Okay all I am going to try and do this story.

I don't own Harry Potter or the characters.


Ever since I first saw him, I was in love. I didn't know it was love then. I was only eleven years old. Eleven year old girls don't know what love is. Eleven is too young to even think about dating much less love! But there he was, standing there with the look of nervousness.

Sadly, I never really spoke to him until sixth year. I didn't even start to hang out with him and his small group of friends until then. But once I did, the five of us were one strong group of friends.

Until then, I watched him from afar and just fell in love with him even more. I never was a popular girl. I never expect him to notice me. My only friend was in Hufflepuff. He was in Gryffindor and I was in Ravenclaw. Us being in different houses pushed me to believe that he'll never see me. No one else did, so why should he? The only people who did notice me were my Head of House, my best friend in Hufflepuff and my Great Grandpa Albus, though I call him Grandpa. It's much easier.

I don't really remember what happened in my first year, but I'll never forget the very first time I saw Mr. Remus John Lupin. I should start from the beginning.


Verna Peck looked at the compartment window. She was really excited. She was finally going to Hogwarts. She had gotten here early, hoping to get a good seat. And she did. She sat in the front of the train looking out onto the platform, where parents said good-bye to their children.

It was then when she saw him. Her eyes widen as she looked at his sandy blond hair…or was it brown? She couldn't really tell from this distance. She couldn't see his eye color either, but there was something about him that grabbed her attention. She couldn't take her eyes off of him.

He stood nervously on the platform with a man. The man must have been his father.

"VERNA!"

Verna jumped and accidentally hit her head on the window. "Ow…" She moaned in pain. Rubbing her head, Verna turned and glared at her long time friend, Katherine Baker. "What was that for, Kat?" She growled.

"I called a few times. What were you staring at?" Kat peered out the window.

"Nothing." Verna answered quickly. Her face turned red.

Kat glance at her, giving her a look that clearly stated that she didn't believe Verna for a second. "Fine, fine." Verna moved to stand next to Kat at the window. "You see that boy there, the boy talking to his father." She pointed at the boy she saw earlier. The boy was now facing his father, who knelt down to his level to talk to him.

Kat nodded her head. "Yeah, I see him. What about him?"

"I…I don't even know his name and I think I…I…" She started to say nervously. What should she say? 'I have a crush on him'. That would be weird to say when you don't even know the boy's name.

"Do you like him?" Kat asked with her eyes wide. Verna nodded, shyly. Kat squealed. "Merlin, Verna, that is great. Your first crush."

"I don't even know his name, Kat." She said desperately. "I don't know anything about him!"

"Don't worry, Verna. You'll find out his name at the Sorting."

I didn't see him for the rest of the ride to Hogwarts. The next time I did see him was at the boats to Hogwarts.

"First years this way. First years!" All the first years started following this well built man in his early forties.

"Professor Wells? Where is Hagrid?" An older boy asked the professor.

"He had to take care of a sick animal, Mr. Smith." The professor growled. "Now, get to your carriage." The professor told Mr. Smith. As the older boy walked off, the professor started his yelling again. "FIRST YEARS!

The group of nervous first years stood by the boats. "REMEMBER, ONLY FOUR PEOPLE TO A BOAT!"

Verna looked for a boat to get into and her heart started thumping when she caught sight of two empty seats next to the boy she had noticed on the train. He was with a pump rat-ish looking blond hair boy.

She smiled and pulled Kat's sleeves. "Kat, there's an empty spot over there." Kat rolled her eyes when she saw who sat in the boat.

Her heart pumped loudly in her chest as she walked closer to the boat. The boy must have sense her coming…or heard her beating heart. He started to look up from the book in his hands. Just as he looked up, two people step in-between their vision and got into the boat.

Verna sighed in disappointment and got into a different boat with two blond hair girls who sneered at them.

