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Chapter 1
Jane's P.O.V
It was during the Rat woman case that I found out. At the time Maura was the only one who knew. She accidentally found out. He didn't. I wish I had told him sooner. He wouldn't have left and ended up dead because of me. Maura says it's not my fault, but in my heart I feel it is. Gabriel Dean is dead because of me. Of my inability to suck up the courage to tell him.
Four months ago, last week he died. I should be over this by now. But I won't ever be over it. I miss him. Nobody knows what really happened between us but Maura. She kind of has to know, for her to know my secret she has to know what happened.
It was during Christmas and we were gathered at Ma's House. Mikey and Frankie were here. I had gone upstairs to call Gabriel and tell him.
Flashback
"This is Gabriel. I'm not available at the moment. Please leave me a message and I will get back to you as soon as I can."
I waited for the beep and took a breath.
"Hi, it's Jane," I began, "I have something important to tell you. I screwed up. It would be better to tell you this in person. Can you meet me at my apartment tomorrow around 7 p.m? See you then. Bye"
As I hung up I felt a little freer. I still had the daunting task of telling Gabriel. That would be the hard part.
But, I never got a chance to tell him.
Flashback
Rizzoli, in my office now." Cavanaugh yells across the bullpen in my direction.
When I get in his office Cavanaugh tells me to sit down.
"You were close to Gabriel Dean right?"
"Yes"
"I hate to be the bearer of bad news but he was hit by a drunk driver this morning. He didn't make it. I'm sorry."
As I heard that my life as I knew it and what I had planned came crashing down around me. It broke into a million unfixable pieces.
I had started to cry without realizing it, or at this point caring if my boss saw me like this. I was tired and the carefully placed walls had crumbled with the bad news I received. My boss tried to comfort me the best he could. When I stopped crying I said.
"Cavanaugh, I'm going to need some time off."
"Take all the time you need."
"More time than what I take right now. I'm going to need maternity leave."
"You know that's for people having babies right?"
"Yeah, I'm going to be one of the people taking it. In about 6 months I'm going to be a mother. I'm pregnant. That's the only reason I was crying over Gabriel's death. He would have been a father…" I started but couldn't get any more words out of my mouth before I started crying again.
"Damn hormones." I thought before everything went black.
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Sometimes inspirational quote that i will add at the bottom this chapter. Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. Then worms eat you. Be grateful it happens in that order. -David Gerrold
