Things that Shuichi doesn't know!

I feel like letting my true sideshow in this diary. I mean, Eiri Yuki, handsome romance novelist, has a diary. Therefore, I am calling this diary "Things Shuichi Doesn't Know".

I feel like I should start from the 100th thing and work my way down.

Number 100- When I am alone I sing Shuichi's songs. I also dance to them in disco style.

99- I am the world's biggest klutz. That's why I am always in my study, typing, instead falling on my face.

98- I wear eye liner and mascara to enhance my eyes when I want someone to look at me, like Shuichi.

97- I am afraid of the dark, so I keep lights on when I am going to sleep.

96- I think about Shuichi every moment of the day that I do not see him. I know everything about him.

95- I sometimes break dishes on accident and go out and replace them, just so Shuichi doesn't notice.

94- I AM A TOTAL NEAT FREAK. A dirty glass grosses me out unless Shuichi drank out of it.

93- I get emotional when I hurt myself. Like yesterday when I got a paper cut, I felt like I was going to die.

92- I like to draw in my spare time. I especially like to draw pictures of Shuichi when he is sleeping.

91- All the pictures of Shuichi that I have are locked up in a safe. The com is 04/16/19. (Shuichi's birthday and age)

90- My password on my laptop is "iloveshuichishindou", that way Shuichi can't get on my computer and see my background.

89- Sometimes, when I get lonely, I go through Shuichi's stuff and smell it, just to know he was there.

88- I play video games on Shuichi's PS2 when I get bored.

87- I have a secret closet that is full of Bad Luck collectibles.

86- I play with a Shuichi plushie. (If you know what I mean j/k)

85- I call Touma everyday to make sure he hasn't done anything drastic for me.

84- I can't say the words sixish, or drastic.

83- I think I have extremely fat thighs and I workout everyday.

82- I enjoy Italian food.

81-Sometimes, I forget what I was just doing.

80- I only smoke when I feel like the world is crashing down on me. (This is almost every day)

79- I go through Shuichi's song lyrics everyday and make corrections in them if they need it.

78- I watch every one of Shuichi's music videos.

77- I am currently planning on writing a song for Shuichi.

76- When I get bored and don't feel like typing, I take a nap with my teddy bear called Yuki Jr.

75- I can't say "Shuichi" that's why I never call him by his name.

74- I always have to have the closet closed when I go to sleep.

73- I like American rap music and pretend I am raping when I listen to it.

72- I love strawberry pocky.

71- I used to have buckteeth.

70-When I was little I used to wrap curtains around me and pretend I was wearing a dress.

69- I love all animals. (Including Shuichi j/k)

68-When I am extremely lonely; I play with my imaginary friend called Albert.

67-One person I look up to is Martha Stewart.

66- I wet the bed until I was twelve sometimes I still do.

65-Sometimes, I play with sock puppets.

64-My favorite movie is Rush Hour and Rush Hour 2

63- My favorite color is violet, just like Shuichi's eyes.

62- I daydream a lot, mostly about Shuichi.

61-Sometimes, I have wet dreams.60- I want to go to Egypt.

59- I love to watch soap operas.

58- I have 1,567,235,001 fan mails in my junk mail box.

57- I sometimes have weird thoughts about Touma. (You'll never know)

56- My brother comes over everyday, trying to get Shuichi when I dump him. This, by the way, is never going to happen.

55- I talk to people on the internet who are gay.

54-I want to get another kind of earring for my ear.

53- I am afraid of aliens. I have a feeling there is going to be an alien invasion.

52- I cannot wait until I get to fifty. I like to say hmmmmmmmm.

51- I wish Shuichi wasn't working right now.

50- Yes, fifty! I sometimes play with Superman dolls.

49- I like to gallop in my hallway.

48- I look at my watch repeatedly to see how much time there is until I see Shuichi again.

47- When I am alone I put on tight leather jeans because I like the feeling.

46- In my closet, tucked away, I have some of Shuichi's concert clothes that will fit me. I try them on every occasion.

45- Sometimes, I forget what comes after 24.

44- I make prank calls in my spare time.

43- I sometimes say lame words from the seventies; like far out, funkadelic, or gotcha.

42- My favorite cartoon is Scooby Doo.

41- When I don't feel like I want to write my novel, I write yaoi fantasy stories about Shuichi and me.

40- I sometimes get aroused by the way Shuichi dances.

39- I practice kissing myself in the mirror (how do you think I got so good at it). I know that Shuichi does it too.

38- I love the song Welcome to My Romance. Oh yeah!

37- Shuichi really doesn't have zero talent.

36-Sometimes, I find Shuichi so cute I want to give him a bear hug.

35- I find it sexy when Shuichi has raked his hands through his hair too many times. He does it when he gets frustrated.

