A/N : Sorry Hayato for this late present! I couldn't just think up of anything until I read a 8059 fanfic about Gokudera being sick and I just thought up of something. This is super damn short I know, but if this wasn't short I would have crapped everything up. OOOH yes, Gokudera P.O.V. Not so angsty and it ends happily. YAAY.
I don't need you anymore. Baka.
At first, I thought you were what I need, despite the fact that I have always called you a baka. I was in love with you. I gave you my everything, my first time, my love, my time. And my trust…. And I was only merely 15.
But what I received, was betrayal. Your poker face, your carefree laugh made me trust you, told me to have faith in you, but I was wrong. Indeed very wrong.
You told me you won't cheat on me forever, and you told me you wouldn't care what others think.
And yet, I saw you hand in hand with that Year 2 girl, whispering sweetly, laughing happily. I heard your words, I heard what you said.
"That Gokudera is just a stupid toy. Of course I wouldn't fall gay for that cocky idiot, wouldn't I, Yuki?"
I never meant to be eavesdropping. I thought I could give you a surprise hug, tell you that I have changed because of you, to whisper sweet things to each other….
But you ruined me.
I rushed home as quick as I could. I have vowed to stop crying when I was 8. But you made me break my vow as well. Tears flowed down and it was all because of you.
Baka.
My immune system, had gone down just like my mood. All those times, I was thinking of slitting my wrists, swallowing a whole bottle of sleeping pills, inject air into my veins. But none of these will work. I just ended up yelling, searching for bandages, Shamal not lending any injection needles, and I ended up having a horrible stomach ache in the hospital, and you didn't even bother to see me. Then I had some horrible cold, and no one cared about me. I thought I was going to die from this flu, leaving this world, forgetting everything, but I couldn't.
At this moment, a pair of caramel eyes, have changed my life once again.
Jyuudaime.
When I was at the bottom of hell, Tenth, you dragged me out.
Every single day, after school, he would rush to my home and visit me, taking care of me. Tenth would help me do my housework, cook my dinner, talk to me, comfort me. Each day, he would give me support, sweet whispers.
As I gradually get better, he hung his hand around my neck and told me words that I have heard many times before, yet with another meaning. The words, "Ti amore." I love you.
The Tsuna, Sawada Tsunayoshi, whom I loved, whom I trusted did not betray me like you did. He brought me to life, woke me up. He ventured deep down my core, which have became so numb and sooothed it.
"Hi mom, this is my one of my best friend, Gokudera-kun."
Best friend.
"GOKUDERA-KUN! COME BACK! I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU…. YOU PROMISED ME YOU WILL FOLLOW ME TILL THE DEATH OF YOUR LIFE, AND YOU PROMISED ME TO WATCH THE FIREWORKS TOGETHER WITH ME!"
My promise.
"Gokudera-kun, I will be here for you. I don't want to see you sad, I want to see you happy, cheerful. The old one, who would follow me no matter what."
The old me.
All these had awoken me, and I held Tenth's head close and told him this.
"Jyuudaime, I promise once again to you, I will never leave you. Thank you Jyuudaime, my Jyuudaime… I love you."
And now it proved that what I need was not you, Yamamoto Takeshi.
It is Sawada Tsunayoshi.
My precious, pure Jyuudaime, my Decimo, my Tenth, my Tsuna-Tuna.
