Chapter 1: Chapter 1
A/N: Hey there! So… No I haven't forgotten my other fic "Blinding love" but, I just had this idea and I had to get it down before I forgot it. It won't be long… maybe 2 or 3 chapters long. Inspired by the song "Small Bump – Ed Sheeran" I hope you like it!
"Castle!" She yelled from the bathroom. She was seated on the edge of the large bath in Castle's bathroom. Her heart was racing, thumping so hard, she could feel it in her throat. Her eyes were wide as she stared down at the stick in her hand. She had suspected, as she was three weeks late, but seeing the positive sign on the stick she held in her shaking hand confirmed her suspicions.
She wasn't sure what to feel, she felt like she should be excited. She had always dreamed of this, being pregnant for him, but she didn't imagine it would happen like this, she thought she'd be married first. She couldn't help the feeling of panic that rose within her. So she sat there, staring at the positive pregnancy test she held, waiting for Castle, until she could decide how she felt about this.
Just at the moment, Castle ran into the bathroom.
"Where's the fire!?" His eyes darted around the room, looking for any sign of danger that would have her calling out for him. Seeing none, his eyes dropped to her, his eyes worried.
"Kate, what is it? Are you hur—" He trailed off when he saw what she held in her hand and he looked up and saw her panic stricken face.
"Is that… Is that what I think it is?" He asked, unsure of what to feel until he was absolutely sure. She stared at him blankly and nodded.
"And is it…. Positive?" He asked, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He could see her relax slightly at the sight of his tiny smile, as she held the stick up to him. He took it, his fingers brushing her shaky, sweaty ones. His heart raced as he looked at the positive indicator on the stick and his face broke into a huge grin.
"Oh my God Kate! We're pregnant!" He exclaimed, pulling her body off of the bath and into his tight embrace, he felt her relax as she wrapped her arms around him. After a while, he drew back, still holding her close.
"How do you feel about this?" He asked, remembering the look on her face when he first entered the bathroom.
"I don't know" She admitted shyly, "I don't really trust pharmacy tests."
"Do you want to go to the doctor?" He asked, eager to find out himself if she truly was pregnant.
"What? Now?" She asked, leaning back to look him in the eye.
"We could… If you want." He told her, rubbing circles on her back.
"Okay. I supposed it's best to find out as soon as possible." She looked down at what she was wearing; a loose top and a pair of sweatpants, she figured it was decent enough and she looked back up at him, "Let me just get my shoes."
She untangled herself from his hold and made her way into the bedroom finding a pair of slippers to wear before walking out into the living to wait for him.
Her heart was still racing, but she wasn't as nervous as before. Castle seemed genuinely happy at the news, which had helped to calm her nerves. He didn't seem upset at all, but she still remained anxious, now that she saw Castle's response, she decided to wait until the doctor checked her out before she acknowledged the excitement she was beginning to feel.
"Ready?" Castle placed a hand gently on her back, so as not to frighten her. She smiled and nodded and let him steer her out of the loft and down to the garage.
Minutes later, they were seated in the almost empty waiting room at the doctor's office. She was beginning to feel uneasy, she felt Castle grip her thigh, either to calm her or because he was also nervous. Looking at him, she decided he was also nervous, his eyes were wide as he looked around the room, his left leg was bouncing up and down, something she knew he only did when he was angry or nervous. It no longer surprised her how much she knew him and his tells, they had only been dating for a year, but it felt like forever.
She allowed herself to get lost in the fantasy of a mini Castle/Beckett running around the loft. She hoped her child would have his beautiful blue eyes that expressed the most intense emotion she had ever seen. Those eyes that were so open and friendly. She was snapped out of her daydreaming when she felt Castle release her thigh and stand up abruptly.
"Kate Beckett?" she heard the receptionist called out into the waiting room.
"Yes! Uhh- that's me!" She stood, grabbing Castle's hand.
"Dr. Addison will see you now." The receptionist informed her with a smile.
"Thank you." She smiled at the lady and pulled Castle in the direction of the doctor's office.
"Aah Kate, long time no see." Dr. Addison stood greeting her.
She had been seeing the OB/GYN since she became sexually active years ago and was comforted by the doctor's friendly disposition and professionalism.
"And who is this?" She asked, turning towards Castle, who stood closely by Kate's side.
"This is Richard Castle." She smiled and looked down at their joined hands, "he's uum, he's my boyfriend." She felt Castle give her hand a tiny squeeze in support.
