactly what's going to happen now! You should have left it alone! Now Lincoln is talking to her and everything is going to be fucked up!" I yelled as my eyes sting with tears knowing that now I will lose Clarke forever and I can't stay mad at anyone because it's my best friend and little sister who put me in this situation.
"Bellamy I will never let anything bad happen to you." She said coming over and hugging me. "I wouldn't have even tried if I wasn't 150% positive that she loves you to please trust me."
" She's too good for me O. I'm sorry I have to go."
"Where are you going?"
"For a walk...alone!" I said as I left the tent and headed straight for the gates.
Clarke's POV
"What's going on Lincoln I can't be gone long I have patients to tend to."
"Raven and Miller are tending to the patients; you have all the time in the world." He said calmly. "Clarke I don't want you to get upset with me but you have to tell Bellamy." Lincoln and I have talked about my feelings for Bellamy before and I made it really clear I didn't want to tell Bellamy about my feelings.
"We have already talked about this. I love him Lincoln I can't lose him...we both said we would never talk about it again."
"That was before you two started going at each others throats like reapers. You're like my sister and I hate seeing what this is doing to you. Just tell him." We have been pretty bad lately I will admit but he keeps on putting himself in danger and it's killing me. Every time Miller and Raven drag him to med bay with a new injury it breaks my heart. Especially since I have to cause him more pain by giving him stitches then he yells when I have to get more seaweed to prevent infection. He yells even more if I get a bump on the head while going on those trips.
"He's fucking stubborn what do you expect."
"Octavia is talking to him now Clarke." Instantly I broke into tears and Lincoln pulled me into a hug. I started punching and screaming at him.
"YOU TWO JUST RUINED EVERYTHING! HE'S GOING TO HATE ME AND IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT! LINCOLN YOU ARE A FUCKING ASSHOLE!" I kept screaming and punching and Lincoln stayed quiet while holding me letting me get it all out. I felt extremely guilty I know him and Octavia only mean good but Bellamy is my life. "I'm sorry," I whispered.
"It's okay butterfly." I just nodded and walked away. Once I got outside I saw Bellamy storming off from Octavia and leaving for the gates.
Miller's POV
I walked outside to see Bellamy storming off and Clarke watching him looking distraught. "What's wrong butterfly?" I asked Clarke. Lincoln and I started calling Clarke butterfly she's our little sister. We had to make our own families when we got on the ground and this was ours.
"Not now Miller. Get back to work all of you!" Clarke snapped with tears in her eyes, she then turned and went to med bay. When I got there I watched as Clarke took two sedatives the Ark sent down.
"Dammit Clarke what are you doing your mom told us to only take one at a time!"
"Shh..Miller it will be okay I just need some sleep." She was out in seconds.
"OCTAVIA! LINCOLN! GET IN HERE!"
"What's going on." They said at the same time.
"Butterfly took 2 sedatives, we are only suppose to take one at a time as needed. She said she just needed to sleep and she was out like a light."
"Fuck! Okay I think she will be fine we just need to keep checking on her vitals and hope Bellamy doesn't get back before she wakes up."
"Who wakes up?" We all turned as we heard Bellamy's voice.
"Well we are all fucking dead tell Raven I love her." I said.
Clarke's POV
I don't want to open my eyes yet. When I open them the reality that I got rejected by Bellamy will become real, but yet I still open my eyes and there he is sitting right in front of me looking perfect. Someone had brought me to a tent but not just any tent Bellamy's tent. He looks like he hasn't slept in days and despite my better instincts I blurt out, " you should get some sleep."
"You're awake! Are you okay? Lincoln get in here!" Bellamy rushed out looking worried. I don't understand he doesn't like me but looks like if anything happened to me it would be the end of the world.
"I'm fine Bellamy calm down, I just needed some sleep." I spoke softly trying to put across the fact that I am okay with my body language.
"That was pretty fucking stupid Clarke what were you thinking. You could have over dosed and died!"
"I was being stupid?! Really! You're the one who left without back up again! How many times am I going to have to stitch you up Bellamy!"
"What if you didn't wake up! Huh!? What would I have done?!"
"Why do you care so much Bellamy!"
"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU!" He yelled louder than anything he had said, and then there was silence.
"What? I thought you didn't like me I thought you were walking away because you were disgusted about Octavia and Lincoln trying to get us together."
"What God no Clarke! I love you so much I didn't say anything because it would kill me if I lost you. That's why I was so pissed off...I'm sorry for yelling." I don't even know what to think I have never heard Bellamy express his feelings so much and he apologized and I just want to kiss him; so I did.
It was the most perfect kiss in the world and I thought my heart was going to explode. The only reason I stopped was to breath. "I love you too Bellamy Blake."
A look of pure joy came across Bellamy's face and he started kissing me more frantically. He ripped my shirt off but then instantly stopped. "Princess I need to know you're serious about us. I can't do this and then lose you again, if this is not what you want please tell me now and I will walk away like nothing happened. I will not force anything on you. Just..."
"Bellamy shut up." I cut him of interrupting his speech. "I love you and I want to be with you more than anything. I have since the moment you saved me from falling in that hole when we were saving Jasper. Please make love to me." Bellamy smiled and started kissing me once again.
