Title: ....And Forever
Summary: Post-Voldie. James wasn't killed but he was kept in the depths of Riddle Manor. With Voldie's death, James is released from the spell that had bound him and returns to Hogwart's. Harry meets his father but he starts to discover things that he didn't want to know about James...
Warning: Male x Male
Notes: Harry is in his seventh year. Yes, you will see parallels between this story and Finding Hope in the Darkness, mostly concerning Chapter 18. X_X
Disclaimers: not mine. The song below is ...And Forever from the Big O anime and it's not mine either
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Sometimes I feel so all alone Finding myself callin' your name When we're apart, so far away Hopin' it's me that you're thinkin' of Could it be true, could it be real? My heart says that you're the one. There's noone else, you're the only one for me. Yes, this time my love's the real thing. Never felt that love is so right. The world seemed such an empty place. We need someone we could give our all. Baby, it's you, we'll be together now and forever.
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Hazel eyes shuddered open slowly for the first time in twenty years. The fathomless depths blinked rapidly to clear the film that covered them until they were at their full splendor. The pupils dilated and contracted several times to get used to seeing light once again. The tall and lean frame trembled as the muscles, bones, blood, and other vital necessities of life began to awaken from their two decade old rest. A pale hand rose, shakingly, towards disheveled raven hair, running through the tangled strands almost as if checking to see if this were a dream.
"I'm alive," the voice rasped, unused to speaking. The young man rose weakly to his feet and cast an inquisitive glance around the room he was in. Flashes of the past greeted him upon seeing the alter that he'd been chained to while a Death Eater cast a spell to assure he wouldn't retaliate. James Potter cringed, remembering how the spell had taken exruciatingly long to finish as his body froze from toes to head. How long had he been here? What had happened that had freed him?
James hesitantly pulled the door open, greeted by a sudden rush of cold wind as he stepped into the dimly lit corridor. There wasn't a Death Eater there to welcome him back to reality nor was there any other life teeming in the seemingly abandoned dungeon. The cobwebs and rats were evidence of that. James felt inside the sleeve of his robe, godsmacked that his wand was there. A deluge of fiery swept though him. Knowing the Death Eater's, they'd positioned the wand on him in order to humiliate him.
With a simple fire spell, James judged that the wind was coming from an underground passage that would hopefully lead him from Riddle Manor Dungeons. With the flame flickering, James wound through the maze of corridors, half-expecting for the vast prison to be full of Voldemort's enemies but the cells were all empty. Something James found peculiar because he could have sworn that when he was being roughly dragged through the winding corridors that he had heard people being tormented.
True to James's calculations, the corridor he was in abruptly stopped and the sun flooded his path. The gardens and grass were overgrown and the exterior of the manor was demolished in several places but James couldn't help but be marveled. Why did it feel so long since he'd seen the outside world? It couldn't have been that long ago that he was imprisoned, could it? The birds were singing their lullabies in the trees, a few small animals scurried into the bushes, butterflies and bees did their magic on the wildflowers. James inhaled, relieved to be alive.
Then, thoughts went to Lilly and his infant son. He doubted they had fared as well as he had. James sighed. He wasn't going to get depressed. He couldn't do anything for his deceased family any longer. It was time to think about himself and what it was he could do. There was only one obvious place that he could go to but he was reluctant to return to Hogwart's. He didn't want to give anyone a heartattack. Summoning his courage, James apparated to Hogsmeade.
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The familiar sights, sounds and smells were welcoming as James appeared at Hogsmeade. His cowl shadowed his face so he wouldn't be spotted by anyone that might know him. There was an oddness in the air. Almost....a happiness. A happiness that he hadn't sensed in years. James looked around the village. There seemed to be festivities. Children were laughing and playing, banners in some of their hands. The adults were milling around, greeting other wizard's with such gaiety and joy that James was taken aback. Where was the fear of Voldemort?
James was confused and he knew he would get his answers from Albus. He ignored the few stares and pointing in his direction as he advanced towards Hogwart's. He passed students on his way, surprised when he thought he recognised some of his friends in their youthful visages. That was impossible though. These children had to be in their teens. James breathed in deeply as he entered Hogwart's.
