*rubs back of my neck* Oh Hi there, this is my first fan fiction, so um yeah be nice.
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Disclaimer - I own absolutely nothing ! I just decided to let my imagination run free with Characters Ms. Meyer created.
It's like a churning in your head, a grasp in your heart, a mantra in your head.
It's your fault, it's your fault. It's all Bella's fault. The table wasn't set, it's Bella's fault, the water wasn't cold enough it's Bella fault. The light didn't turn green fast enough so he could get home it's Bella's fault.
Our relationship is hard to understand you see, we got married on a surprisingly warm day for the dreary weather that Forks always gives us. It's like opening the Christmas gift that you got from Santa and realizing that he ate all the cookies he left behind and drank the warm milk that you tried so hard to keep warm for him to come through to drink. I never was a selfish child I understood that Santa had other places to go. But I would wait, and wait until I fell asleep. I would wake up the next morning and see that gift. The feeling of your heart no longer being in your chest. That's the feeling I got when I said those 'I do's' to the man that once loved me. He would look at me with the kind of love that a wife and husband should have.
One day that all changed, I forgot to wipe the mirrors in the bathroom. I was a housewife of course so him telling me to stay at home to tend for the house wasn't really a problem with me at all at first. He would tell me, "The world is a cruel, cruel place and people shouldn't be blessed with a person like you." Flattering gets you everywhere with me. I tended to the house that's what I did. It's normal when you stay at home and have nothing to do. You clean, I'm telling you boredom would get you to do almost anything. I remember it like it was yesterday, he came home we kissed, shared our sentiments on how much we loved each other normal husband and wife things. He went to the bathroom to freshen up so he could eat the dinner that I knew had to be prepared already.
"BELLA!" I damn near dropped the plate I had in my hand. I got goose bumps all around, he never raised his voice.
"I'll be right there. I need to put the plates on the table." It made sense right, I was half way to the table and the plates needed to be put on top of the table. But I don't think Jacob saw the sense in that. He came storming in the kitchen not even two seconds later, I didn't even have time to fully turn around. 'SMACK' even been hit so hard and your positive that your Mom felt it. Well Renne's check must have been stinging.
"Didn't I call you ? When I call you, you listen to me. Don't even think about not answering because I'll hear you. Do you understand me ?"
Wait what ? I couldn't even process half of what he just said to me. I still had ringing in my ears. Did he just hit me ? He just hit me ! Why aren't I reacting. I finally open my eyes and look at Jacob. Then I realize why not, ever seen a lion stalking its prey. That's the kind of hunger he had in his eyes. The bad kind, the horrible kind.
"I'm so sorry Bella, I'm so sorry." He must have been right ? He had to be this wasn't him this wasn't like him at all. It made absolutely no sense. I'm making absolutely no sense. Once a man hits you it's over. But looking at his eyes I saw the guilt and the remorse. "This would have never happened, if it was cleaned correctly."
What was he talking about ? He must have saw the confusion I had in my eyes. "The mirror he says. I come back from work, you stay at home it makes sense for things to be in order correct?" He's right. It's my fault, all my fault.
"You know I'm tired from all the work I had to do at work, everything is becoming so stressful. I come home to unwind from everything and seeing something out of place just gets to me." He's moving closer, I can't help but move back. I still feel the stinging.
He notices, I see the anger flash in his eyes. 'MOVE FORWARD' my heart screams 'GET AWAY' my mind says. A fool in love I was, a fool in love is what I shall be, because remember it's my fault. So I moved forward to him, to my slow demise.
Common sense is one of the senses that is used the least in humans. When your in a place that you don't want to be in you leave ? Some people choose to stay. I had no where else to go he was my everything and I was his.
