He came to see me the night he died. Showed up at my door at 2.30 in the morning. Needlessly to say I wasn't impressed and was probably wasn't as concerned as I should have been. I didn't notice the signs then, although it is obvious to me now that something was seriously wrong.

"Please," he begged me. That was the first sign. He wanted something from me. This was unusual for the proud, arrogant boy.

His eyes beseeched me and I didn't care. All I was aware of was that it was many hours after curfew and my sleep was being disturbed.

"What do you want?" I asked him impatiently.

He refused to properly look at me, that's what sticks out to me now. The fact he refused to look me in the eyes.

"Nothing, I… I, don't want anything, I just, I'm not sure what I want," he was mumbling and I remember struggling to hear him and when I leaned closer, smelt the unmistakable alcohol fumes radiating off the boy.

I should have said something, I should have punished him about his drinking. But it was late and I was tired. I thought I could simply deal with it in the morning.

"As much as I enjoy your rambling at ridiculous hours of the morning, I suggest you return to your dormitory before I seriously lose my temper."

He looked down and I remember feeling slightly concerned for the boy. Not concerned enough to stop him leaving though. He just looked so pale and tired.

"I just wanted to say thanks," he said quietly, before turning and walking away. That's my final image of the boy, looking so defeated, frozen forever at the age of seventeen.

"Little Dragon," I called after him, using the old familiar nickname. "Get some sleep."

He turned and gave me a sad smile, before leaving my sight forever.

I do remember I lingered a while in the corridor, concern niggling at the back of my mind. But it wasn't enough and I turned and went back to bed. The Headmaster summoned me early the next morning. Subconsciously I think I knew. But I still wasn't prepared.

"It's not your fault," he informs me.

No it isn't. But last night, you asked me to save you and I didn't care.