It had changed since his school days and was puzzling was the same banners and same celebration as he'd seen in Hogsmeade. What was going on? James cast an aura-sensing spell, looking for Dumbledore. He was in his office. Thank Merlin. Memories of his years at Hogwart's floated in his mind. His friends, Lilly, the awful tricks that the Marauder's would play on the Slytherin's, and Severus.
James paused in front of the gargoyles, surprised when they moved for him immediately. James grinned wanly. He shouldn't have been shocked that Albus already knew he was at Hogwart's. James calmed his erratic pulse and knotted entrails as he opened the doors to Albus's office. His lips parted in a silent cry as his hazel eyes flitted from the beaming Albus to a dark haired man seated across from the Headmaster. The man's obsidian eyes widened, entire face draining of colour. James released a shaky breath, disbelieving that the person was in fact who he was.
"Wh...what the hell?!" Severus Snape lept from the chair, staring at James as he trembled with the onslaught of all the different emotions he was experiencing. "It can't be! It just can't be! You died! You can't be alive!" Severus shook his head, swallowing the lump in his throat and going in reverse until he was cornered.
"Sev," James breathed, tears beginning to form. "Oh Sev, I'm alive."
"Is this some sort of sick joke? I saw you die. I was responsible for it!" Severus bellowed, brows knitted, switching to fury. "No! Stay away from me!" he grabbed his wand, pointing in James's direction as the younger man began to walk towards him. "I will not take part in this cruelty so whoever is waiting outside those doors can laugh at me."
"Severus, please, I know this is difficult for you to understand but I am real. I'm not some type of phantom. Lower your wand." James pleaded, hands raised in the defensive, knowing that Severus was a ticking bomb and any second he could explode. "Please."
That was voice that he had once been so used to obeying. That voice that Severus was the only one priviledged enough to hear in the throes of passion, that voice that would soothe him like a lullaby, that voice that would utter sweet nothings in his ears. "I can't," Severus choked, unable to prevent the few tears that streaked his cheeks. "I'm afraid this is a dream."
James smiled, closing the distance between them. He gently lowered his hand to cup Severus's cheek. "Do you feel me, Sev?" Severus nodded, eyes shuddering close. Merlin, how long had it been since he'd been touched by anyone that make his entire being be consumed with fire? "Then this isn't a dream and I assure you that I'm flesh and blood." James wryly grinned. "You still look the same, just more.....sad."
Severus allowed James to slip his other arm around his waist as he buried his head against James's chest. The heart beat was strong and clear, beating as fast as his. James was just as nervous as he was. "It's been nearly twenty years, James."
James visage went pale. "Twenty years? I've been under that spell for twenty years? That's impossible. It doesn't feel like that long. That means, you're in your fourties, doesn't it?"
Severus laughed sardonically. "Yes, and you can't be more than twenty- five."
"Twenty-two, actually," Albus remarked from his desk, eyes glittering with amusement. James hastily released Severus. "James, how nice to see you looking so well. You and Severus need to have a long discussion regarding....things....that have happened since you were put under that spell and before. You need to settle your feelings but not yet. I think it best I inform you, James, of what has happened to cause you to be released from the bonds of Glacialis."
James took a seat, thankful that Severus sat beside him. He knew that he and Severus required a conversation to relieve Severus's guilt and to also see where they stood with each other now. "I don't understand Albus. I still look the same yet Severus has aged."
"Glacialis is a spell that freezes the body and ends the corrosion of time upon the being. It was originally designed to aide the diseased when modern potions and magic weren't available but would be in the future so that the patient could be treated. Unfortunately, those who had an evil agenda decided to use Glacialis against their enemies in a terrible form of torture."
"I see. That explains the ageing but why was I suddenly freed from Glacialis?"
Albus grinned. "Voldemort is no longer a threat to the world. He's dead."
James laughed, feeling a weight lift from his shoulders. "Dead! How'd you do it Albus?" Albus and Severus shared a Look that was not missed by James. "What is it?"
