Title: Now and Forever

Author: LiLAqUaMaRiE

Disclaimer: Don't own any of the characters; they belong to DC Comics and to the WB.

Rating: PG-13 for now

Content: Drama, angst, romance, the works.

Pairing: Right now we have Pete/Clark and a possibly Clark/Lex, Chloe/Lana, and as well as a possibility of Pete/Clark/Lex.

Summary: What to do when you love two people instead of one?

Notes: Seeing as I rarely found fic, mostly slash on Pete I figured why not and give it a try with him.

Chapter 1

*Clark's POV*

I must seriously be out of my mind.

There's no doubt about it.

I, Clark Kent am in love.

Yeah in love alright, but not with one person but two. Oh god why me?

I just can't help it, I love them both. They both are very special to my heart and I can't bear to lose either one of them.

Funny thing is I can't be with either.

I bet you're wondering, who are those two people I'm in love with. Let me tell you.

First there's Lex Luthor. A man's man you might say. He's everything you could want. He's intelligent, sexy, powerful, and rich. But I really don't care about the money, I'm not in love with him because he's a Luthor, I'm in love with him because he's Lex.

As well I guess it's a bit of the bad boy I see in him. He's all mysterious but then again at the same time he isn't. He's like a forbidden fruit one I can watch but not touch. Which I must say, is very hard to do.

Oh and when he gives me those wide toothy smiles, just for me, I want to melt into a puddle right there. Seriously.

Sometimes though, I believe he wants me as I want him. But since I'm a minor and well my parents won't approve of him (mostly my dad) he won't do anything about it. He just treats me like what I am, his best friend.

Now onto the second love of my life.

This though I must say surprised me more. I mean, I never thought I'd fall for my childhood friend Pete Ross. Yes you heard me right, I said Pete.

Why do I love him? That's the thing, how can you *not* love him. He's a sweet heart, a great friend. He's sexy as well. Not like Lex, but different. He looks like a chocolate candy bar you just want to eat. And I trust him with my life as he trusts his with mine.

Though, he only sees me as his best friend, like Lex. God, this is getting so frustrating. I wish I could shoot myself silly, but it won't work. The bullet won't even hurt me, much less kill me.

I need advice I sure do. I don't know what to do...I'm completely confused.

I can't go to my parents. Hell I think I'd kill my dad with a heart attack if he found out one I'm gay, two I love two men, and three one of the two men is a Luthor. Gee won't that be just plain old fun.

And I sure can't go to Pete or Lex about this. That only leaves me two other people, Lana and Chloe. God, I'm so screwed.

Maybe if I ignore what I feel I can forget my feelings for them. Nah, that wont work. Um... damn. Why me?

Why me?

Besides Pete hates the Luthors and I don't think Lex is fond of Pete, especially with that past incident with Pete trying to shoot him. I know he knows Pete wasn't in his right state of mind when he was doing that but still. It's not something that wants to make a man jump for joy either.

God, sometimes I wish I had mind control or something. I mean yeah I got x-ray vision, heat vision, amazing strength and speed. But no, I couldn't get powers to control the mind.

Sometimes I wonder maybe I do, that I just got to concentrate on it, but I doubt I really do anyway. But then if I did try to see, I'm scared that if I lock my eyes and mind on either Lex or Pete I either hurt them or blow them up into a human fire ball or something worse. My heat vision isn't reliable as of yet.

God, I must sound like a complete nutcase. I really must.

"-rk..."

God I'm hearing stuff now...Wait ago Clark...go officially insane now.

"...-ark..."

Sighs, I'm pathetic!

"CLARK?!"

I jump in surprise causing myself to fall off my bed. "Huh? What?" I say as I look up startled from my bedroom floor. "Pete? Pete is that you?"

I notice Pete rolling his eyes, "No Clark, I'm an alien from another plant that looks just like your best friend. What do you think?!"

I blink and before I respond he continues to talk. "Come on Clark, get up already. We have to go... now!"

I just stay there on the floor and watch him mumble on and on about stuff, not really listening to him. He sounds so adorable though. And his lips, damn those lips, I wish to touch those lips...just once....

"CLARK!"

I blink and look at him startled again for the second time in a row. "What?"

"Are you planning on ever getting up from the floor or are you gonna stay there and keep on starring at me all night?!"

Shit! He notices me starring, "Um...I..." I cross my arms across my chest and try to talk my way out of this. "I ...um I wasn't starring at you.... I was looking...um....at the wall.....yeah that's right... at the wall behind you. Uh-huh. Yup. That's it."

"Sure ya did Clark, and I'm a monkey's uncle."

I swallow.

Dammit he didn't buy what I said.

I watch him sigh softly and he sits down on my bed and stares at me now.

It seems like eternity. With him staring at me, I'm barely able to keep eye to eye with him, making me have to look away.

What could he be thinking? God just take me now... take me now... I can't bear this anymore.

"Take me now...dammit!" I say out loud before noticing that I did. And when I notice Pete eyes widen a bit at me.

I swallow again...slowly.

Shit.

You know, my parents always told me to be careful of telling people my true identity, of my powers. That there could be people out in the world, that aren't good and want to hurt me, destroy me.

I think they're wrong. The one destroying me is me.

What can Pete be thinking now?

I'm so fucked up.

"Clark." I hear Pete soft voice bring me out of my thoughts. I don't make a sound, just look at him. So he continues, "What's going on?"

I blink and look away. "Nothing... Really...."

"Clark." His voice is soft but at the same time firm.

"I...ah..."

"Don't lie to me, though you can't lie even if you tried."

Once again, this is one of the moments I wish I had mind controlling powers. Seriously where are they when ya need it?

I start to play with my shoelaces as I speak. "It's nothing important....you wouldn't want to hear it anyway....so why bot-"

"Clark?"

"Yeah?" I squeak out in a small voice.

"Tell me."

"No."

"No?"

"Pretty please no."

"Not even if you put a cherry on top. So tell me." His voice is still soft and firm.

Oh god, I wish I can curl up and cry. I hate this. I'm starting to panic now... Hell I think I'm about to cry cause I'm so freaked out. "I...I can't  ...can't tell you." I say in a small voice again.

His eyes soften a bit towards me, and he ask, "And why not?"

"'Cause...because I can't."

Something in his eyes seems to die out a bit. And his eyes loose a bit of their softness in them and he blinks away and gets up. "Fine Clark. I see you don't trust me enough to tell me what's bothering you. So forget about today I'll just leave." He starts to head toward the door.

I can't believe what's happening. I really can't. Fate is against me. It SO is.

I stand up and grab his arm as fast as I could. He was almost out of the door. I pull him in gently and close the door to my room. He stares at me again, like he's expecting me to say something. I sigh and close my own eyes gathering enough courage to tell him and then reopen them. "I'm sorry Pete." I say to him with my sad puppy look.

He smiles a bit, and waves his hand as if pushing everything aside. "It's ok."

I shake my head at him, "No...No you're right I should trust you. I'm sorry. It's just..." God why is this so hard.

"Clark...if you really don't want to tell-" I cut him off by grabbing him and kissing him on the lips. I push softly against his lips and stay like that and I can feel him tense up in my arms. Though after what seems like an hour or so he starts to relax and I take that as a good sign and push a bit more, making him opens his mouth a bit. Slowly I slide my tongue in. Gaining him to moan into the kiss and then....

He pushes himself away from me.

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It just takes a little bit of this

A little bit of that

It started with a kiss

Now we're up to bat

A little bit of laughs

A little bit of pain

I'm telling you, my babe

It's all in the game of love

- 'Game of Love' Michelle Branch

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