Stalemate


3x12, Concentrate and Ask Again. Olivia's feelings about what that paper said.


"He still has feelings for her."

I stared at that piece of paper, my whole world crumbling around me.

"He still has feelings for her."

Funny, how six little words could make you want to curl up into a little ball and cry. And I wasn't even the type to mope and cry and wallow in self-pity. What had they done to me? What had she done?

"He still has feelings for her."

Of course, it was perfectly reasonable. He thought she was me. She acted like me, looked like me... He wanted that relationship. He wanted to be happy.

But I suspected this all along. Even as I tried to deny it, even as I tried to rationalize and tell myself that everything was okay...

"He still has feelings for her."

I can't even look into his eyes anymore without thinking of all I've lost; what I could have had. And he can't look at me anymore without thinking of the girl who lied to him, seduced him, maybe even loved him. The girl he was happy with.

So this awkwardness lingers, though we've tried to maneuver around it.

We're both reminded of what we've lost and can never regain.

I wonder how long we'll be stuck here, unmoving, lost in the past.