The next morning (Bellamy's POV)
Waking up I feel someone draped over me, and not just a leg and an arm across me like everyone I let sleep in my tent did. No this girl was on top of me legs on each side of my hips and her arms wrapped around my neck like a life line, and her head buried into my neck. Looking over I see a full head of blond curls and I start to remember the night before. This girl is not just any girl, it's Clarke. As soon as I realize this my member starts to stand at attention.
"Be good," he mumbled into my neck.
"I can't help it you're just so irresistible," I thrust forward and rubbed my hard cock against her clit causing Clarke to make the most beautiful moan and I realized that's my new favourite sound.
"No," she said jumping up in a hurry. My heart dropped the second she pulled away from me. Had Clarke changed her mind about me? I tensed up and she must have noticed my unease because she kissed my lips while putting her pants on. "You silly man, I have to check on my patients and Raven is do for a check up with the equipment the Ark sent down I should be able to see if her and Miller are having a boy or girl. You also have responsibilities and a bunch of teenagers to order around. You don't have to worry about losing me Bellamy I'm not going anywhere I love you but we still have responsibilities."
"I love you too but do we really have to?"
"Yes we do my Rebel King."
"Fine Princess lets go but I want to be there when Raven gets checked out."
"Of course." She said kissing me once more and then leaving to check on her patients.
Miller's POV
"Do you think they are going to be pissed?" Raven asked as she passed back and forth on the floors.
"I don't know babe but you have to calm down the stress isn't good for you or the baby." I said trying to calm her down.
"Miller how can I calm down! Bellamy took me in like a daughter after the whole thing with Finn and now I could lose my dad because we medaled in on his personal life with Clarke."
"Bellamy love you he's not going to abandon you. If there is anything I am sure about its that. Just like Clarke isn't going to abandon me and Lincoln." Ravens eyes started to fill with tears and then she started to full on sob.
"B-but what I-if they do?"
Just then Clarke walked in, "what's wrong Raven?"
"Where's Bellamy?" She spit out without even answering Clarke.
"He's working on the wall why?" Without answering Clarke Raven took off to find her dad who adopted her. I find their relationship odd since Bellamy is only a few years older than Raven but after practically raising herself she needed a parental figure in her life and everyone was adjusting to it just fine. Raven even called him dad sometimes and daddy when she wanted her own way which works on most occasions. "MILLER!" Clarke's yelled waving a hand in front of my face, and cutting me off from my line of thought about my girlfriends makeshift family.
"Yeah?"
"What's wrong with Raven?" I dropped my head remembering what Lincoln, Octavia, Raven and I had done. Also remembering that Clarke could be pissed at me and I could lose my own makeshift family. "Are you okay?" She asked after seeing my reaction.
"She's scared we are going to lose you and Bellamy. Bellamy is like her dad and you're my sister and we medaled and it didn't work out so well and we cant..."
"Miller stop. You guys are not going to lose us I promise everything worked out fine. Even if it hadn't you still wouldn't lose me I love you."
"What do you mean everything worked out fine?" I asked with a grin on my face.
"I'm not going to give you details but Bellamy and I are now a couple and everything's fine."
I breathed out a sign of relief and said "okay," then gave Clarke a hug.
"I have to go check on Lincoln I can only imagine how he's feeling if you and Raven are feeling this way and you hardly did anything. Can you check on Murphy? His bandages need to be changed."
"Yeah no problem," and she left just like that.
Bellamy's POV
"Dad," I heard Raven say as I was about to carry another log to the wall. I turned and there she stood tears streaming down her face looking like a mess. It still felt weird having Raven call me dad, I mean she's 17 and I'm 24. Clarke is 20 so in reality my daughter is only 3 years younger than my girlfriend.
Shaking my head to clear it I asked calmly, "what's wrong?"
"Are you mad at me? Do you hate me? Are you going to leave me? Are you going to leave camp? You're not answering my questions you must be leaving." The only thing stopping her from her rant was the sob that came straight from her chest.
"Sweetheart if you would breath I would answer you. No I'm not mad at you and I definitely don't hate you, I'm not going anywhere why would you think that?" I said bringing her in for a hug.
"W-we fucked everything u-up between you and C-larke." She said trying to calm herself down.
"No you didn't I promise me and Clarke are fine. We are actually better than fine."
"What do you mean? We all know what happened yesterday."
"Clarke and I are now a couple. The four of you made a pretty good plan I guess. Thanks sweetheart, now calm down you have that test today for the baby right. You don't want to stress him out before that do you?"
"I happy to hear and dad I'm going to have a girl I know it." She said as she wiped away her tears.
"We will see about that."
"You're going to be there right?" She asked hesitantly, I know that Raven is having a hard time trying to figure out where my limit is, the first time she called me dad was when I found out Miller got her pregnant 4 months ago. She's five months pregnant now, when I found out I attacked Miller I was punching him and I heard Clarke yelling out my name and I heard Octavia yell my name but nothing stopped me. That is until I heard Raven yell, "DADDY STOP!" I stopped mid punch shocked and at her out burst she got upset and ran away. I went to go find her and she said I was like a father figure to her and she never had one before she didn't have anyone to protect her growing up. It broke my heart and I told her that I would always protect her and that I didn't mind her calling me dad whenever she wanted to.
"Of course I'm coming I wouldn't miss it for the world." I said remembering her questions and seeing her squirming thinking I was going to say no. She breathed out a sign of relief, kissed my cheek and ran off without another word.
