A/N: My first ever fan fic. Let me know what you think if I should keep going or not. I definitely have more ideas to take the story further.

Olivia looked at the clock. 'It's only 6.30' she thought. But she couldn't go back to sleep. She knew what day it was. 3 years. 3 years and she still thought about him every day. The way he walked, the way his shirt sat on his muscular body, that night.

"Mommy" a small voice broke her from her thoughts. Olivia looked over at the small child standing across from her. Gripping her little teddy with a tired look on her face. "Me sweep wif you?"

"Of course honey, jump up mommy's here. Did you have a bad dream?" But she didn't answer, Olivia stroked her short brown locks until she fell back asleep. 'My little angel" she thought smiling down at Ruby she gave her a kiss on the forehead and laid back down until her alarm went off.

It was 7 am the morning 3 years after the shooting, 3 years she has seen him. The man she loved so much but knew she could never have. He slipped away from her. It killed her every time this anniversary came around but she knew she had to be strong for her little girl. The little girl she thought she would never have. Her miracle child. Ruby.

"Ruby, wake up we need to get ready, Mommy has to go to work for a bit" Olivia tried to wake her little girl from her sleep. She hated it when she had to go into work on the weekends but they had a big case that she needed to close and today was the day they would get his confession.
"Ruby, Wake up" Olivia shook her gently to wake her up. "We need to get ready, we have to go to mommy's work". "But mommy it weekend" Ruby sat up arms crossed not wanting to go anywhere. "I know baby girl, but we will only be there for I little bit and then we will go to the park I promise"

"Yay, park park park lets go mommy!" Ruby jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom to get ready for her big day out with Olivia.

I was close to 9.30 am when they finally got the station. "Sorry I'm late, Ruby didn't want to wake up" she apologised putting ruby down. "No worries Olivia" Fin said picking ruby up and giving her a big cuddle. "Hey baby girl we gunna have some fun today". "mhmm" ruby said nodding and kissing Fin.

Olivia walked over to the board looking at all the evidence and just sat there 'it's finally over 3 months and we got the bastard' "I can't believe we did it" she said looking over to fin and ruby now sitting at his desk playing with his police badge. "3 months and 15 girls and we finally got him".

"Amanda and Nick should be here soon and we can close it all up" Fin said handing ruby to Olivia. "How are you today Olivia?" Fin asked knowing exactly what today was. "I'm fine, I just need to keep busy, and I'm taking Ruby to the park after so I'll be able to take my mind of it" Olivia knew she wasn't fine nowhere near it but she couldn't let her detective see that she had to be strong for them. Amanda and Nick may not have been there that horrible day 3 years ago but they still knew the toll it took on SVU and knew how much it had hurt Olivia.

"Mommy can we go know?" Ruby tugged on her pants. "Yes we can" Olivia said goodbye to her detectives and told them all to come in late tomorrow picked up Ruby grabbed her bag and left.

Olivia and Ruby got the park just before lunch. Olivia set up a mat on the grass and started taking out food for them both to eat. Once they were finished Ruby ran over to the swing "Mommy Swing Swing" Olivia followed her over and put her in the seat and strapped her in. She didn't see that he was watching the whole thing. He watched her push the little girl in the swing her brown hair swaying in the wind and her laugh. He instantly knew that was his little girl. 'But how?' He thought

Olivia felt someone watching them she turned around and saw him, just standing there watching them. "Elliot" she whispered. And just like that he turned and walked away. That hurt her, why didn't he atleast come and talk to her, why did he just walk away was it really going to be like that night? Did he really hate her that much?
"Come on Ruby lets go home, it's time for your nap" Olivia got her out of the swing and put her on the ground. They packed up their things and went home.

Later that night after Olivia had gotten Ruby down to bed, Olivia poured herself a glass of wine and sat down on the lounge lost in her thoughts. Why did he walk away? Would she ever see him again? There was so many things she wanted to tell him, so many things she wanted to ask him. Why did he leave without saying good bye? Would things be different if he had of stayed?

There was a knock on the door and Olivia jumped. 'Who would that be at this time of night' she thought as she walked to the door. She opened it and Elliot was standing there he looked drunk and he was crying. He was the first to speak " I just need to know, Is she mine?"