I sit alone in the depths of my knowing when or how to get out.I searched for an exit but came up with none.I start losing track of time.I never know if it was hours or months or years I was in that dark wasn't always like I was a working teen with a Boyfriend,great family,and a great something inside of me snaped.I left work early and began to steal from a family big or great priced things but small things that could be lighters,cat books,knives,and did i think it would end me where i was awhile i got bored with the stealing it didn't give me the great rush that i felt and seeked for."No more stealing," i told myself,"i need something new and big!".Now i was getting more sexual with spirit he didn't mind i guess but that wasn't enough.I began drugs and to think it would end like that wasnt enough for the thrill wasn't night while i walk along the store in screech of booz or cigs,a man not yet 30 was standing in front of me talking on the phone.I guess something broke inside me because i grabbed him and put the end of my blade to his didn't move he was still very looked almost calm but what was he kidding inside i felt his heart beating a fast drum knew what was going to happen before i the flick of my wrist his held it trying to hold it rushing from him figures tips,he made the worst noise my ears could hear before he dropped to the looked dead cold i kicked him he was hard as wasnt easy for him nor was it planned.I guess that's why i'm see Death didn't like that he planned everyone's death but not his.I was not the one to put him i knew that then maybe i wouldn't be here.I wouldn't be stuck to think,and go mad to my happened to me?
I sit there everyday waiting and waiting for my madness to will it ever?Will I ever get out of this hell?HA-Im going mad,just asking myself this wont get me out.I look up to see darkness always dark here.I stand up and walk my surprise it brightened up."I know this place,"I paused to look around,"this is my was foggy and hard to make out the outline of the large home.I walk slowly into the floor creeked under my home wasn't the same the wall's we're cracked and the furniture was thrown all over the place."what happened to this place?"I asked myself out loud.A small voice came from behind me."Spirit did this after you left." I turned quick to find a little boy not yet 5 looking up at me."wha-who are you?" I asked looked down and walked passed me.I followed him with my walked over to a desk that had been turned to it's side."wha-what are you doing?"I asked tripping over my own didn't respond he just continued to look for something.I waited for him to come back over but couldn't wait any longer.I walk over to was holding a broken picture frame.I bent down to take a closer was me and began to build up at the end of my eyes."What happened to me?"I little boy looked up at me and smiled."The madness took over you."
