AN: Hello there my beautiful people. As promised here is my rewrite, however, I have combined the first three chapters into one because it seemed to flow better. Flywheel Shyster and Flywheel and DShell99 I was only able to do this because of you two. Both of you said it was rushed and needed work, well, I found if I took my time, those three ok chapters were actually one beautiful chapter. Again thank you.
Love and Kisses,
KM
"I'm pregnant."
There was a ringing in his ears as Kevin processed the news. He felt dizzy, lightheaded, and heavy all at once. They had only been together that one drunken night, nothing else happened between them, not to mention they had used protection. How could this happen to them? Oh, that's right, the condom broke, damn it. With those two words, he knew that his life was over. His dad was going to kill him and let's not mention his mom.
Nazz had her hand on Kevin's shoulder steadying him so he wouldn't faint. Instead, he fell back against the locker and put his head in his hands. Blood was rushing in his ears and the voices around him were muffled. He could barely make out a voice calling his name.
"Kevin!"
The blonde's voice seemed to finally reach him and shake him from his thoughts of impending doom.
"What are we gonna do? We're both too young to raise a kid." Kevin fought the pin-pricking of tears in his eyes as he processed the options. They could put the baby up for adoption. No, that wouldn't do. Maybe his parents could help him raise the kid? Or what about…
"Honestly Kev, I was thinking of taking a trip to Planned Parenthood."
Kevin's head shot up as he glared at her. He knew the implied meaning behind her statement. Whether he wanted to believe it or not, that kid that wasn't even in the equation until 5 minutes ago was still his kid.
"You are not having an abortion," he said finality in his voice. He regretted the outburst as soon as the words flew from of his mouth. Kevin looked back down somberly and sighed deeply. "Sorry Nazz. I forgot for a sec that it's your body too. I just don't like the idea. Know what I mean?"
Nazz looked thoughtful for a moment. It was her body, and she had a great one. She was also smart enough to know that now it wasn't even her body anymore. It belonged to the little spark that was inside her. The only reason she even entertained the idea of an abortion was because she knew Kevin wasn't ready for a baby.
"It's alright Kev, how about we put the kid up for adoption. I carry the baby full term and we find a loving family who isn't capable of having a child of their own."
Kevin looked up and grabbed Nazz's hand. "That's the thing Nazz, there's a part of me that wants to raise the baby. But there's another part that's scared for the kid." The red-head looked into Nazz's sky blue eyes. The fear he felt was reflected in them. "Think about it Nazz. The kid has a gay father and a single mother, and although the great USA has come a long way, it hasn't come that far."
Nazz let Kevin's words sink in as she thought the day they conceived this child. She knew the boy like she knew the back of her own hand. The two had grown together. When they were kids, Nazz always had a crush on the popular red-head, and it seemed he liked her too. But while the two were lounging on the edge of a crystal clear pool at a party some kid was throwing, Kevin came out to Nazz saying how he thought he was bi. The short blond knew what needed to be done.
After finally telling the red-head her pent up feelings, the two shared a kiss. Nazz took Kevin's hand and led him to an empty bedroom. It wasn't as romantic as she thought by any means. Kevin pulled the condom out of his wallet, and of course it broke. But that wasn't the only embarrassing part of that night. Kevin made an outburst and there were tears from laughter, and revelations from both parties.
Once they both composed themselves, Nazz cast a sideways glance at Kevin, "I don't think you're bi. Dude, you are a full blown fairy."
Kevin frowned at his friend but then laughed with her. They both put their clothes on and joined everybody else in the festivities. Knowing glances were cast their way but it had all gone ignored as Kevin and Nazz talked about the person Kevin really did have a crush on.
Coming back to the present, Nazz flashed Kevin her best smile but it just didn't reach her eyes as she focused on the situation at hand. "Dude, whatever happens, I want us to do what's right by the baby."
Kevin nodded his agreement as he smiled sadly thinking of all his dreams and plans ending. "Yeah, I'm gonna have to get a job and maybe drop outta school. Honestly Nazz, I don't even know what I'm gonna tell my parent's."
"I don't even wanna tell mine," came the blonde's response.
Kevin pointed to Nazz's still flat belly. "You're going to be showing in a couple of months, that I can guarantee. How do you think you're dad is going to react. I'm scared he's going to pull out a shotgun"
"Kevin, we still got time. We agreed no on the abortion thing. When we tell our parent's we can figure out what to do from there. Maybe they can instill some of their, 'elderly wisdom,' on us." Laughter erupted from the two as they contemplated their end from their parents.
While Kevin pondered the responsibilities that came with raising a child, Kevin saw a blur of blue sneak up behind him.
"How goes it Casanova Kevin-Boy?"
