Unbeautiful

Disclaimer; I don't own the lyrics or the music, only Lesley Roy does, I won the story and then on. This might end up being a story if people actually review it.

I walked toward him, nervous about what could happen; him giving me a hateful look, pushing me away or even telling me to get away at all. I was nervous, I was scared to get near him again, afraid that the memories were too much to bear and I would just break down and cry.

Don't hang up

Can we talk?

My dress was long and silky, jet black and feathered at the top. I had my hair down as usual but inside me I felt ugly, ugly like I had a giant mask of the most hideous thing on the planet of the earth attached to my face permanently. I jerked my head to the left and to the right, to see if anybody was looking at me. I bit my lip when I caught Mike Newton looking at me then quickly turning away. Angela was blushing with Ben at her arm and Lauren was sitting alone, sighing every few seconds.

The guest band Kisses of a Dreamer was singing a soft rock song, Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy.

I fell into deep memories when I caught Edward's gaze into my eyes.

"I love you Bella Swan," He kissed my hand softly and I felt his teeth slightly graze against my ring fingers as my heart skipped and fluttered around many beets.

xXx

Then, I saw him and his eyes were a deep black, narrowing at me. I bit my lip hard enough almost that I felt blood but I knew what could possibly happen and what could be true.

Small tears formed in my head but didn't fall. I felt my legs almost give out but I kept my balance as well as I could. I felt my breathing deepen and my face got hotter and hotter.

xXx

My hands shook as he took me into his cold, icy arms and kissed me, making me swoon.

xXx

He circled around her and she avoided him, they were almost dancing but their eyes were fierce, ready to kill. I felt my stomach churn when I heard Seth crack something and I knew it wasn't a tree. If I had lost Edward, I didn't know If I could do it again, the pain, the hole eating away at my heart. But…

xXx

My head was spinning from the massive explosion of memories that flooded my pounding head, I was breathing like I had just come out from an ocean after a century, my legs gave out, my tears were falling onto the hands covering my face, my own.

Everything passed by like a gun shot, colors like fireworks, sounds like a bomb going off every tow seconds, touches like begin taken away, pain like multiple shots at the head and chest; all right into my heart.

I felt voices ask me what was wrong but I sat there. I opened my eyes to the darkness of my gloves and I felt lost, lost and alone, mesmerized my jumping colors.

So confused

It's like I'm lost

What went wrong?

What made you go?

He had become someone else when he came back to me in just three days. His popularity jumped at him like a predator at its prey and he took it in like a sponge. Every Friday night I would get a call from him saying that he was busy or he couldn't make it.

And during the depths of night, I would wait for him to knock at my window, tap lightly. Sometimes I thought the coo of an owl would confuse me and the only thing I ever got from it was the moon light shining on my tear stained eyes, fading to close every other minute but I would still wait.

He made my life complicated.

He made my pain larger, with a hole engraved right into my chest, permanently marked and scarred.

He took my heart and then gave it back in pieces, like gentle glass and a shattered mirror.

He made me love him and then he stopped.

He loved me but it was fake and masked in front of a face of a heart breaker.

My heart was aching more than ever.

Don't pretend

You don't know

This is me

I'm unchangeable

When did we…

Fall apart?

Or did you lie

From that start?

When you said

It's only you

He broke up with me officially a week from the prom but I didn't take it from then. It took slow progress but it struck me like lightning. I knew we were over before it began.

I was blind

Such a fool

Thinking we

Were unbreakable

All the words were for nothing, all the smiles and laughs and enrichment of love for nothing but heartbreaks and me gaining 10 pounds from eating everything I could get my hands on. I thought that we were meant to be and everything I wanted was in him, was and always will be in my heart as a scar left unhealed.

We faced the world; vampires, destiny against our love, fate, rumors, wolves, fantasy becoming reality.

It was

You and me

Against the world

And you promised me forever more

I was blaming myself for it and the consequences, the pain, tears of sorrow; empty fridge, endless suffering and he didn't even care.

Was it something

That I said?

Was it something

That I did?

I interrogated myself on what went wrong, what went out of place, what did I do wrong? Was I not enough from him or was I too much to bare, was I not perfect enough, was I nothing to him anymore, which thing did I do, what went wrong for eternity?

I had to know…

Cuz I gotta know

What made me

Unbeautiful

I was falling into a deep pain for eternity. Consciousness was falling from my fingertips and I slipped away from my unhappy ending.

A/N Note;

I didn't use the whole song, it will be next if people review. R&R!!