Remus Lupin pulled out his book and started reading the moment he hopped into the boat with another boy. This is going to be a long year. He'll just have to make sure not to become close to anyone and everything should be fine. Remus looked around at all the children going in their first year. 'Easier said then done.' He thought to himself before going back to his reading, while listening to the sounds around him.

The full moon is in four days. He could hear sounds better then any other human. He could hear the hearts pumping in their chest. He could almost hear their blood running through their veins. One heartbeat stood out to him though. It was beating faster and faster and coming towards him. He could smell the sent coming of the person as he forced all his attention to it. The smell of a forest after it rains. His favorite smell of nature.

Remus looked up just as two people stepped in the way. A girl with blazing red hair and a pale boy with straight black hair that went to his shoulders. They stepped into the boat.

Once they were seated, Remus started to look around for the person, but saw nothing and he had lost the sound of the heartbeat in the mix of the other heartbeats. The smell and the heartbeat were lost in the sea of other sounds and smells.

"I hope you don't mind if we sit here." The red haired girl asked looking at him.

Remus quickly shook his head, not use to being spoken to by anyone other then his parents. "No, no. I…Idon't mind." He went back to his reading.

"Thanks. I'm Lily Evans by the way."

Remus looked up again to see her hand out, ready to shake his. She was smiling nicely at him and Remus couldn't help but give a shy smile back. "Remus Lupin." He shook her hand.

Still smiling Lily Evans turn towards her friend. "This is my friend Severus Snape." The boy, Severus, didn't shake his hand like Lily did. He completely ignored him all together. "Sorry, about him." She said addressing Remus once again. She then turned towards the other boy in the boat. "Hello, you are?" She asked nicely.

The boy's eyes jumped from the water to Lily to Remus to Severus then back to the water nervously. "P-Pe-Peter P-P-Pettigrew." He said nervously.

The rest of the boat ride went smoothly. Remus started to read again, forgetting the fact that normal people wouldn't be able to read in the dim light from the lantern. But he didn't see the questioning glances Lily and Severus gave him.

"When I call your name you are to sit down and I'll put the Sorting Hat on your head." Professor McGonagall said holding the list of names.

Verna wasn't paying much attention though. She was starting at the person in front of her. Even this close to the boy, Verna couldn't tell if his hair was dirty blond or light brown, but she could see the graying hair and wondered why he has graying hair already.

Her heart was thumping loudly. She wouldn't be surprise if her crush could hear it. This was the moment where she'll find out his name.

"Katherine Baker."

Verna gave her friend a prideful smile as she watched her walk up to the stroll. The hat was placed on her head.

A few minutes later it shouted out, "HUFFLEPUFF!" The table closest to Verna's right burst into cheers.

A few names later. "Sirius Black." A boy with a stony face and black hair pulled back away from his face stepped forward. He sat on the stroll and McGonagall placed that hat on his head. The minutes went by and Verna was starting to get impatient. Finally the hat shouted, "GRYFFINDOR!" There seems to be shock silence as the boy sat on the stroll, his face was pale in horror.

"Go sit at your table, Mr. Black." McGonagall said gently. The boy turned to her. Though he spoke to quietly to here, Verna's crush's head popped up with his eyes wide. He was staring at the Black kid, almost like he heard what he said.

McGonagall said something equally as quite back to the Black kid and Black nodded his head and slowly got off the stroll. His face went back to the stony look from earlier as he sat at the closest to Verna's left. No body was cheering for him.

A few more names were called and then, "Lily Evans." A red hair girl stepped forward and the hat was placed on her head. "GRYFFINDOR!" This time the Gryffindor table did cheer.

A few more names then, "Remus Lupin." Verna expected some other kid to walk up to the stroll, but was pleasantly surprised when the boy in front of her, her crush, walked forward. Verna mouthed his name to herself. Remus Lupin. Remus. The name for some reason fits him. She smiled to herself.

"GRYFFINDOR!" The house erupted into cheers again as a pale Remus sat at their table, only smiling shyly.

