"Toboe, I can't breathe..." Those words played over and over in my head, why did I have to jump on her like that? I knew she wouldn't be able to handle it, what had made me do that then? If it weren't for my carelessness she would still be alive and her warm hands would still embrace me as I laid in her lap while she quietly hummed which would slowly ease me into sleep.
I walked on with these thoughts circling inside my head, my vision was blurry as I didn't really pay attention to where I was walking. My stomach hurt since I hadn't eaten in a few days, she would always feed me so I didn't know how to hunt. 'How will I be able to survive without you, Granny? Why can't you come back?' I thought. If she was here now and I coul communicate with her somehow, I know what I wold say to her, I would say 'I am so sorry' Sadly, she is gone now, and even if she could hear me it would only come out as barks and whines.
I looked down at my paw, three bracelets jingled with each step. They are all I have left of her, I remember that she had matching ones but she gave these to me and I could still very faintly smell her on them, she smelt a bit like flowers because of this odd stuff she used. She sprayed some of it on me before and it was a bit odd, however seeing the joy in her eyes made me happy. If she was feeling a certain emotion I would feel it as well and she would always tell me why she was feeling that way.
However, the one thing that was what I liked most about her was that ever since the beginning my needs would always be met. She didn't have a lot of money, so I couldn't get any of the best sot of things but it all was replaced by all the love she gave. I longed for her weak and wrinkled form to be right next to me like it always would be when we walked to the market.
I laid next to a wall and whimpered,"I miss you, Granny, and if you can hear this wherever you are, I love you and I'm sorry for any trouble I caused and for... That. And I want you to know that even though you can't come back, I miss you and I want you to still be here."