"I did not defeat Voldemort. Someone else more powerful than I finally ended Voldemort's reign of terror."
"Well who was it? Must be a powerful wizard if he's surpassed you."
"James, this might be hard for you to hear, extremely hard." James cocked his head to the side in confusion, glancing from Albus's face to Severus's. "As you are no doubt well aware, Lilly was murdered by the hands of Voldemort. James, your son survived."
"What?" James whispered.
"It's true. Because of the love that you and Lilly had for him, the killing curse that Voldemort was going use was reflected back at him. For eleven years, Voldemort regained the power that was nearly drained from him but I shall leave the details of Harry's life to him. He will be eager to share them with you."
"I can't be a father to him. I'm probably only a few years older than him! Albus, will you excuse me? I'd like to take a walk."
"Of course you're excused, James."
"Thank you. Severus, you may join me if you wish." Severus nodded, holding onto the shaking young man's arm as they exited the room, James pulling the cowl of his robes over his face. "Harry survived. I thought that he was dead. My son, how can I even call him that when I wasn't even around for more than a year of his life? Will he be angry with me? Hate me?"
"For seven years, all I've had to hear from your son is how much he misses his parents and loves them. Everything he's ever done was in order to make you proud. He could never hate you James."
"Hmm. Severus, I don't blame you for what happened to me or Lilly. I don't blame you for being angry with me. I betrayed our love because of a wish from my parents. It was stupid of me. If anyone should be mad, it should be you, at me."
"I carried my anger and guilt with me and it only seemed to become greater when Harry entered Hogwart's. Everytime I looked at the boy, I saw you and was reminded of our past together. I'll admit that I haven't been exactly kind to him and he'll probably tell you what an insufferable git I am."
James smirked. "I've always known that you were an insufferable git but you're my insufferable git so I'm only allowed to call you that."
Severus sank down onto one of the windowseats, gazing fondly at James. He was still so attractive. "You want me, even now? I'm not who I used to be James. I've done terrible things and I wouldn't take any of them back. There are things that even you don't know. Time hasn't been as kind to me as it has been to you."
"You'll always be beautiful to me Sev." James joined Severus, removing the cowl. It was true that most people didn't find Severus physically attractive but James did. The inky black hair that was so soft to the touch despite the sheen of grease that came from laboring over cauldrons. The bottomless onyx eyes that showed emotion only to him. The pale skin that was like velvet to the touch. The frame that was so slender that it seemed feminine.
"Only you would think so."
"Forever. What have you been doing with your life?"
"I teach Potions and I'm a Potions Master. I'm surprised you haven't asked about Black, Lupin or Pettigrew."
James laughed. "I was going to, just not yet. I'm more interested in you at the moment." Severus rolled his eyes. "Alright, Alright, tell me what my beloved friends have been doing in these years that I've been away from the world."
"Pettigrew betrayed you and your friends for a greater reward from Voldemort. You'll be happy to know that Harry personally killed the bastard."
James shook his head. "I can't believe Peter would have done something like that. I mean, I always knew that he was jealous of Sirius and Remus's relationship and to an extent, was jealous of my popularity but I wouldn't have thought he would do something so vile. I'm glad he's dead."
"Black was sent to Azkaban for the your murders as well as thirteen muggles."
"Azkaban?!"
"I'm afraid so but he escaped after twelve years. The more romantically inclined believe that Black was driven by his intense love for Lupin. I, however, believe that Black went insane. The insane have been known to do remarkable feats. In my opinion, Black is still crazy," Severus grumbled. "Lupin was without work, just doing odd jobs in villages that didn't know he was werewolf until Albus brought him to work at Hogwart's four years ago to be the Defense Against the Dark Arts instructor. I hate to say but I exposed him as werewolf and the horrified parents sent letters complaining to Albus about it. Lupin felt it best he quit." James gave Severus a glare. "Don't look at me like that. I was still angry with him. Lupin and Black reunited that year and it's safe to assume that they consummated their love for the remaining years that Black was alive."
