Faking My Own Suicide

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Chapter Two

3 months had gone by since Sheldon and Amy broke up and Leonard was worried about Sheldon he was acting strange he would hardly talk and when he would talk it would only be for a short amount of time he wouldn't even say anything when they went to restaurants and they got his order wrong he would just sigh and eat his food and he would just work all day he was getting really close to getting a Nobel prize after sheldon gave Leonard a black eye he called Sheldon's mom but it made it worse he stopped going to halo night and paint-balling but he did stop drinking Leonard barely saw him anymore except in the morning and when he drove him to work in the morning and back from work though every time Leonard asked Sheldon if everything was okay he said he was fine and changed the subject

Amy wasn't doing any better in the beginning she would cry all the time and Penny and Bernadette would always try and cheer her up but then she just through herself into her work so she didn't have to think about Sheldon she would pretend she didn't love him anymore and maybe in time it would be true
Amy wanted to hang out with Penny and Bernadette but they were going to eat pizza with the guys but Penny said that she should come and that she shouldn't let Sheldon get in her way of having fun but Amy was still not convinced but then Penny promised that if Sheldon said anything to upset her she would go all Nebraskan on his ass so Amy reluctantly agreed

the whole day at work Amy was thinking about Sheldon she hadn't seen him since they broke up at first Sheldon kept texting and calling her to try to apologize he even visited her a few times but she always told him to go way Sheldon kept trying to apologize every minute of every day for a whole month! He even sent her gifts in the mail like roses with an apology card but eventually he saw it wasn't working so he gave up he started to send less text then phone calls and visits and finally the gifts and one day it all stopped all at once eventually everything ends but she was surprised on how suddenly they stopped one day she text messages and a lot of missed phone calls and a lot of roses and card the next day nothing Amy felt sad when they stopped even though she never read any of the text or picked up any of the phone calls an she threw away all the roses he gave her she just felt sad like if Sheldon completely left her life forever

Sheldon was at work in his office working and waiting ever since he broke up with Amy he became less social he would stop eating with his friends he built wall
around himself he didn't want to be hurt anymore but behind those walls he was sad and lonely his heart hurt he hadn't seen Amy in a while he even visited the doctor a couple of times but the doctor said he was perfectly healthy and suggested that maybe the pain was caused by emotional problems Sheldon went to a different doctor after that and the doctor told him he might have depression an gave him some pills Sheldon had to take them when he woke up before he went to bed an before and after a meal Leonard was worried about the pills but Sheldon told him it was fine

Today Sheldon was trying to figure out an equation he was stuck on for the past month then Leonard knocked on his office door
"Yes Leonard" Sheldon said

"Come on it time to go home"

"No I need to figure out this out" Sheldon said gesturing towards his whiteboard

"Sheldon if we don't leave we now your schedule Is going to be
ruined" Leonard said

"fine just let me get my Things"
Sheldon said getting his stuff

"Come on lets go" Leonard said

"Coming!" Sheldon said

After Sheldon and Leonard came back from getting the pizza they waited for every one to arrive Raj and Howard were the firsts one the arrive

"Hey Howard Hi Raj" Leonard said

"Hey Leonard Hey Sheldon" Raj and Howard said

Sheldon just nodded like he always did when he first started doing this they were worried but now they were used to it

Next to arrive was Bernadette

"Hi guys" she said

"Hi Bernie" Howard said giving her a quick peck on the lips

"Hey Bernadette" Leonard said

Raj was sober so he just waved and Sheldon just nodded

"Penny is not here yet?" Bernadette asked Leonard

"No she should be here soon though" Leonard as if on cue Penny walked through the door

"Hey Pen-" Leonard stopped mid sentence because Amy was behind her the room was silent

Sheldon's heart stopped for a second when he saw her he hadn't seen her since the break up even though he tried to apologize He even visited her a couple but he gave up after a month when he saw it wasn't working
The room was silent for a long time and Amy was starting to feel more and more uncomfortable especially when Sheldon wouldn't look her in the eye the silence was broken by Penny
"Well aren't you guys going today hi to Amy" She said
"Hi Amy" everyone said except for Raj and Sheldon Raj waved and Sheldon again just nodded stood up and went to his room

"Were did Sheldon go?" Amy asked Leonard

"Probably to go hide in his room I'll get him" Leonard said

"Wait! Leonard what happened to eye?!" Amy asked worry in her voice
The room was silent again

"um…I fell? Yeah I fell" Leonard said
"are you sure it doesn't look like you fell it looks like you got hit?"

"No I fell anyway I should go get Sheldon" Leonard said trying to change the subject but on his way he bumped in to Sheldon
"Oww!" Sheldon said

"Sheldon? Sorry I was just about to get you were did you go?"

"To get my pills I forgot them" Sheldon said showing him the pills

Pills? Amy thought she didn't know Sheldon took pills first Leonard's eye then Sheldon taking pills

"Sheldon why do you take pills?" Amy asked

The room went silent as they waited for Sheldon to respond
Sheldon got a water bottle from the fridge before responding

"Because the doctor told me too" Sheldon said then he took the pills and drank them with the water

"No why do you take them is it for allergies?" Amy asked Sheldon

"Well Amy if you must know it's for my depression" Sheldon said calmly

Amy regretted saying it she didn't know that Sheldon had depression she felt bad it was her fault she heard from Penny that he wasn't doing well but she didn't know that he had depression

"oh ok" was all Amy could say in response

the rest of the evening was awkward especially since Amy had to sit next to Sheldon

Sheldon had trouble breathing next to Amy he felt like was running out of air he wanted to grab her hand cuddle with her and kiss her he forgot how much he missed her touch and smile but Amy didn't care so he just sat there quietly eating while the others were catching up on what Amy was doing after he was finished eating half his food he got up and got his pills again and swallowed them with some water Amy noticed this

"Sheldon your just took those pills?" She asked concerned

she was afraid he was becoming addicted to the pills

"I know" Sheldon said

"Then why are you taking them again it hasn't even been a hour" Amy said

"I got full" Sheldon said

"Sheldon stop avoiding the question why did you take the pills!" She asked her voice rising with anger and concern

The whole room was once again silent and they were staring at Sheldon and Amy

"I don't understand didn't I just answer the question?" Sheldon asked

"No now tell me why you took those pills again" Amy asked still angry but her voice now calmer

"I took them because I have to take them in the morning when I wake up before breakfast after breakfast after work Before lunch after lunch when I come back home from work before dinner after dinner and when it's time to go to bed and then all over again does that answer you question" Sheldon said he was a little annoyed that she was asking him all these questions
"And why are you asking anyway it's not it's important to you"

Amy was shocked how many times he had to take the pills maybe he had serious depression she was also felt a pang of guilt because Sheldon thought she didn't care about him

"I'm sorry Sheldon I should not have asked I was just worried"
Amy said

"worried about what?" Sheldon asked

"You of course" Amy said

"Well you shouldn't I can take care of myself" Sheldon said and took another pill

"Sheldon don't take more pills it hasn't even been 5 minutes since your last one" Amy said

"I have to I'm going to bed" Sheldon said and he left Amy feeling worried for Sheldon he was acting strange

"Guys what happened to Sheldon over the past 3 months?" Amy asked

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