"The author?" She perked up, eyes twinkling.
"One and the same." Castle responded, shaking the hand she had extended to him.
"My daughter loves your books. It's great to actually meet you Mr. Castle." She beamed.
"Likewise." He smiled politely.
"So, back to business. So Kate, what brings you here so suddenly at this hour?" She asked, getting back to business immediately.
"Well, I suspect I might be pregnant." She told the doctor, gripping Castle's hand tightly.
"Suspect?" She raised an eyebrow and gestured to the examination table, "Well let's find out if you two are gonna be a mommy and daddy."
"Well, he's already a daddy, doctor." Kate informed the doctor, sitting on the edge of the table, still holding firmly to Castle's hand. He didn't seem to mind, in fact, the excitement on his face was hard to miss.
"Well, let me just run some tests and we'll find out if Mr. Castle will be a daddy again."
Dr. Addison ran all the necessary tests, while Castle stood faithful by her side. When the doctor left the room to get the results, she looked up at him nervously.
"Hey." She whispered.
He looked down at her and smiled warmly.
"Hey." He leaned down to kiss the top of her head, staying in that position a while longer, breathing in her scent.
"I never asked," She took his hand and brought it to her lips, placing a soft kiss in the middle of his palm, "How do you feel about this?"
"About you possibly being pregnant with my child?" He asked.
"Mmhhmm."
"I couldn't be happier." He said, smiling in her hair.
"Really?" She sounded surprised. He stepped back slightly to look into her eyes.
"Kate, why would I be anything but?" She sighed, dropping her gaze and breaking eye contact, "I don't know. We've never really talked about this before, I don't even know if you want more kids and then we're not even married – " She began rambling. He placed his hands on bother sides of her face, forcing her to look into his eyes, she stopped talking when she met his serious,yet tender and loving gaze.
"Kate, listen to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me – except for Alexis of course – I love you and having children with you just makes everything better, so don't you ever, for a second think otherwise okay?" He whispered, gently stroking her cheek with his thumb. A lump formed in her throat and her vision blurred as her eyes filled with tears.
They were lost, gazing at each other lovingly when they heard someone clearing their throat.
"Well, the results are in." the doctor started, her face a complete mask, not giving away the result of the tests. That uneasy feeling returned with full force and she felt like she was going to throw up if Dr. Addison didn't tell them the results of the tests anytime soon. She felt Castle's grip on her tighten as he moved closer to her side, she could feel his anxiety radiating from him.
"And?" She heard herself ask. The doctor smiled as she looked from her to Castle and back.
"Congratulations. You're pregnant!" She exclaimed.
Kate remained still, as did Castle.
"You're sure?" He asked quietly.
The doctor nodded, "Absolutely. Kate? You don't look too pleased." She noted, cocking her head to the side, eyes flickering between her and Castle in concern.
Castle released his grip on her and stepped around to stand in front of her, placing a hand on her cheek as he watched her eyes fill with tears.
"Kate? Honey, why are you crying?" He asked softly, using his thumb to wipe away a tear that had escaped.
"I'll leave you two to talk." Dr. Addison announced, stepping out of the room giving to couple privacy.
"Kate?" He called when they were alone.
"I'm ….. We're pregnant." She whispered, staring at the door.
"We are." He confirmed cautiously, not knowing what she was feeling.
They remained silent for a moment and then she was throwing her arms around his neck and pulling him down. She kissed him fiercely and passionately until he pulled away, needing air.
"I take it you're okay with this?" He grinned, resting his forehead against hers.
"I'm gonna be a mom." She whispered, closing her eyes.
"And a damn good one too." He grinned kissing her forehead.
"I just wish my mom could be here for this." She sighed.
"She is. She's always with you." He assured her.
"I know, it's not the same, but I guess I'll have to make do with just you." She teased.
"Rude." He pouted.
Dr. Addison poked her head around the door.
"Everything okay now?" She asked.
"Fantastic." Kate grinned.
"Great! Now, the details." The doctor said, walking into the room, eyes focused on her clipboard. "So, apparently you are five week pregnant. Have you been having morning sickness or any other symptoms?" She asked.
Kate thought back to the past few weeks.
"No, now that I think about it, just the missed period. Is that bad?" She asked, becoming worried for the well-being of her unborn child already."