"Siri's....dead?"
"I'm getting to that just shut up. Anyway, we re-organised the Order of the Phoenix two years ago and since Black was a convicted felon on the run from the Ministry, he was given specific orders to remain at Grimmauld. Kreacher, the Black family elf, told secrets to the Malfoy's thus letting Voldemort know that the one person Harry cared the most about was Black. Voldemort set up a trap and Bellatrix killed Sirius. However, last year, Harry went through a few ordeals, a tournament of sorts in magic, and since he won the tournament, he was able to recieved any Dark Item he wanted. He chose the Forlorn Hope, a mirror that can grant anyone's wish in exchange for that persons's life. Harry wished to resurrect Sirius but it would seem that Draco Malfoy wasn't ready for Harry to die so he wished for the mirror to take his life instead. Because of Draco's unselfish sacrifice, the mirror granted the wish without taking either of their lives."
"That's....a bit hard to digest. Okay, so, Sirius was dead and brought back to life by the Forlorn Hope and my son is gay with a Malfoy being his boyfriend?"
"No, I'm not positive if Harry's gay but I know that Draco does have feelings for him. Draco betrayed his father for the Light but I know he actually did it for Harry. Unfortunately, Harry doesn't return those feelings and openly disdains Draco." Severus shrugged. "But, I'm not getting into that. Your Harry's father so it's your job to talk to him about it. Speaking of Harry would you like to meet your son?"
"I...I...don't know. What would I say to him? Do?"
"What your heart tells you to." Severus took James's hand, hoisting him to his feet. "We're going, whether you like it or not." Ignorning James's protests, Severus led James's towards the Gryffindor Tower. Severus knew Sirius and Remus would be in there with him, probably with several of his friends and there was no greater gift than the one that Harry was about to recieve.
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O.o That was nearly five pages. I really hope you all review. It would make me so happy and to know I haven't wasted my time writing this.
Questions you readers might have:
Q. Why didn't you let James and Severus suffer a little before getting them together? A. Because, James and Severus will be going through some rocky times during the course of this rather short story and I wanted there to be some happiness at the beginning. Besides, they had once loved each other very, very much and it's only right they renew it.
Q. What the hell is wrong with you making all the main characters gay? A. Since I became obsessed with the slash/yaoi genre, I find that I absolutely loathe the main female characters and refuse to pair them with my favourite boys.
Q. What couples are already established? A. Sirius/Remus, Ron/Hermione, James/Severus, Ginny/Dean, Billy/Fleur, Seamus/Blaise, Neville/Lavendar, Percy/Oliver
Q. Will there be Draco and Harry? A. That all depends. Either you readers can choose that Harry never accepts Draco's love and dates Luna Lovegood or he does accept Draco's love. It's up to you.
Q. Will the story delve into the other relationships? A. You will most definitely see side stories involving Draco and Harry, and Sirius/Remus. The others are only used as a backbone for the story.
Q. I recognize the bit about the tournament, where did it come from? A. The reference to the tournament in the fifth paragraph near the bottom comes from Yuu Yuu Hakusho; the Dark Tournament in which Yusuke's team fights through and finally ends up winning against the Toguro Team. The Forlorn Hope is also from Yuu Yuu Hakusho and during YYH, Kurama steals it in order to save his mother's life. Yusuke asks the Forlorn Hope to take his life instead so Kurama wouldn't have to leave his mother. The mirror spares both of their lives.
Q. Why do you never update your old stories? A. I get sick of fandoms very quickly, as seen with my Yugioh, Gundam Wing, Rurouni Kenshin and Dragonball Z stories. Honestly, until this Harry Potter obsession dissipates, I doubt I will be updating any other stories from any other fandoms.
Q. Which stories will be updated soon and will there be any new ones? A. Finding Hope in the Darkness should be updated within a few days. I'm estimating that there only three or so more chapters of it. Quid me Nutrit me Destruit will be updated in a week. You can always check my user panel by accesing my name to see when things will be updated.
