I say a silent prayer for you as I watch you cradle her lifeless body in your arms
I say a silent prayer for that precious little boy whose eyes bore innocence
Unaware of what took place minutes ago
And tonight when he cries out to his Mom, the sound of her sweet voice will no longer be heard.
I say a silent prayer as I hear you cry for the first time since I have known you
You have always been so strong
I say a silent prayer that each of us will have the strength to be move on from this
Months have passed without a word from you
I say a silent prayer for myself that I will be able to hold on
I never meant to fall in love with you
And I never meant for your son to have such a precious place in my heart
But my heart never did listen when it came to you
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and your beautiful son
Cases used to distract me from these unwanted thoughts and feelings for you
But now, they only make me miss you more
Because the strength I look to in times when my emotions
Seem to get the better of me is no longer there
I can tell you how many times I tried to dial your number
But my pride and self-preservation are what I have left
If I lose either one, then I will break
Another case we closed
Another bad guy we caught
But it never seems to end
This loneliness I feel
As I drive home, all I could think of is you
I see silhouettes of a tall man and a little boy
And I could feel my heart beat a thousand miles per hour
I know it's you and Jack
I smile for the first time in months
I'm trying to steady my heart
But the hell with it, I have missed you both so much
Jack is in my arms now
Hugging me so tight
"I miss you, Emily."
"I miss you too, Jack."
"How are you?"
"I'm okay."
"Emily, I love you. Don't ever leave us again, okay?"
"I promise you that I will never leave you and your Daddy again."
You walked over to where Jack and I are standing
You have that shy look on your face
And I could only smile.
You hugged us both and whispered something only I could hear…"I'm sorry. And thank you for hanging on."
We are now in bed, with Jack in between us.
He is hugging me like he's afraid that I would disappear the next morning
And you're holding my hand as if you're holding on for dear life
I look at you and I look at Jack
I tell you, "We are going to be fine. And I'm never letting go. I love you."
And then you said, "I love you so much. I don't know what Jack and I would do if we ever lost you. I'm here. We're here forever, Emily."
I close my eyes and I say a silent prayer…
