Because...

TITLE: Because...

AUTHOR: sleeplessdreamer42 )

FEEDBACK: Very appreciated!

CATEGORY: Luke/Lorelai

SPOILERS/TIMELINE: Continuation (sort of, I start in the episode) of 4.11 (In the Glamour and the Clangor)

RATING: PG

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Ok, this is my very first Gilmore girls fanfic! I never thought I would actually write one because it seems very complicated to catch the show's atmosphere but when I watched 4.11 it bugged me to write this so here I am. I haven't written fanfiction in a long time and I hope this is my comeback! Enjoy!

Lorelai had hung up on Mrs.Kim. Kids could be way too complicated. Just like men, popped into her tired mind. She should have thanked Rory for waking her up. The dream she had been dreaming with Luke and Nicole as main characters in it, hadn't been pleasant at all. In her dream, Nicole was pregnant with twins and they were about to move to Australia, all happy and giddy. Lorelai stared into the dark. It shouldn't bother her that much. It was just Litchfield, not Australia and after what he said, he had already moved three weeks ago and she hadn't noticed. So if he hadn't told her, she wouldn't even have noticed. He was right actually, nothing had changed. Hadn't it? Lorelai shook her head. She didn't care where Luke lived. 'Just move away, see if I care', she told Luke in her mind and closed her eyes. The image of happy Luke and happy Nicole moving to Australia followed her back into a restless sleep.

As Luke lay in his bed – correction, in his former bed – he kept on thinking of the scene in the church. She had told him she didn't want him to move but why? This question was bugging him and keeping him awake. A whole week, she had spent on thinking about him moving. Lorelai was a question mark to him, sometimes. He couldn't understand why she cared so much. Nothing had changed for her. The changes were going on in his life. He was now living in a townhouse, which he had to admit, really didn't fit him but it fit Nicole. And he was with Nicole now. After all, they were married and he wasn't the guy to drop out of his responsibility. Yes, he had quite a lot stuff in his apartment. Yes, he did sleep there at least two or three days a week. It was simply easier with the diner, he told himself. It was simpler to think that way.

Lorelai was once again woken by the shrill noise of the phone. She thought about not picking up but she was awake anyway and so she leaned over and answered.

"Mrs.Kim?" she asked, thinking the woman might have not found Yale with her navigation system.

"Do you always answer your phone like that?" Luke asked sceptically.

"Luke?" Lorelai was more awake by now.

"Did I wake you?" he asked. Only half had he realized it was in the middle of the night.

"Geez no, I was just making jam. You know, it works best at... 3.11am."

"I'm sorry, I'll call you tomorrow, it was-"

"No! I mean, I'm awake now anyway. What do you want? Did anything happen?" Lorelai sat up in bed.

"No..." suddenly he felt really stupid and angry. Why had he called her? Did it matter why she didn't want him to move?

"So you just called me at this horrible time to do what? Trying to make me hate you so I won't come bugging you for coffee anymore? 'Cause buddy it ain't working."

"This was not the reason. Remember earlier, when we were in the church?"

"I confess."

"Ahh... we were interrupted by this Skinner guy just when you were about to tell me something." Luke was nervous. This was stupid. Maybe he was just dreaming the whole thing. Lorelai was not less nervous. In the church she had been about to tell him something. She had only realized it then. For a week she had pondered Luke's move and she had nightmares about him and Nicole. He was important to her. She hadn't realized how much until this night when he had confronted her, telling her to stop interfering and judging his life. She couldn't stop, he was too important in her own life.

"I was?" she said after a short moment.

"You don't want me to move." He stated, regaining some posure.

"No." she answered simply.

"Why?" he asked, repeating his earlier question. To his surprise, his heart beat faster as he waited for her answer.

"I hate changes."

"That all?"

"Yeah. And the coffee is worse. I mean, it seems rushed. Yes, it does. I hadn't wanted to tell you. I have noticed some time ago, but I never said anything. Couldn't know the reason. So I would rather have you living her, I would like a non-rushed coffee at morning." Lorelai told him.

"Oh, sure." Was all he could get out.

"Yeah. May I go back to sleep now? I had a nice dream and you killed it."

"Sure, go back to sleep. You'll get your non-rushed coffee tomorrow. Goodnight, Lorelai."

"Luke?"

"Yes?" there was a glimmer of hope in him.

"Just say goodbye before you move to Australia, ok?"

"Sure." He answered rather confused. "Goodnight."

Lorelai listened to the click of Luke hanging up. The phone still at her ear, she whispered:

"I don't want you to move because I want you here with me, near me. I want to know I can always come to you, at any time. That's because." She put the phone in its cradle, dragged the phone over her head and tried to ban the damn image of happy Nicole.

Luke felt a weird stitch in his stomach. Somewhere deep down he had thought... nah. Of course Lorelai would have this weird explanation for her dislike for his move. That was typical her. The phone was still in his hand. He dialed the number and waited. And waited.

"Yes?" a tired voice answered.

"Nicole, it's me...

END

NOTE: Alright, that was it. Please tell me what you think. I think about continuing this. It would be alternate season 4 then... if anyone is interested in that, let me know! Thanks for reading.

Anika (sleeplessdreamer42)