Thank you for your time, my cabbits. :-)
Summary: Post-Voldie. James wasn't killed but he was kept in the depths of Riddle Manor. With Voldie's death, James is released from the spell that had bound him and returns to Hogwart's. Harry meets his father but he starts to discover things that he didn't want to know about James...
Warning: Male x Male
Notes: Harry is in his seventh year. Yes, you will see parallels between this story and Finding Hope in the Darkness, mostly concerning Chapter 18. X_X
Disclaimers: not mine. The song below is ...And Forever from the Big O anime and it's not mine either
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Sometimes I feel so all alone Finding myself callin' your name When we're apart, so far away Hopin' it's me that you're thinkin' of Could it be true, could it be real? My heart says that you're the one. There's noone else, you're the only one for me. Yes, this time my love's the real thing. Never felt that love is so right. The world seemed such an empty place. We need someone we could give our all. Baby, it's you, we'll be together now and forever.
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Hazel eyes shuddered open slowly for the first time in twenty years. The fathomless depths blinked rapidly to clear the film that covered them until they were at their full splendor. The pupils dilated and contracted several times to get used to seeing light once again. The tall and lean frame trembled as the muscles, bones, blood, and other vital necessities of life began to awaken from their two decade old rest. A pale hand rose, shakingly, towards disheveled raven hair, running through the tangled strands almost as if checking to see if this were a dream.
"I'm alive," the voice rasped, unused to speaking. The young man rose weakly to his feet and cast an inquisitive glance around the room he was in. Flashes of the past greeted him upon seeing the alter that he'd been chained to while a Death Eater cast a spell to assure he wouldn't retaliate. James Potter cringed, remembering how the spell had taken exruciatingly long to finish as his body froze from toes to head. How long had he been here? What had happened that had freed him?
James hesitantly pulled the door open, greeted by a sudden rush of cold wind as he stepped into the dimly lit corridor. There wasn't a Death Eater there to welcome him back to reality nor was there any other life teeming in the seemingly abandoned dungeon. The cobwebs and rats were evidence of that. James felt inside the sleeve of his robe, godsmacked that his wand was there. A deluge of fiery swept though him. Knowing the Death Eater's, they'd positioned the wand on him in order to humiliate him.
With a simple fire spell, James judged that the wind was coming from an underground passage that would hopefully lead him from Riddle Manor Dungeons. With the flame flickering, James wound through the maze of corridors, half-expecting for the vast prison to be full of Voldemort's enemies but the cells were all empty. Something James found peculiar because he could have sworn that when he was being roughly dragged through the winding corridors that he had heard people being tormented.
True to James's calculations, the corridor he was in abruptly stopped and the sun flooded his path. The gardens and grass were overgrown and the exterior of the manor was demolished in several places but James couldn't help but be marveled. Why did it feel so long since he'd seen the outside world? It couldn't have been that long ago that he was imprisoned, could it? The birds were singing their lullabies in the trees, a few small animals scurried into the bushes, butterflies and bees did their magic on the wildflowers. James inhaled, relieved to be alive.
Then, thoughts went to Lilly and his infant son. He doubted they had fared as well as he had. James sighed. He wasn't going to get depressed. He couldn't do anything for his deceased family any longer. It was time to think about himself and what it was he could do. There was only one obvious place that he could go to but he was reluctant to return to Hogwart's. He didn't want to give anyone a heartattack. Summoning his courage, James apparated to Hogsmeade.
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The familiar sights, sounds and smells were welcoming as James appeared at Hogsmeade. His cowl shadowed his face so he wouldn't be spotted by anyone that might know him. There was an oddness in the air. Almost....a happiness. A happiness that he hadn't sensed in years. James looked around the village. There seemed to be festivities. Children were laughing and playing, banners in some of their hands. The adults were milling around, greeting other wizard's with such gaiety and joy that James was taken aback. Where was the fear of Voldemort?
James was confused and he knew he would get his answers from Albus. He ignored the few stares and pointing in his direction as he advanced towards Hogwart's. He passed students on his way, surprised when he thought he recognised some of his friends in their youthful visages. That was impossible though. These children had to be in their teens. James breathed in deeply as he entered Hogwart's.
