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THE INTRO

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"Ever try to hold a butterfly? It can't be done. 'You damage them,' he said. 'As gentle as you try to be, you take the powder from their wings and they won't ever fly the same. It's kinder just to let them go."

-SUSANNA KEARSLEY, The Rose Garden


Life has became sort of like a routine for Korinna. Ever since she were dragged back to her homeland in Skiathos everything happened to be the same. She stopped fighting Dimitri and Astrid after four months of living with them and became tired of the constant pressure to become a "Family again," Like she could actually have that with the two people who were one of the main ones who damaged her life. Korinna started to turn to other things as a result of comfort, to let go of every bad thing that continued to ruin her life.

Her routine consisted of:

Laying awake every night wondering why things couldn't be different? Perhaps only catching onr to four, maybe six hours if she were lucky of sleep every night.

Astrid entering her room to wake her, as if she needed to be awake with her thoughts clawing around inside of her brain.

Taking forever in the shower to avoid having to sit at the table talking to Astrid and her father like they were some happy fucking family.

Her father watching over her like a hawk while she pretended to swallow her pills in front of him before he left for work.

Korinna leaving her home not too long after on her bike, meeting her two new found friends Anwar and Josie around the corner from her new "home."

From 8:15 am to 1:00 pm Anwar and Josie were the only things that allowed Korinna to make it through her school days.

After school if she didn't have therapy or family therapy she would either venture off with Anwar and Josie or get wrapped up in her own wild shit.

These days Korinna Rokos had became empty. So she had to find something to fill this void, she truly did not know how to be happy anymore.

Whenever she decided to return back to the place Dimitri and Astrid called home she would receive yet another punishment and go upstairs to do her homework with the door wide open.

After finishing her homework for the day she would return back downstairs and help prepare dinner depending on the time.

Pretend to listen to the bullshit Astrid and Dimitri chatted about before heading back up to bed just to be awake half the night and to wake to do the same thing.

This is the life that Korinna Rokos had been accustomed to. The life that no longer had value or worth to her. The life without freedom, the life that was not simply being lived, that life she no longer wanted...

It was as if a chunk of Korinna's world has been ripped away from her as the painful memory of saying goodbye to Nicky and Vito burned inside of her brain. The memory of leaving the south side for what could possibly be for good, the memory of boarding the plane and taking off into another world and the sadness of not being able to see Debbie ever again. And let's not forget the biggest agony of it all...Korinna would not be there for Carl when he got out like she promised. Korinna never broke promises.

Except that one special promise to the boy she loved for as long as she could remember.

That thought alone caused Korinna to slip off into the bad habits she gained living in Skiathos. The things she did, she did them because she couldn't be there waiting for Carl and that tore her apart. She did them because Astrid and Dimitri didn't give a fuck about her...they only took her back to Greece to get a rise out of Nicky and Vito. She did the things she did to make them understand that this isn't the life she wanted. For almost four years Korinna had became her own woman without them and the rules the two set upon her were not for keeps. Not anymore. The scars done internally and externally to the fifteen year old's body was evidence that this was not the end of her story, it was only a chapter...a chapter that deserved a sequel.

Korinna Rokos would not be tamed and she wouldn't be surprised if this ending turned ugly but as long as she leaves this world doing two things: Returning back to her true family where she belonged so her hearts at ease. The last thing would to be there for Carl Gallagher for as long as he needed her to be there and if he could love her like she loved him that would be the biggest adventure life had to offer.


A/N: SO I'M BACK. I can't even begin to tell you the crazy shit I've been dealing with behind this screen and what stopped me from updating Feathers and wax and Mad Hatter. Your girl has to get surgery later this month and that's pretty much why I went MIA and I do apologize for that. Also been dealing with some drama while being injured but I won't bore you with that. Let's get down to the serious stuff for Shameless season six.

So episode one of shameless was released on New Years (Also Happy New Years to you guys! We all made it through the wildness of 2015 - I hope 2016 is better than last year but I'll keep my expectations low since I entered the new year with a freaking injury! To be clear 2015 kinda sucked but I say this every year lol. Anyways cheers to 2016!) and to be honest I'm disappointed.

For those of you who know my favorite character happened to be Carl - It changed From Ian at the start of shameless to Debbie to finally Carl and I'm just disgusted with how the writers are writing Carl. I really debated if I wanted to continue on from Homeboy after the shit the writers had Carl say. Actually from season five where Carl was arrested and they had him say "Don't shoot, I'm white!" Pissed me the fuck off especially as a black person where most of my people were being killed left and right. It showed that the writers are being racist and in fact didn't give a shit about what was happening in the black community. ALSO for season six they allowed Carl to greet Liam who is one of the only two black characters on the show by using the N-word. That shit doesn't fly with me, it was offensive and I don't want to hate Carl because I generally believe that is not something he would say. They pretty much just threw away everything each character was built up to be. The fact the writers thought it would be funny and have Liam retaliate by calling Carl a cracker in response isn't funny to me. I AM OFFENDED.

I really don't want to be mad at this show for being racist but that's already two strikes for this and there's already a lot of other racist shit going on but I'm trying my best because I really do love shameless. I miss seasons 1-4 and I'm going to try my best to continue writing for all of our sakes. If you haven't watched it yet good luck my friends and we should all hang on for our dear lives because I'm so close to walking away.

Thank you.