Rolf put his arm around Kevin's shoulders. The red-head pretended that nothing was wrong and looked at his watch. Shit! Kevin yelled in his mind, He was late meeting Edd.
"Sorry Dude, bad time," He said brushing Rolf's arm off his shoulder. Kevin pecked Nazz on the cheek and said quietly, "we'll talk later." With that, Kevin was off running down the hall.
Oh, Edd is going to kill me! The thought pounded away at Kevin's head as he made his way out of the double doors leading to the parking lot. Kevin breathed a sigh of relief as he saw the lanky boy leaning on his bike holding the custom-painted helmet Kevin had given to him as a birthday present.
"Hey Double-Dork," the red-head called out and he almost burst out into the first gut-wrenching laugh that he had all-day. Kevin felt himself calming down the closer he got to the sock-headed boy.
"Kevin, you are approximately 17 minutes late. I was afraid that we were going to miss our Friday beach trip due to your tardiness. What, pray-tell, has kept you so long?" Edd inquired fuming.
"I was talking to Nazz."
Edd was about to go into full-blown lecture mode when he saw a worried frown appear on the face of the freckled boy.
"And I presume the discussion was that of importance?"
Kevin nodded his head and got on his beloved motorcycle. "Yeah, I'll tell you about it later."
Edd took his spot behind the driver. "I hope it was nothing too serious," was the muttered response. Kevin didn't say anything back as he took off out the parking lot and onto the highway.
The young sock headed boy used to be terrified of the contraption, specifically with the lack of safety precautions. However, as time went by, Edd grew accustomed to the feel of the wind on his thin body and reveled in the fact that he got to hold tightly to the freckle-faced boy in front.
Kevin also enjoyed the freeing feeling as he weaved his way in and out of traffic. He would do anything to put his troubles behind him. Even if he had to take the 20 minute drive to the beach he was content. The red-head even enjoyed the feeling of the long bony arms clenched tightly around his waist and found it soothing to feel the pounding heartbeat on his back through the thin cloth of his green shirt.
During the drive, Kevin reflected on his friendship with the smarter of the Ed's. Although he tried as hard as he could, the jock just couldn't dislike him. He had no problem hating Eddy. That boy just pissed him off to no end. And Ed, well Ed was an enigma wrapped in a complicated crossword puzzle. And crossword puzzles always made Kevin's head hurt.
But as his friendship with the double-dweeb grew, as did his tolerance for the other Eds. They came as a packaged deal. There was no separating them, but Kevin would never risk anything on his friendship with Edd. There were other reasons why the red-head fought so hard to keep his dork close and those thoughts brought the blush to his cheeks. Kevin fought back the emotions rising in him and focused on his destination.
The one thing Kevin liked most about living close to the beach was that he could smell the sand and ocean spray as he approached his exit, and all it took was a 20 minute drive out. Right after Kevin took his exit he found an open garage. He paid the $10 to get in and found a spot close to the beach exit.
Edd got off first carefully taking the helmet off with a practiced motion not even disturbing the familiar black beanie underneath. Kevin followed suit and reached into the saddle bag on the bike pulling out their spare trunks and towels. Kevin's trunks were an obvious lime green with red Hawaiian flowers, and Edd's a simple solid black.
This wasn't the first time they took a random adventure, and it was Kevin's wish that it wouldn't be the last time. Other than Nazz, the dork was his best friend. He wanted more than anything for Edd to be the first person to know before the news broke out to the entire school.
It wasn't a long walk to the sands of the beach they frequented; in fact it was only 3 blocks from the garage, but the walk felt like a lifetime to the redhead. Edd stayed silent knowing that his friend didn't like constant questions. One of the many things Kevin liked about Edd was that although he was quiet, his body actions were so loud. He knew that the dork wanted to know what was going on and that the jock would tell him when he was ready.
They quickly changed in the bathroom, all the while Kevin laughing at the germaphobe as he exclaimed how filthy it was. They made their way to their spot under the pier as the sun was just starting to set, illuminating the pair in a soft glow.
Kevin plopped down on the sand and patted to a spot next to him. Edd nodded and sat down on a towel right next to Kevin leaning into him and taking the red-head's hand. This was nothing new to them. They always sat like this, but Kevin never looked too deep into it. He just thought the action was natural because the two had known each other all their lives and they were so close. However Kevin's pounding heart always told him differently. Today was no exception to this story.
Kevin started to play with Edd's fingers as he found a way to say what he needed to.
"What seems to be bothering you Kevin?"
Edd turned his head to where his chin rested on Kevin's shoulder, blue eyes peering into green.
Kevin knew he couldn't postpone the news any further so he just blurt it out, "Nazz is pregnant."
Kevin kept eye contact with his smart friend as he saw the emotions flash through his eyes. He saw confusion followed by hurt and finally he saw the fear in his eyes. This confused Kevin though.
