Hi guys, so I told you I was going to write another story. Well, this truly is something different. Let me know what you think of it, please let me know what you think and if you think I should continue... This takes place after the last episode of HH... I just had this idea in my head and I needed to get it out... Anyways, Enjoy..!
Dear Diary,
The last few days have been so exciting! I have gotten back from New York and me and Eddie have been incredibly busy. But I don't mind, as long as I'm with Eddie. I want to spent every single minute of every day with him, I never want to loose him again. However, I'm pretty confident he doesn't want to loose me either, he keeps telling me how happy he is that I'm in his life.
I remember how stupid I felt after I had told Eddie I loved him for the first time.
"Back at cha." He had simply responded, I felt like the dumbest piece of person that had ever had the misfortune of being in this world.
That phrase had turned into an inside joke. God I love him, everything about him is simply perfect.
My career is taking off and my concert in NY went great. I'm still all pumped up even though it was about a week ago. Kelly has been over the moon ever since we got back from NY. I'm actually a little suspicious about Kelly, I mean, I get that she's excited about my career, so am I, but I just get the feeling that she has been more cheerful ever since Jake and Traci got divorced. Is that wrong to think? I have no idea why I feel that way, however I just know that Eddie loved Traci and I feel sorry for Jake. He's having a rough time dealing with all of this. Although no one has the right to judge him for that.
I, myself hope to never get a divorce. And of course the chances of living a happy life with a loving husband are very slim, I am convinced that my luck has turned. Before, I was sure that nothing was going my way. I was stuck in thinking about how things could have been. While now, I don't care about what could have been. I care about what's going to come, my life with Eddie. I guess it's no surprise that I picture him in my happy married fairy-tale future, I can see us being together forever. But there's always this person inside of my head, telling me that he's going to leave me. Although the voice is now more like a careless whisper as it used to be a loud shouting voice.
My mom and Max are also busy with moving Max into our little Valley-house. I recall being pretty surprised when my mom told me that Max was going to move in with us.
'With us...' I have to admit, I'm not one hundred percent sure if I'm still living at home. I spend most of my nights at Eddie's place. -Or Eddie's palace- And that place already feels like a second home. Eddie keeps on telling me that I should just move in and that I've been practically living at his place for quite some time.
I want to move in with Eddie, I'm just not sure why he wants me to. Maybe he really wants me around but maybe there's some other reason... One I don't know of.
Plus, if I move in with Eddie I wouldn't get any homework done, that's for sure. I can't keep my hands off that boy. Kelly has suggested that I'd just drop out and forget about high school and collage all together various times, the weird thing is that I'm actually considering it. Would that be wrong? To just forget about everything I have worked all these years for, it does sound appealing to have more time for music. Oh who am I kidding? It sounds appealing to have more time for Eddie. When did I become a love drunk teen?
I've changed a lot in these last few weeks, other that just becoming a love drunk teen and changing my style. Although I have allowed Kelly to made a few more changes about my appearance, I didn't want her to change too much. For example, she thought it was a good idea to get some tattoos on my arms and one on my lower back to 'edge things up', as she called it. She had also suggested dying my hair, I never wanted to do that. Not because I don't like the way it looks. For example, I'd love to be a blonde for one day. But dying your hair is just something so permanent.
Eddie wants me to run every change Kelly wants to make by him first. He told me that he doesn't want me to make any mistakes, while mistakes are a part of life.. Aren't they? However, it is sweet how he wants to protect me.
I won't judge Eddie, he's everything I ever dreamed of, everything I ever wanted and much more.
I have to go now, I'm meeting Mel in a few. Mel is crazy as always. She and Lisa have gotten better somehow, I have no idea when and how it happened. Maybe with Adriana being pregnant Lisa sees that things could be worse. Whatever the case is, it's not really my business. Mel will tell me if she thinks it is.
Love,
Loren.
Sooo? What do you guys thing? Do you love it, do you hate it? Tell me please! And I need an idea how to get Eddie's point of view in this, or should I only get Loren's? Well... Please review!