It had changed since his school days and was puzzling was the same banners and same celebration as he'd seen in Hogsmeade. What was going on? James cast an aura-sensing spell, looking for Dumbledore. He was in his office. Thank Merlin. Memories of his years at Hogwart's floated in his mind. His friends, Lilly, the awful tricks that the Marauder's would play on the Slytherin's, and Severus.
James paused in front of the gargoyles, surprised when they moved for him immediately. James grinned wanly. He shouldn't have been shocked that Albus already knew he was at Hogwart's. James calmed his erratic pulse and knotted entrails as he opened the doors to Albus's office. His lips parted in a silent cry as his hazel eyes flitted from the beaming Albus to a dark haired man seated across from the Headmaster. The man's obsidian eyes widened, entire face draining of colour. James released a shaky breath, disbelieving that the person was in fact who he was.
"Wh...what the hell?!" Severus Snape lept from the chair, staring at James as he trembled with the onslaught of all the different emotions he was experiencing. "It can't be! It just can't be! You died! You can't be alive!" Severus shook his head, swallowing the lump in his throat and going in reverse until he was cornered.
"Sev," James breathed, tears beginning to form. "Oh Sev, I'm alive."
"Is this some sort of sick joke? I saw you die. I was responsible for it!" Severus bellowed, brows knitted, switching to fury. "No! Stay away from me!" he grabbed his wand, pointing in James's direction as the younger man began to walk towards him. "I will not take part in this cruelty so whoever is waiting outside those doors can laugh at me."
"Severus, please, I know this is difficult for you to understand but I am real. I'm not some type of phantom. Lower your wand." James pleaded, hands raised in the defensive, knowing that Severus was a ticking bomb and any second he could explode. "Please."
That was voice that he had once been so used to obeying. That voice that Severus was the only one priviledged enough to hear in the throes of passion, that voice that would soothe him like a lullaby, that voice that would utter sweet nothings in his ears. "I can't," Severus choked, unable to prevent the few tears that streaked his cheeks. "I'm afraid this is a dream."
James smiled, closing the distance between them. He gently lowered his hand to cup Severus's cheek. "Do you feel me, Sev?" Severus nodded, eyes shuddering close. Merlin, how long had it been since he'd been touched by anyone that make his entire being be consumed with fire? "Then this isn't a dream and I assure you that I'm flesh and blood." James wryly grinned. "You still look the same, just more.....sad."
Severus allowed James to slip his other arm around his waist as he buried his head against James's chest. The heart beat was strong and clear, beating as fast as his. James was just as nervous as he was. "It's been nearly twenty years, James."
James visage went pale. "Twenty years? I've been under that spell for twenty years? That's impossible. It doesn't feel like that long. That means, you're in your fourties, doesn't it?"
Severus laughed sardonically. "Yes, and you can't be more than twenty- five."
"Twenty-two, actually," Albus remarked from his desk, eyes glittering with amusement. James hastily released Severus. "James, how nice to see you looking so well. You and Severus need to have a long discussion regarding....things....that have happened since you were put under that spell and before. You need to settle your feelings but not yet. I think it best I inform you, James, of what has happened to cause you to be released from the bonds of Glacialis."
James took a seat, thankful that Severus sat beside him. He knew that he and Severus required a conversation to relieve Severus's guilt and to also see where they stood with each other now. "I don't understand Albus. I still look the same yet Severus has aged."
"Glacialis is a spell that freezes the body and ends the corrosion of time upon the being. It was originally designed to aide the diseased when modern potions and magic weren't available but would be in the future so that the patient could be treated. Unfortunately, those who had an evil agenda decided to use Glacialis against their enemies in a terrible form of torture."
"I see. That explains the ageing but why was I suddenly freed from Glacialis?"
Albus grinned. "Voldemort is no longer a threat to the world. He's dead."
James laughed, feeling a weight lift from his shoulders. "Dead! How'd you do it Albus?" Albus and Severus shared a Look that was not missed by James. "What is it?"