34- I also think it is cute when he drools and mumbles my name in his sleep.

33- I think I am meaner to Shuichi than I should be.

32- On Shuichi's website, I write anonymous fan letters to him saying he is the greatest.

31- My dream before I became a writer was to be a stripper or a stripper.

30- Sometimes when Shuichi is on a tour, I get my Eiri plushie and my Shuichi plushie and make them do erotic things. (Again if you know what I mean j/k)

29- I watch cartoons.

28- I have a life sized Shuichi doll.

27- Every night I check on Shuichi.

26- I smoke fake candy cigarettes when I am out of the real thing.

25- I think my grandma is sexy. If she weren't related to me, I would totally go out with her.

24- I bite my lips when I get nervous.

23- I have dé·jà vu and see what Shuichi is planning to do with me. (Wink wink)

22- I like to doodle.

21- I use to play the tuba.

20- When I am extremely sad, I laugh instead of cry.

19- I love math. It is fun to do other than writing.

18- I still have my baby blanket. That I sleep with under my mattress.

17- When it is dark sometimes, I accidentally run into doors.

16- I can't eat when people are watching me.

15- I kept my favorite pacifier and sometimes I suck on it.

14- My favorite American song is Milkshake. I also like to dance to it.

13- I must have at least three servings of sweets in my diet.(including Shuichi)

12- I want to give Shuichi an earring that matches mine.

11- When I see one of those stuffed animal claw game thing, I go insane. I must play it.

10- I once taped Shuichi and me having sex. I keep the tape in the closet.

9- Under my pillow, I always keep a picture of Shuichi there. That's why he can't make the beds.

8- I want to be in one of Shuichi's videos. (Preferably Welcome To My Romance heheh)

7- I would die if something bad ever happened to Shuichi.

6- I smile secretly when Shuichi is not looking.

5- I call my dad everyday to make sure he hasn't died of a heart attack.

4- I am working on being nice to Shuichi.

3- Soon when I am ready, I will let him read this diary.

2- (If it is not obvious) I love Shuichi Shindou.

1- In a while, I am going to propose to him.

There are my one hundred things that Shuichi doesn't know. As you see, I keep a lot from him. (So if you would, please don't tell him.) I am going to bed good night. Good night diary.

Diary entry number 2

Dear diary,

I am home alone waiting for Shuichi who won't be here until a couple more hours. I am extremely bored out of my mind and I have already galloped through my hallway five, million times. Hold on a second I hear the door opening. "Aniki."

Nooooooo, I thought but what I really said was, "Tatsuha what the hell do you want."

"I have come to see my darling brother," He said.

"No, I am not giving you money, you can't have some beer, no trying to molest me, and don't even think about anything else."

"Jeez, I come to see my favorite brother and you treat my like crap. Why can't I molest you?"

"Tatsuha I am your only brother and because I said so."

Tatsuha got up and jumped on my lap. I swear I was going to kill him when he said, "Come in Touma I got him." Touma soon entered, wearing what looked like an evil Santa Clause suit.

"I'll take the bottom you take the top," He spoke in a direction order.

I SEEM TOO HAD FOUND MYSELF IN AN INTERESTING POSTION. When all the sudden………… Shuichi came in.

"YUUUUUUUUU…. Yuki you cheated on me. How could you? With your brother and your brother-in-law, too," Touma and Tatsuha were stunned and let me go. Shuichi spoke again, "That is it Yuki I have had it I am leaving."

"No wait don't leave I can explain."

"Noooooooo Yuki I am done. This is the end," Now as I said in the top portion of the diary when I am extremely sad I laugh instead of cry.

"Wait Shuichi I…I love you. Please don't leave me Shuichi. I love you,"

Shuichi looked at me with disgust and unbelief in his eyes and said, "Yuki, I have loved you since I met you. I can't bear to lose you, but I must leave. Yuki if you really mean what you say, you better come and find me because I am gone." With these words, Shuichi left not even bothering to grab his stuff.

Diary Entry # 3

I feel like my world has been spinning out of control. I forgot things; I haven't showered or ate anything for three days. Everything I see, either when I am awake or a sleep, is Shuichi. I have concluded that I love the pushy, stupid, little brat, and I cannot possibly live without him. The thing hurts the most is that I can't find him and I have the feeling I'm not supposed to find Shuichi, that it was never meant to work out. I have searched for him everywhere I can possibly think and I still come up empty-handed. I just feel like crawling inside a dark cave and dying because there is no point to my life with out Shuichi.

My phone is ringing but I do not feel like answering it, but if I don't the irritating ringing will get on my nerves. I answer with a rude, "Hello." It's Touma he has something urgent to tell me. The next thing I know is I am heading to the hospital, diary in hand.