***Dont own characters and etc!

Chapter one: Kim's point of view

Rumors suck. They suck because you never know the truth, it's all just lies. Usually I didn't believe the lies then everything changed. I changed the day I met him and the day he disappeared. Little did I know that today, the day he came back, my life would change forever.

Jared, the sexiest guy alive, was back at school today. I have had a crush on him since third grade so it's been a while. I wasn't creepy stalker in love, I just happened like someone who I never stood a chance with. What's wrong with that? I mean sure it hurts seeing him grope and date other girls for the past 7 years. Well actually it hurt a lot.

Anyway as soon as he stepped into to school rumors flew. Some people said he was on drugs, others said steroids; others said he was in Sam Uley's gang. I didn't know what to believe because I haven't seen him myself. I mean he was gone for two weeks, why that was such a big deal that people had to start random dumb rumors.

I rushed into history excited and curious because he sat right next to me. I arrived sort of early so I started doodling in my notebook. I started drawing hearts on the front cover of my new notebook and wrote Jared + Kim and Kim loves Jared and Mr. and Mrs. Jared. I zapped out of my trance when the bell rang and everyone came rushing in to get to their seats.

Jared entered the room and my world froze. Jared grew a lot; he was now above six feet tall and was pretty damn muscular. His black hair was cut and styled as a sexy messy look. Something was wrong though, he looked tired and stressed.

He didn't even look at me when he sat down after asking the teacher for what he missed. I sighed sadly. It made sense why he didn't look at me. I was normal, yes I was pretty; I had tan skin and my face was pretty but no one ever realized because I was shy. I had long black hair that waved down to my waist and had long eye lashes.

I refused to look at him. I didn't want people, especially him, to think I was some crazy obsessed stalker. Plus he had a lot of people gawking and staring at him. I felt bad because I didn't like being the center of attention which is probably why I'm a loser but still it's embarrassing.

"Hey what page are we on?" I heard a deep sexy voice ask. His voice deepened from his old voice. I blushed because I knew I shouldn't realize the difference.
Wait! Did he just talk to me?
I thought.
"Hey? It's Kim right? Hello? You know it's rude to avoid someone when they are trying to speak to you?" he said rudely. Ouch that hurt. Forget that I've had a crush on him forever no one speaks to me like that. I turned to face him.

"Sorry for not answering you right on command, but that doesn't give you the rights to be rude to people that have not done anything to you. It's on page 198." I snapped.
Fuck I just ruined any chances of him talking to me again. I thought as my heart sank.

He gave me a surprised look. Then his face softened and he gave me a big smile. Jared looked like he just discovered the most precious diamond in the world.

I turned back and tried to pay attention to what we were learning. It was hard because I wanted to slap myself in the face for being so stupid. At the end of the bell we had extra free time to do whatever we wanted. I began outlining my notes the teacher gave us.

"I'm very sorry Kim. I shouldn't have treated you like that. I've just have had a bad day and took it out on you. Sorry, please forgive me." Jared said sincerely looking at me. I gaped embarrassingly.

"It's fine and sorry I snapped at you." I said back shyly. I saw girls out of the corner of my eyes give me death glares. I didn't see why they felt jealous; I mean compared to them I'm nothing so they are getting upset over nothing. The bell rung and I bolted out of class. I felt someone walking next to me.

"So Kim can I walk you to your next class?" Jared asked walking effortlessly next to me. I nodded shyly. I couldn't believe he was actually talking to me. I know that sounds extremely lame but I have liked him for several years and he has never said a word.

People were staring at us, well mostly him. We approached my classroom and he looked at me puzzled.

"Yeah we have English together too." I wanted to see his reaction the moment he asked to walk me to my class. We had the same class and he never realized that. He never cared to realize I was in half of his classes. So ouch.

"I am so sorry Kim. I feel awful." He said sincerely.
"That makes two of us." I said walking away feeling awful and embarrassed. I sat down and he sat down in his desk behind me. This day could not get any worse, but it would.

"Kim wait." I heard a voice at the end of the bell say. I turned around and saw Jared. Lots of people were staring at us making me turn red and get nervous.

"I'm sorry. Do you want to hang out sometime." He asked. I froze and looked around at everybody. I saw Paul and a couple of Jared's friends laughing and looking and even pointing in my direction. That's when it hit me.

This was a mean joke or a bet. He would never be interested I me or even talk to me. How could I be stupid enough to believe that he would actually be interested in me? I didn't know if this was a sick joke, bet or if they wanted a laugh. I was a disgusting joke to him. Mean girls were giggling at me in their judgmental laughs. The realization made me start to panic as I saw eyes stare at me, fingers pointing and laughing at me. I felt like the walls were closing around me. I was embarrassed and really hurt but mostly angry.

"Please leave me alone." I choked out.

"What are you talking about Kim?" Jared said looking at me hurt. He had the audacity to play stupid.

"I said leave me alone. I don't know if you were dared to talk to me or it was just a sick joke, I honestly don't give a fuck. You and your stupid friends had your laugh so leave me alone. I'm done being a joke to you. So please leave me alone." I snapped breathing heavily. I was starting to tear up and I turned to leave.

Jared caught my arm stopping me. I turned around to face him. He looked really upset and hurt. I felt this pull between us telling me to stay. I guess I am going crazy. I felt his hurt and sadness, and wanted to comfort him.

"Let me explain. It's not what you think. Please." He begged with eyes full of agony. I whimpered as I felt his pain. I didn't know why I was feeling this or why I was feeling bad for him. I almost agreed, almost.

I shouldn't feel bad for him. He never noticed me this year in any of our classes and he didn't even notice me throughout the seven years I have known him. Now I was a personal joke to him and all his friends. I rather him treat me like I was invisible to him then as a joke. I was the one who got hurt and embarrassed not him.

"Jared let me go now." I said with venom dripping on every word. He looked pained. He hesitated and let me go gently. I turned and got in my car.

I tried ignoring the pull but it was killing me. I have never felt so embarrassed and pissed. The pull was stretching between Jared and I making me want to cry. I know I'm not crazy, I really felt this bond between us.

I looked across the lot and saw Jared with his friends glancing at me. Our eyes met for a brief moment before I looked away. I have not cried for a long time. But as I drove away I felt salty tears run down my face.