"I did not defeat Voldemort. Someone else more powerful than I finally ended Voldemort's reign of terror."
"Well who was it? Must be a powerful wizard if he's surpassed you."
"James, this might be hard for you to hear, extremely hard." James cocked his head to the side in confusion, glancing from Albus's face to Severus's. "As you are no doubt well aware, Lilly was murdered by the hands of Voldemort. James, your son survived."
"What?" James whispered.
"It's true. Because of the love that you and Lilly had for him, the killing curse that Voldemort was going use was reflected back at him. For eleven years, Voldemort regained the power that was nearly drained from him but I shall leave the details of Harry's life to him. He will be eager to share them with you."
"I can't be a father to him. I'm probably only a few years older than him! Albus, will you excuse me? I'd like to take a walk."
"Of course you're excused, James."
"Thank you. Severus, you may join me if you wish." Severus nodded, holding onto the shaking young man's arm as they exited the room, James pulling the cowl of his robes over his face. "Harry survived. I thought that he was dead. My son, how can I even call him that when I wasn't even around for more than a year of his life? Will he be angry with me? Hate me?"
"For seven years, all I've had to hear from your son is how much he misses his parents and loves them. Everything he's ever done was in order to make you proud. He could never hate you James."
"Hmm. Severus, I don't blame you for what happened to me or Lilly. I don't blame you for being angry with me. I betrayed our love because of a wish from my parents. It was stupid of me. If anyone should be mad, it should be you, at me."
"I carried my anger and guilt with me and it only seemed to become greater when Harry entered Hogwart's. Everytime I looked at the boy, I saw you and was reminded of our past together. I'll admit that I haven't been exactly kind to him and he'll probably tell you what an insufferable git I am."
James smirked. "I've always known that you were an insufferable git but you're my insufferable git so I'm only allowed to call you that."
Severus sank down onto one of the windowseats, gazing fondly at James. He was still so attractive. "You want me, even now? I'm not who I used to be James. I've done terrible things and I wouldn't take any of them back. There are things that even you don't know. Time hasn't been as kind to me as it has been to you."
"You'll always be beautiful to me Sev." James joined Severus, removing the cowl. It was true that most people didn't find Severus physically attractive but James did. The inky black hair that was so soft to the touch despite the sheen of grease that came from laboring over cauldrons. The bottomless onyx eyes that showed emotion only to him. The pale skin that was like velvet to the touch. The frame that was so slender that it seemed feminine.
"Only you would think so."
"Forever. What have you been doing with your life?"
"I teach Potions and I'm a Potions Master. I'm surprised you haven't asked about Black, Lupin or Pettigrew."
James laughed. "I was going to, just not yet. I'm more interested in you at the moment." Severus rolled his eyes. "Alright, Alright, tell me what my beloved friends have been doing in these years that I've been away from the world."
"Pettigrew betrayed you and your friends for a greater reward from Voldemort. You'll be happy to know that Harry personally killed the bastard."
James shook his head. "I can't believe Peter would have done something like that. I mean, I always knew that he was jealous of Sirius and Remus's relationship and to an extent, was jealous of my popularity but I wouldn't have thought he would do something so vile. I'm glad he's dead."
"Black was sent to Azkaban for the your murders as well as thirteen muggles."
"Azkaban?!"
"I'm afraid so but he escaped after twelve years. The more romantically inclined believe that Black was driven by his intense love for Lupin. I, however, believe that Black went insane. The insane have been known to do remarkable feats. In my opinion, Black is still crazy," Severus grumbled. "Lupin was without work, just doing odd jobs in villages that didn't know he was werewolf until Albus brought him to work at Hogwart's four years ago to be the Defense Against the Dark Arts instructor. I hate to say but I exposed him as werewolf and the horrified parents sent letters complaining to Albus about it. Lupin felt it best he quit." James gave Severus a glare. "Don't look at me like that. I was still angry with him. Lupin and Black reunited that year and it's safe to assume that they consummated their love for the remaining years that Black was alive."
