This is just the prologue as the one shots are loosely connected through this theme.
Prologue
This whole thing? This whole being Alex's girlfriend thing? It is amazing, and scary, and wonderful, and thrilling all at once. It's slow and paced and gentle, but it's also fast and a lot like falling, falling, falling into the depths of emotions she's hidden for so long, a plunge into the great unknown. Because as much as she is the "experienced" one in the relationship, this is all quite new to her, too. There are different types of "experienced" she muses. Because while she is more experienced with dating, with being out and proud, with planning dinners and small romantic gestures, she is not very experienced with other things. She has never, at least not since she was a young girl, worn her heart on her sleeve as openly and with the same level of vulnerability as Alex does each and every day. She's seen the way Alex is with Kara. Open and loving and caring and just...unafraid of the consequences her heart may face. And while Maggie is used to scheduling dates and making arrangements for little things here and there, she has never been one to carve out boatloads of time. She has never learned how to manage her work life and her personal life in the same way Alex Danvers has. Alex who carves out time for game nights, sister nights, and, before she knows it, girlfriend nights.
It's a bit like having whiplash, Maggie surmises one night, still early in their relationship, restlessly tossing and turning in her own bed, already missing Alex cuddled into her side. Already missing a little post-it from Alex saying she went for an early morning run and didn't want to wake her. Or, even better, already missing Alex turning off her alarm and snuggling back into Maggie, not wanting the quiet morning to be over just yet. It's so different than all her other relationships, and Alex makes her want to do things, be things, that she barred herself from for so long. So, this whole being Alex's girlfriend thing? Yeah, it's a lot to get used to for Maggie.
It's a lot like falling. Or diving, she supposes, head first and without a helmet. Without backup. Without enough intel. All the things Maggie tells the rookie cops not to do. Still, she can't say she minds it. Well, at least not entirely. There are still things for them to work on, there always will be, she knows enough to say that. But, surprisingly, for the first time in her life, maybe change can be a good thing. Maybe it doesn't have to be precipitated by god-awful circumstances and feelings of needing to run, run, run until she gets the hell out of dodge. And maybe, just maybe, falling doesn't have to end in heartbreak.
Because she does have a helmet: she has coping strategies and communication strategies and a support system, too. And she does have backup: She knows Alex is here for her. She knows Kara and J'onn are here, too. Hell, even James and Winn would back her up. And she has intel: her heart and her gut, two things she's overlooked for far too long.
So, this whole being Alex's girlfriend thing? It's starting to make Maggie think there just may be room in her life for hope after all.
Thanks for reading! I hope it is a good start :) Let me know your thoughts!