"What's wrong Edd?"
The smarted boy looked down pulling away from the sculpted body next to him. He placed his head on his knees solemnly as he carefully sought his next words.
"So you and Nazz are facing the consequences of fortification under the influence?"
It took Kevin a moment to understand what Edd was saying at that moment, but when he realized the meaning of the braniac's words he nodded.
"The thing is we were only experimenting. I always knew that Nazz liked me, and I wanted to give it a chance. But I realized that I never liked Nazz." Kevin sighed, "at least, not as anything more than friends. There was always somebody else."
Edd looked at Kevin with fire in his eyes. "And what are your plans for properly caring for this child?"
Kevin eyes shot down to the floor as he pondered. "Honestly Dee, I don't know." He grabbed a handful of sand and threw it at the wind. "I only found out today damn it."
Edd's eyes were thoughtful as he reached for the confused boy's hand. "I cannot tell you what to do. But I can make a suggestion on what it is you should do."
Kevin forced himself to look at his dork in anticipation. Double Dee's eyes narrowed a bit, "Grow up." The response was simple, short, and to the point, but the words hit Kevin like a dictionary. A frown appeared on the jock's face as he contemplated everything.
It was now because of Edd, that Kevin was able to face this pregnancy head on instead of running from it. Edd was everything to the red head and he wasn't going to let this ruin it.
"As always Dee, you're right."
Kevin leaned down to pick up the forgotten towel that lay in the sand. Like a child, he just wanted someone to hold close while they whispered words of encouragement. But now that there was a baby in the equation, he could no longer accept that. It was on his broad shoulders to accept responsibility for his actions and take a stand.
However, Kevin felt he could afford to have one final selfish request for himself.
"Hey Edd?" Kevin couldn't even look the tall yet lanky boy in the eyes.
"What is pestering you're mind Kevin?" Edd actually seemed… annoyed?
"Not to sound like a girl or anything, but where do we stand?" Kevin's eyebrows furrowed as he waited for the nerd's response.
"Do you really think that it is appropriate to have this conversation now?"
Kevin took a small step back but stood his ground. "Yeah, actually, now is the perfect time. We are standing on a beach at sunset, having a conversation about life changing decisions. How about this for life changing. I'm gay dude. How do you think I can raise a child, if Nazz and I aren't even an item. We had sex, big deal. I was still trying to figure out why I wasn't attracted to her. When we did do the big nasty, do you know how awkward it was when I called out your name instead of hers?"
At that last outburst, Kevin instantly blushed and turned around to hide the redness rising in his cheeks.
"I… I… What I mean is… listen you're all I think about dork, I've always had a thing for you, I only really started realizing it."
Edd took Kevin by the shoulder and instinctively the red head reached for that hand. "You didn't tell me before because you felt I wouldn't reciprocate your feelings."
It wasn't a question but Kevin answered anyway, "Yeah dude. I just thought you would look at me differently when you found out I was gay. And now I find out I'm gonna be a dad? I don't know what to do Dee."
Without much effort, Double Dee turned Kevin to face him. He placed his hand under the strong chin he admired and made the scared boy look at him.
"You are going to take responsibility for your actions and raise that child and take care of Nazz."
Kevin felt an inkling of hope kindle in his heart but it immediately sank down at the words the young man spoke next, "However, I am not yet sure I can commit to a relationship under these conditions. Please allow me some time to think on the matter?"
And although Edd was sincere in his words, all Kevin could feel was the stab of rejection go through his chest.
The two boys decided silently that they had enough of the beach that night and the ride home was quiet. The tension in the air was so thick, you could literally cut into it with a knife. Kevin drove slower so the smaller boy didn't have to hold on tightly, and Edd kept his grip on the driver's shoulders and was leaned back in his seat.
Both boys had a lot to think about and they knew it. How in the world was Kevin going to enter into parenthood when he was still a kid himself. College was no longer obtainable, and jobs for minors were few and far between.
Edd knew that Kevin was going to have a hard time with everything, which is why he decided to keep Kevin at arm's length until he made a decision. But the way only thing Kevin could think about was how in the world he was going to break the news to his parents.
Kevin pulled into his driveway and Edd climbed off. The loveable dork had turned to return to his empty abode when the new father grabbed him by the wrist and pulled the boy into a hug.
"Please Edd, I can't do this alone. I'm too young to throw my life away like this."
Double Dee only pulled away and smiled at his ex bully, "Then don't do it alone. You have a whole cul-de-sac of people who love you. And I am here for you as well if you ever need me."
Edd tenderly cupped Kevin's cheek before turning and walking into his empty house.
Kevin only stared after the smart boy as he entered into his house. Silently in the night the redhead could only whisper in the dork's direction.
"But I do need you Edd."
