Chapter 1
I walked in to the daycare to pick up my daughter. It had been a long day at work. I had catered two parties of a hundred and fifty people. Work had seemed to be getting more demanding lately. When I walked in to the pre-k room and Carly was playing house by herself she was always the last one here she looked up and screamed, "Mommy!"
"Hey sweetie," I picked her up, giving her a hug and a kiss.
"Mommy look at what we made today," she said, pointing at the bored where they hung their art work for the week. It was a pumpkin with a glitter painted face for Halloween.
"Wow baby that so pretty," I said, setting her down to get her coat on.
"I want to show daddy you think he'll like it? Can I call him when we get home?" She questioned.
"Of course baby," I said. Hoping Jacob would answer his phone for her. Although I knew he probably wouldn't he was a dead beat. He only came around once every couple months since she had been born and he rarely talked to her phone between visits. Every time he didn't answer I was forced to deal with the aftermath. Seeing the look on her face every time he denied what was his, made me vow never to bring anyone else into her life that would hurt her the same way or hurt me for that matter.
We got home I made her some macaroni and cheese and chicken fingers and vegetables for dinner. Carly tried calling Jacob a few times. She gave up, walking into the kitchen with tears in her eyes.
"Mommy, he didn't answer. Does he want to be my daddy?" she questioned.
I paused knowing that she couldn't know the true answer was no and smiled and lied for him as usual. "Yes of course he wants to be your dad why would you think he wouldn't?" I asked
"a boy in my class riley said that his daddy didn't live with him and his mom told him it was because his dad didn't want him and since my daddy doesn't live with us I thought that maybe he didn't want me either." she frowned.
"Look here my angel for anyone not to want you would be crazy you're so perfect and I and your dad love you very much." I said hugging her. I made a note to call him while she was eating.
"Promise?" she asked.
"promise cross my heart and hope to die," I said drawing an x on my chest." now it's dinner time and if you eat all your veggies, I have some left over chocolate cake from work."
She smiled and ran to the table. She sat there and ate her food eating everything on her plate shocking me. She must have been hungry. I gave her a piece of cake. While she ate I went to draw her up a bath and call Jake.
I turned on the water and added some bubble bath, while I dialed Jacob's number. I got the answering machine. "Jacob this is Bella I hope your happy being a dead beat dad suits you so well listen I'm sick of you acting like your daughter doesn't exist except for the rare occasion that you feel like being a good person. so if you're not going to try harder to see her than stay the hell away cause if I have to see her cry one more time because you're not around I will hurt you." I said hanging up the phone.
I turned around just in time to stop the tub from over flowing. I gave Carly a bath and tucked her in. then I took a shower changing into my pjs. But, to my dismay I wasn't very tired myself.
So I decided to surf the net a bit. My best friend Alice had told me about a dating chat room earlier today. She thought I needed to meet a guy. I hadn't dated anyone but Jacob ever and even though I couldn't deny I was lonely. I was also afraid of dating. Since I never really did it, I had known Jake all my life. Truth is I'm still in love with him well part of me, the stupid part.
I decide to try a chat room. I ended up in this 20's love chat room I was chatting with the group when I got an IM
lady_killer69: hello there ASL?
STUPID_LAMB: hi 24/f/LA you?
lady_killer69: 24/m / la you got a pic?
STUPID_LAMB: yes in my profile you?
lady_killer69: same
I went to his profile he was cute he had blond spiky hair blue eyes with a muscular build. Overall he was a nice looking guy.
STUPID_LAMB: you're cute
lady_killer69: thank you... you're really hot
STUPID_LAMB: Thanks:::: blushes::::
lady_killer69: so what do you like to do for fun?
STUPID_LAMB: movies, music, take care of my daughter, you name it…
lady_killer69: that's cool…
STUPID_LAMB: so what do you do for a living?
lady_killer69: I work at a call center what about you?
No real job total turn off but what the heck it's just a chat not like I'm marrying him.
STUPID_LAMB: I have a catering company
lady_killer69: nice… I love a woman that can cook. Are you any good?
STUPID_LAMB: I like to think so lol
lady_killer69: so r you single?
What a stupid question why else would I be in a singles chat room?
STUPID_LAMB: yes
lady_killer69: what a coincidence I am to…
STUPID_LAMB: I know right such a coincidence that to single people would meet in a singles chat room
lady_killer69: lol I know right…
STUPID_LAMB: lol
lady_killer69: oh my names mike by the way
STUPID_LAMB: I'm Bella nice to meet you
lady_killer69: same here
Just then Carly was standing in my door clenching her teddy bear. "Momma there's a monster in my room can I sleep with you?" She asked. "Of course baby come here I opened my arms and pulled her to my lap
STUPID_LAMB: hey mike I so sorry to cut this short but my daughter just woke up
lady_killer69: ok can I maybe call you some time?
STUPID_LAMB: um if you want 5362237891
lady_killer69: I will bye sexy
STUPID_LAMB: bye
STUPID_LAMB: signed off 12:57 a.m.
I picked up Carly she was already almost asleep by that time. I laid her down in my bed with me. And fell quickly asleep to.
A/N: what did you think of the first chapter? Reviews?
