It had been five days since I've escaped, and that is the first time I've lain down for sleep not full of rage.
Up until earlier that day, anything and everything was a target. I was exactly what I had been made to be: a relentless engine of destruction.
But that day, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. Whether it was because I had exhausted myself or I had grown softer, I don't know. But I couldn't bring myself to harm another being.
In my newfound peace, I could not help but examine the environment that my wild, blind fury had thrust me in to.
How beautiful it was! The sounds, the smells… Looking back, I can't believe that there's a rage so powerful that it could mute all of this wonder!
I had began exploring this new place. It was very… … green and organic. Nothing at all like the cold steel buildings where I had formerly been forced to remain. I took a deep breath and a particular smell filled my lungs. It was so new and fresh; I could not help but investigate.
I followed the smell to a large, hard, tall object. It was cylindrical, and had branches coming out of it; the entire thing was a covered in short, green spikes. It seemed… perfectly in place. Natural.
Out of the corner of my eyes, I occasionally had seen other creatures. They were nothing like the humans from that metal prison; these were small and brightly colored. I knew I wasn't human and neither were they, so I guessed that we were the same.
When I tried to approach them, though, they would run. It was disheartening, but I was hardly surprised; After all of the horrible things I had done in the past four days, they had little reason to trust me.
The more I explored this place, though, the more I longed for company of some kind. Being alone made me feel unique… but in a terrible way. Like I was the last of my kind, or like I was doomed to be alone because of what I am. Shudders ran up and down my spine and I turned around over and over trying to find someone or something other than those tall, hard things that stuck up out of the ground everywhere and pierced the sky.
None of those other beings would remain in sight long enough for me to get to them, and for hours I tried to find one that would at least talk to me. I tried until the sun sank below the horizon and even into the night. Nothing. No one at all.
No one would even talk to me.