Gryffindor. Verna thought to herself. Maybe she could go into Gryffindor. Being in the same house and same year would bind to make him notice her. She smiled at that thought.

So, lost in her thoughts, Verna almost missed her name being called. "Verna Peck." She moved to the stroll and looked up at her Grandpa. He smiled at her and she shyly smiled back before sitting on the stroll. The hat was placed on her head.

"Well, well what do we have here?" A voice came from inside her head. "Hmm…lets see. Smart, brave, intelligent. A girl of reason. I know where to put you…RAVENCLAW!" The table next to the Hufflepuff cheered. Not looking too happy, Verna walked over to the table and sat down.

The Sorting continued. "Peter Pettigrew." The pump rat-ish boy sat on the stroll. It was another Sirius Black type of Sorting…other words; it took forever. "GRYFFINDOR," the hat finally called out.

Two more names were called then, "James Potter." A messy black hair kid with glasses walked up to the stroll and sat down. The hat was only on his head for a split second when it shouted, "GRYFFINDOR!" The Gryffindor table cheered loudly as James Potter sat down beside Remus, who was sitting across Sirius Black. Peter Pettigrew was sitting on the other side of Remus. Remus was back to reading his book.

A few more names were called then, "Severus Snape" A pale boy with straight shoulder length black hair sat down on the stroll. "SLYTHERIN!" The Slytherin table didn't cheer and call out. They just clapped quietly.

Once everyone was sorted, Verna's Grandpa Albus stood up. "I'm Headmaster Albus Dumbledore and I would like to…"


I knew I didn't have much hope in ever catching Remus' eye. To me fate was against us getting together.

Four days into the start of term in our first year, Remus had run into me. He was in a rush. Running to some unknown location, when he plowed me over. He said a quick sorry, but other then that kept on running.

In our second year, Professor McGonagall had assigned a project. She picked our partners for us and I was put with, guess who, REMUS! But the day of the assignment, he left. McGonagall assigned me to work with someone else, till he gets back, but he was gone for five days. Monday to Friday. His friends were looked worried and it made me worried…and a little mad. There was my chance to really get to know him and he leaves the week of the assignment. It wasn't until later that I found out why. Much later.

There was this other time in third year; there were a Hollows Eve dance for third years down. The fourth years and up were having their, much more wild party some other time. They let us into the Great Hall at exactly 6 p.m. So, a huge crowd of younger students was waiting by the doors for it to open. So, once it had open there were a lot of pushing and shoving going in. I had bumped into Remus and he jerked his head up and looked wildly around, but people had pushed me away and he couldn't see me. Even at the party he didn't seem to notice me.

During a Hogsmead weekend in our fourth year I once again bumped into him outside the Three Broomsticks. At that time war was in question and there were protesting going on and riots. People who wanted us to go to war with this Lord Voldemort and people who didn't. I was walking out of the Three Broomstick and he was about to walk in. I wasn't paying any attention to where I was going and bang. I ran into him, but at that same moment where there was a space in between us, a group of protesters got in between us. I once again saw him jerk his head around, looking for me. Most likely to see if I'm okay. He, though, didn't see me and had walked into the Three Broomstick by the time the group of protesters were gone.

In fifth year was the closest I ever gotten to speaking with him. It was the end of the year and everyone was getting on the train. I was waiting on the platform when, Remus walked right into me…that's been happening a lot…But this time he looked at me! No words were spoken. We didn't have time for words; cause Kat came by and quickly pulled me onto the train before we could exchange any words. Our eyes, though, stayed connected until I couldn't see him anymore. I was mad at Kat for that, but of course I forgave her ten minutes into the ride home.

My friend Kat made other friends in her house, but she always would spare a time or two for me. I would tell her, well, bug her about Remus. Remus this and Remus that. She didn't seem to mind. She kept telling me to go to him and not wait for him to come to me. But I was shy, too shy, to walk up to him.

Our sixth year is when the real story begins…