"Siri's....dead?"
"I'm getting to that just shut up. Anyway, we re-organised the Order of the Phoenix two years ago and since Black was a convicted felon on the run from the Ministry, he was given specific orders to remain at Grimmauld. Kreacher, the Black family elf, told secrets to the Malfoy's thus letting Voldemort know that the one person Harry cared the most about was Black. Voldemort set up a trap and Bellatrix killed Sirius. However, last year, Harry went through a few ordeals, a tournament of sorts in magic, and since he won the tournament, he was able to recieved any Dark Item he wanted. He chose the Forlorn Hope, a mirror that can grant anyone's wish in exchange for that persons's life. Harry wished to resurrect Sirius but it would seem that Draco Malfoy wasn't ready for Harry to die so he wished for the mirror to take his life instead. Because of Draco's unselfish sacrifice, the mirror granted the wish without taking either of their lives."
"That's....a bit hard to digest. Okay, so, Sirius was dead and brought back to life by the Forlorn Hope and my son is gay with a Malfoy being his boyfriend?"
"No, I'm not positive if Harry's gay but I know that Draco does have feelings for him. Draco betrayed his father for the Light but I know he actually did it for Harry. Unfortunately, Harry doesn't return those feelings and openly disdains Draco." Severus shrugged. "But, I'm not getting into that. Your Harry's father so it's your job to talk to him about it. Speaking of Harry would you like to meet your son?"
"I...I...don't know. What would I say to him? Do?"
"What your heart tells you to." Severus took James's hand, hoisting him to his feet. "We're going, whether you like it or not." Ignorning James's protests, Severus led James's towards the Gryffindor Tower. Severus knew Sirius and Remus would be in there with him, probably with several of his friends and there was no greater gift than the one that Harry was about to recieve.
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O.o That was nearly five pages. I really hope you all review. It would make me so happy and to know I haven't wasted my time writing this.
Questions you readers might have:
Q. Why didn't you let James and Severus suffer a little before getting them together? A. Because, James and Severus will be going through some rocky times during the course of this rather short story and I wanted there to be some happiness at the beginning. Besides, they had once loved each other very, very much and it's only right they renew it.
Q. What the hell is wrong with you making all the main characters gay? A. Since I became obsessed with the slash/yaoi genre, I find that I absolutely loathe the main female characters and refuse to pair them with my favourite boys.
Q. What couples are already established? A. Sirius/Remus, Ron/Hermione, James/Severus, Ginny/Dean, Billy/Fleur, Seamus/Blaise, Neville/Lavendar, Percy/Oliver
Q. Will there be Draco and Harry? A. That all depends. Either you readers can choose that Harry never accepts Draco's love and dates Luna Lovegood or he does accept Draco's love. It's up to you.
Q. Will the story delve into the other relationships? A. You will most definitely see side stories involving Draco and Harry, and Sirius/Remus. The others are only used as a backbone for the story.
Q. I recognize the bit about the tournament, where did it come from? A. The reference to the tournament in the fifth paragraph near the bottom comes from Yuu Yuu Hakusho; the Dark Tournament in which Yusuke's team fights through and finally ends up winning against the Toguro Team. The Forlorn Hope is also from Yuu Yuu Hakusho and during YYH, Kurama steals it in order to save his mother's life. Yusuke asks the Forlorn Hope to take his life instead so Kurama wouldn't have to leave his mother. The mirror spares both of their lives.
Q. Why do you never update your old stories? A. I get sick of fandoms very quickly, as seen with my Yugioh, Gundam Wing, Rurouni Kenshin and Dragonball Z stories. Honestly, until this Harry Potter obsession dissipates, I doubt I will be updating any other stories from any other fandoms.
Q. Which stories will be updated soon and will there be any new ones? A. Finding Hope in the Darkness should be updated within a few days. I'm estimating that there only three or so more chapters of it. Quid me Nutrit me Destruit will be updated in a week. You can always check my user panel by accesing my name to see when things will be updated.
Thank you for your time, my cabbits. :-)
