This probable scene comes from Eclipse, Bella finds out from Rosalie that when Edward was away in South America "tracking" he did many inexcusable things. He tracked humans just like he had when he was estranged from Carlisle and Esme. Bella can't get it out of her head of Edward losing control of himself and hunting humans even if they were criminals. She resolves to give Edward space and herself some space from the monster that has arisen from Edward during their time apart, maybe in time Edward could come to terms with what he had done and maybe Bella's nightmares about Edward hunting her and the other humans she loves would resolve itself. Bella decides to wait till the Volturi come for her and be asked to be changed by one of them so none of the Cullen's would be at risk for breaking the treaty. If the Volturi do not come in time (before she is out of her teen years then she would go back to Italy and seek them out inside their own lair.) Bella sees no other way, her heart would have to stop beating one way or the other and Edward was dealing with too much right now to have her eternal soul to worry about too, In the meantime Bella would work on making Jacob see what her why she has made her decision and try to make amends with him before the Volturi come find her or she leave to find them.
This scene is of Bella working on making amends with Jacob who has finally called her back and has come up to see her. Bella wants to make Jacob understand that becoming a vampire is her only option.
Bella was happy this morning, looking forward to seeing Jacob. She had finally gotten him to agree to come and see her and she was now anxiously straightening up the kitchen waiting for him to knock on the door. When the knock finally did come she jumped, even though she had been waiting for that sound all morning. Running towards the door she opened it widely and there stood Jacob filling the whole doorway. They looked at each other trying to see what the other one would do first, but Bella was so impulsive that seeing Jake let a huge dazzling smile escape. Jacob couldn't help himself even though his mood was dark, just like the day before, but a small grin escaped as he took in Bella's reaction.
Jake come in, Charlie's gone to work.
I rather not, let's just walk
Ok, I closed the door and followed after Jacob who had already turned and was walking towards the forest.
I could see that Jacob was not yet letting his guard down; maybe a walk would do them some good.
Jacob led the way onto the path that would not take them deep into the woods behind Charlie's house, but far enough that they would be out of ear shot if anyone came looking for Bella at the house, well maybe if a human came looking for Bella at the house.
Jake, please I want to talk with you about what is going on and what happened when I was in Italy, then maybe you will understand what decision I have made and that it is the only option for me.
So Bella explained to Jacob what had gone on in Italy and that the Volturi were going to be coming to check to make sure that she was a vampire.
Jacob sat listening calmly until I told him that I was still planning on becoming a vampire even if none of the Cullen's could change me, and that I would just have to wait till the Volturi came to check on me. Jacob was calm up to the point that I was still planning on becoming a vampire, but he calmly said
Bella letting a bloodsucker bite you is not your only option.
Well what option have I left out?
You could let me bite you.
Bella stared at Jacob like he had two heads. Jacob I don't know what that would do for me. Are you saying that if you bite me then I would turn into a werewolf?
No, Bella when I bite you, you won't turn into a werewolf. If I bite you would be my mate. You would love me and you would have no memory of that bloodsucker.
Jacob actually smiled this time, a real smile that showed all of his teeth.
Well Jacob maybe I don't want you to bite me. Backing away a little
Well Bella it is a different option to you becoming a vampire, an option that I much prefer.
Well maybe it won't work, trying to find a loop hole in this option.
There is no maybe; if I bite you then you are mine, forever.
At this point Bella knew the Jacob was really considering biting her and that there was no going back, she would lose all her memories of Edward and it would be like their love had never happened.
I knew that I had to do something to try to change Jacob's mind, but he was still smiling at me and I could not stop the rise of panic creeping up my spine and it was pure natural reaction, I ran.
Of course I knew that there was no way I could out run the 6'5" werewolf Jacob even if he did not morph, but I did get farther to the door of my house than I expected. When I felt Jacob catch me around the waist and bring me down, onto thankfully the softest patch of grass that remained in front of my house, the scream that I had been holding screeched out. As he straddled me efficiently and pinned my arms I knew that it was going to be over soon that all my memories of Edward would be gone forever. This is the point where, finally, my life did flash before my eyes. I had never, in all my brushes with death seen my life pass before me. And my life memories were of Edward; of seeing him holding me in his arms, in the meadow with his skin glistening from the sun, of the intense look in his eyes when he told me that he would love me forever. All these memories flashed in front of me. I did not think of the recent nightmares of Edward hunting me my memories were only of my Edward the good Edward that I always knew he was and would always be. And that's when I screamed with more force this time, No!
No Jake it would be a lie if you bit me to make me love you. I don't love you like that. God help me I do love you, you know I do, but not like that I can't love you like that.
I love Edward with every fiber of my being every thought in my head is about him, every breath I take, every beat of my heart It is all for him. I have nothing left to give you.
Jacob looked down at me and realized where we were and that he was crushing me into the ground. He slightly shifted his weight so I could breathe but he did not release me.
Bella you could be with me, even if I did not bite you, we could protect you and you would be happy with me I swear it.
No Jacob, I love Edward, and I love you enough not to let you take me when I could not give you any of the love you deserve in return.
Jacob stared at me wanting to convince me that I was wrong that I could give him much more than I thought I could. After the longest time, enduring him staring at me I said forcefully to try to make him understand
I don't have anything to give you Jake
That's where you are wrong, Bella, He leaned closer to my face, there is something you can give me that you could never give that bloodsucker of yours. I stared questioningly at him not knowing what that something could be as I was wondering he leaned into the last space that separated us and was kissing me.
The warmth of his face, and lips against mine was burning He still held me down so I could not push him away, nor could I wrap my arms around him. The longer he kissed me that hotter he was against me and by the time he pulled away to separate us my face was scorching.
Your so hot, obviously not wanting to make it sound like that just stating the fact that his body temperature was far above what I was use to in so close proximity.
You should try kissing someone who is not as cold as stone more often. Grinning foolishly as I glared back at him
A passing wind washed over my face thankfully cooling it.
Jacob's head snapped up and his smile that had encompassed me was instantly gone as he sniffed the wind.
He's here. He growled in direction where the wind had come from.
Bella, you do have another option, and you can give me something that you could never give him.
He gently let go of my arms, and lightly whispered against my neck
You know that I will always be here for you. But I can't let you make stupid decisions.
And then he was gone, running down the driveway, keeping a clear distance for the area of the forest that the wind had come from.
Not a second later I felt cold arms wrap around me and all the heat that was left from Jacob was gone. Strong granite like arms held me up and a soft velvety voice cracked as it asked me
Are you hurt? Did that dog bite you? Alice said….. and then his voice cracked again as he started to search for puncture wounds on my neck and the rest of my body.
I gripped him tighter, hoarsely saying that I was not hurt that I had not been bitten.
And here I remained wrapped inside his granite embrace, loving the coolness as I placed my burning skin against his shoulder.
I felt a shudder come from his body and I knew that if vampires could cry he would now be crying with relief at finding me intact and wholly his.
