Disclaimer – I asked Yuuko if I could own Tsubasa but she said that it was out of my price range so CLAMP still owns em I then asked her if I could own XXXHOLiC and she glared at me so I don't own them either cries in a corner (but Fai is still my dress up doll grins evilly )
A/N – there will be more of these songficts the story is called Playlist for a reason I'll update when I have time and a measure of inspiration I warn you your going to get some weird ones in here as I have a range of varied tastes
Break me Shake me
The battle was over before it really began the demon defeated with a flash and the now rapidly cooling carcass kicked unceremoniously off the side of the ridge it had fallen precariously on. Kurogane turned around seething in anger his red eyes flashing with it and other not so identifiable emotions.
"How can you be so idiotic mage?" Kurogane hurled at Fai
"I'm sorry I wasn't thinking of where I was going." Replied Fai softly as he struggled to put his façade back on.
I never thought I'd change my opinion again
But you moved me in a way that I've never known
You moved me in a way that I've never known
This world, Fai mused privately was very much like his home world full if ice and snow year round and as of late even after Celes was gone it inevitably led back to thinking of Ashura-ou. While he was caught up reminiscing he had strayed off the path the travelers were hiking up tumbled down the hill and almost landed on the demon that under normal circumstances would not have given Fai pause. Kurogane glowered at him and said
"That's not like you mage to be so clumsy"
Fai raised his eyebrow his amber eye catching the light and said back blithely
"Kuro-pon always notices the most unusual things about me."
But straight away you just moved into position again
You abused me in a way that I've never known
You abused me in a way that I've never known
Kurogane guided them back to the rough camp that Sayoran and Sakura had set up as best they could and Sakura had started to make something to eat. Very little was said between the ninja and the mage cum vampire and it uncannily reminded Kurogane of their time spend in various worlds after that blasted Tokyo. Kurogane also wondered for the thousandth time since they had arrived and more recently left Nihon if the mage had truly forgiven him. He unconsciously grabbed his left shoulder feeling though the fabric where tissue met and merged with the advanced metals and cords of the arm from another world.
So break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Just break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Fai sighed again remembering the past how could he not in a world such as this he also briefly mourned the loss of his big fluffy overcoat that has survived so much like he had to have lost it with the ninja's sword in a world that now no longer exists. He missed his home world fiercely and also realized that his wish now was granted he couldn't return to his world at all no matter the cost. 'Well that's one way to grant a wish I suppose' Fai thought with a wry smile trying to break though the mask he had. He noticed the weight of eyes staring at him he looked up at Kurogane who made no move to cast his eyes downward almost as if he wasted to be caught staring.
"Can I help you Kuro-rin?" Fai asked his face molding to form a smile to hide his sorrow and thoughts behind
"You're lying again through your face but your eye shows how you really feel so why not do us all a favor and drop the act." Kurogane pitched his voice low so as to not disturb the children whom as Fai belatedly noticed had already curled up beside each other to sleep
So you're the kind that deals with the games in the mind
Well you confuse me in a way that I've never known
You confuse me in a way that I've never known
"So are you going to drop the act mage or is this conversation pointless?"
"Really Kuro-pin you do notice the most inconvenient things." Countered Fai
"We've gone over this before your eye speaks volumes your body speaks volumes but when you open your mouth nothing but lies."
"How are you so sure nothing but lies comes out?"
Kurogane leveled a glare that most would have quailed under but Fai sat there looking calmly back his face belying no external emotion.
"Name one honest thing you've said since we started on this journey."
Fai cracked a teasing sly smile that immediately sent shivers up Kurogane's spine
"I never lied when I called you a big puppy"
If the term sweat dropped could be applied to real life Kurogane would have.
So break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
So won't you break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Kurogane had long since given up all pretext of trying to sleep as he mulled things over in his mind over Fai and his actions since they arrived in this bloody world. As he stared into the fire he let his eyes drift over the sleeping figures that surrounded their rude encampment. He noted that the Sayoran that was with them now was starting to get protective over Sakura and was shielding her from the cold as best he could with Mokona huddling in between them trying to add its meager warmth to the sleeping bundle. Then he glided his eyes over to the mage who was obviously not sleeping resting on his back his eye patch eye facing him so he couldn't tell what the mage was thinking. He looked up at the unfamiliar night sky and wondered about things unsaid between him and Fai.
HE says, "I can help you, but what do you say?"
'Cause it's not free baby, you'll have to pay
You just keep me contemplating, that your soul is slowly fading
Fai listened to the sound of the fire and Kurogane's steady breathing as he was lost in his own thoughts. Fai didn't want to remember Celes nor did he want to remember Ashura-ou but some thoughts wouldn't give him peace of mind. Especially after confronting Ashura and he especially didn't want to remember what Tomoyo-hime said in Nihon after they came to it "He saw what was to come and he searched endlessly for a path though which you could be feasibly saved even as he himself broke down." This made him cringe and want to weep for the sake of what was lost.
God, don't you know that I live with a ton of regret?
'Cause I used to move you in a way that you've never known
But then I accused you in a way that you've never known
But you've hurt me in a way that I've never known...
Fai wanted to tell Kurogane that Ashura-ou wasn't as bad as everyone thought he was. He was a capable and kind king who persevered for his subjects it was him a twin of misfortune that caused the problems. He hears his "inner Kurogane" as he dubbed it the cold voice of logic and hope tell him that he played no part in the fact that the king was cruel as he was kind and had planned far far in advance form him to come to Celes and eventually kill him despite the loving gestures the kindness to the child wizard after the open brutality he faced as a child in Valeria. Ashura-ou was a kind person who showed me love Fai wants to scream back to the inner voice which just laughs sarcastically back at him and replies 'If that was love then I'd fear for my heath rather then the occasional hug'. Fai wants to scream obscenities at the voice to tell it to shut up and go away but it's as much a part of him now as the eye patch he now wears over an empty socket or the metal arm that Kurogane now has after his sacrifice to keep Fai alive.
Break me shake me hate me take me over Listen, baby You'll be, you'll be alone
When the madness stops then you will be alone
So won't you break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
The moons of this world had long since gone down and the sky was beginning to lighten when the vampire finally slipped into sleep moving into his usual and more comfortable position on his stomach cradling his head on his arms. When that happened Kurogane slipped his cloak off and silently walked over to where the vampire slept and almost gently wrapped it around the lithe figure on the ground then he knelt down and whispered something in Fai's ear uncaring if the mage was awake or asleep at the moment then suddenly stood up to get more wood for the fire and see about getting something fresh to eat.
Break me shake me hate me take me make me
Fake me break me shake me hate me take me
Break me
"I know your in pain mage you can hide it form them but not me when your ready I'll be waiting"
A broken yet genuine smile appeared briefly on Fai's face as he snuggled into Kuroganes' cloak then sent out a silent 'Thanks' to the retreating ninjas back as he drifted of into a dreamless sleep.
Lyrics – Break me Shake me by Savage Garden (the he was a she but I figured that it most referenced Ashura-ou so I changed to suit the premise of the story)