The doctor shook her head, "No, not at all, some people don't get morning sickness until the second month, or later on if they even get it at all." She assured her.
Kate felt her nerves calm.
"However, if you do experience morning sickness, I must tell you, it doesn't hit only in the morning, so I suggest you stock up on those saltines. You may experience some discomfort. Stay away from caffeine and here's a list of other things to stay away from to ensure your baby remains healthy. Please eat properly, as now you're not eating only for yourself, drink lots of water and rest when you need it." The doctor was rattling off a list of do's and don'ts which was making her a bit worried. What if she couldn't do it? What if she's a horrible mother? What if her baby doesn't make it? What if something happens? She felt Castle squeeze her hand as if he could read her thoughts, she took a deep breath and focused on what the doctor was telling her.
"You're going to be a great mom Kate, I know one when I see one. You've got a great man too." She smiled at them.
"Yes she does." Castle smirked and she slapped him playfully on the chest.
"You'll have to come in next month for your ultrasound when the baby is a bit more developed. Any problems, don't hesitate to call and I mean it, the smallest problem could end up being fatal for either of you." Kate nodded, absorbing all the instructions she's been giving, trying to sort it all out in her head. She was going to be a mom and she realized, she couldn't wait. She'd do everything in her power to keep this baby safe.
"Crap" She cursed as she sprinted from the couch in Castle's study, barely making it to the bathroom as she threw up into the toilet. She felt Castle's hand on her hand, while his other hand pulled her hair away from her face. How did he do that? She wondered, she didn't even know where in the loft he was, but as soon as she started to throw up, he was there.
"You shouldn't be seeing me like this. This is unattractive." She groaned, sitting on the cool, tiled floor.
"Are you kidding? Watching you carry my kid is the sexist thing I've ever seen and if that makes you sick well, I'll be here." He told her, brushing her hair out of her face.
"This. This, I could do without." She grimaced as she threw up again. "I mean, it's not even morning, what is this, why bother call it morning sickness?" She complained, leaning back on the wall, resting a hand on her stomach. It was only eight weeks and so she was still flat.
"I don't know babe, but we have an appointment." He smiled sympathetically at her.
"Our first ultra sound." She smiled, remembering.
"Come on, we don't wanna be late." He stood, holding out a hand to help her up.
"Ugh, I need to brush my teeth. I'll be right there." She told him.
He nodded and walked out of the bathroom, leaving her alone.
She lifted her shirt, revealing her flat belly and gently placed a hand on it.
"Listen, I'll be happy to carry you around for seven more months, but if you keep this up, I swear to God." She threatened.
She stood there for a while longer, turning this way and that to see if she could see any indication of pregnancy, however she saw none.
She had informed Captain Gates of her condition, but kept it from the rest of the precinct, she didn't feel like broadcasting that news just yet. She wanted to keep this to herself and Castle just a bit longer.
She stepped out of the room and pulled on a pair of jeans and shoes before meeting Castle in the living.
"Let's go meet our kid." She told him, walking past him to the door.
"This may be a bit cold okay?" Dr. Addison informed her, as she lay back on the examination table with her shirt pulled up, holding Castle's hand.
She jumped a bit as the cold fluid came in contact with her stomach, making Castle chuckle. She glared up at him, effectively silencing him.
The room suddenly was filled with the sound of a steady heartbeat. She turned her head to the screen the doctor was focusing on, running the machine over Kate's stomach.
"Is that the heartbeat?" She asked, tears forming in her eyes. She hated that she was so emotional lately, but for this, she accepted it.
"It is." The doctor confirmed, "It seems your baby is developing quite nicely and healthily." She pointed to the screen at a cluster of gray fuzz. "That's your child."
"Beautiful." Castle murmured, while Kate just stared in awe at the blob on the screen that indicated there was life growing inside of her, life that she and Castle created together.
"I assume you want pictures, so I'll print some for you." She said as she wiped the fluid off of Kate's stomach and fiddling with the machine. Soon, three pictures came out of the machine and the doctor handed them over to them.
Kate reached out slowly and took the pictures from the doctor. Castle leaned over to look at them with her. All of the images showed the same blob, but she couldn't help feel overwhelmed with love, she couldn't wait until the baby started growing bigger and would eventually come out to meet the world. Until then she and Castle would love this blob and nothing would ever change that.
End A/N: Sooooo? What you do think? Should I go on to chapter 2? Please tell me! Thanks! Peace!
Ashley
