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Hands touch

Eyes meet

Sudden silence, sudden heat

Hearts leap in a giddy whirl

He could be that boy…

I watched as Freddie placed his hand on Carly's. She, of course, slapped his hand right away. He took her hand again and looked her in the eye, to ask her out…Again. She fell silent, and he had a look on his face as though he wished to stay there, holding her hand, forever. As always Carly didn't realize how lucky she truly was to have Freddie after her, and turned him down.

I watched as his hopeful face fell into one of disappointment and dissatisfaction. And Carly just looked guilty.

I hate it.

I am always stuck being the "evil" one just so that I can get the dork to talk to me. If I were to not do any mean things to him, he wouldn't even know I existed. Why do I have to like Freddie? Fredward Benson! At one time in my life I would've felt sick to the stomach at the very thought. Not anymore.

But he loves Carly.

Don't dream too far

Don't lose sight of who you are

Don't remember that rush of joy

He could be that boy…

I knew I should've never gotten my hopes up. I don't even know who I am anymore. Maybe that's my problem.

My whole life is now based on getting Freddie's attention, and trying to forget the one moment we shared together, on the fire escape. He held to his side of the bargain, and I was internally exploding with joy.

Every so often we long to steal to the land of what might have been

But that doesn't soften the ache we feel

When reality sets back in…

Every time I see him, I just think of what it would be like if he felt like I did. If that kiss meant as much to him as it did to me, but I quickly come down from the clouds and call him a dork. Hurting myself more than ever dreaming of hurting him.

Blithe smile

Lithe limb

She who's winsome

She wins him

"Gold" hair with a gentle curl

He could be that boy

I watched as Carly flirted, not even trying to flirt. I watched as she was so charming and beautiful.

Carly won the prize. She won Freddie.

Don't wish

Don't start

Wishing only wounds the heart

I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl

There's a girl I know

He loves her so….

I can't do this to myself. I can't desire for something, so strong, and then never possess it. It makes my body ache, and makes my heart rip out of my chest.

I know that people like me don't deserve people like Freddie. Freddie deserves someone that is beautiful and caring, not an obnoxious, meat-loving friend.

I'm Not That Girl

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R&R!! Very sad, I know. I don't have enough time to update all of my other stories along with a busy summer schedule and make a happy ending sequel, so if you are interested either review or send me a PM and you can make an alternate story, as a follow-up. Or I could try to work it in. Or maybe just leave it as it is, a sad ending. Either way, REVIEW PLEASE! =] =D =) =u)

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