Authors note: this is my first story i am publishing... so... but i hope you enjoy it :) Please review. more chapters to come soon :D

oh and i like switching POV. so ok thanks :D

Thinking of You

Ch 1

Elie

I am just sitting there staring out the window of the old rundown apartment. It is 2 in the morning everyone in the house is still asleep. I woke up to find my brother in my bed with me because of the thunder storm earlier tonight. He is only 2 years old and he comes in my room instead of our parents' room. I will figure out why someday I just don't feel up to it right now.

I want to run out of this house and just run straight to Marmesla's house. We have been best friends since the 3rd grade, we are now seniors in high school. Ever since this summer we have been boyfriend/girlfriend. I can't get her off my mind. She is my everything. I want to be Marmesla's husband and support her however I can. I don't really have a career goal. If she wants to get a job I will stay home to watch the kids.

Today, well yesterday, we went to the beach and she laid in my arms for hours. She was crying because she had lost her mother Monday. I just let her cry for however long she needed.

"I'm so sorry" she would say but I just nodded and let her cry.

Her mom was diagnosed with bone cancer in early June. Everyone thought she would pull through and beat the cancer. She was getting better but when she went to go to the doctors she said "It's only a few miles please let me go alone". So they let her go but a driver who was driving under the influence hit her head on and killed her instantly. Some think it was better that way but Marmesla didn't think so. "She was going to beat the cancer I just had this gut feeling she was going to beat it" Marmesla kept saying. I thought it was worse the way she died because she didn't even get to say her goodbyes to her family. Marmesla has been skipping school for the past week because she can't hold herself together long enough to go through even one class. I have tried to get her mind off of her mother by taking her places but she isn't letting go. I think once she lets go she will be able to go to school again. She has missed so much work from school that everyone is worried she might have to go to summer school or even worse stay back a year.