"At least I now know, that it could never work out my lord." Elena told me looking at me with tears in her beautiful brown eyes. She glanced down and shook her head laughing. My heart froze in my chest. She was not doing this. My heart was in my stomach. Tears threatened to enter my eyes, I felt the burning lump form in my throat.
"My Elena, you know to call me Damon, not my lord" I tried to tell her again, bringing my hand up to her face and brushing my thumb across her cheek, only to have her hand come up to take it off and put it back at my side, and her voice cut me off when she shook her head and sighed.
"No, my lord. Do not try to tell me once again. I cannot be with you sir. Your father and you, have made that abundantly clear. I will continue working for your family, but I will not be yours from this moment on." She shook her head, her chocolate locks shaking behind her. She turned to go but I grabbed her arm, stopping her.
"Why is it, Elena, that you will not have me?" I already had some of an idea in my mind but I had to hear her say it. She shook her head and gently tore her arm from my hand. The flesh on my hand felt cold, without her touch.
"My lord, you will not nor ever will stand up to your Father- I-I mean His Majesty about our relationship. Whatever it was, that I was to you obviously was not enough to stand up to your father about this. So what was the point of this farce of a relationship? If it was never as real to you as it was to me. I will not be toyed around again, just to be discarded when His Majesty tells you, that you must marry my lord. I will not have my heart torn out when that happens. So to stop it preemptively will… Hurt me less in the future. Now" She shook her head, blinking the tears out of her eyes, before looking down and curtsying low before me. "Goodbye my lord." She turned and left and this time I let her. Staring at the spot she left with hurt in my eyes and a terrible pain in my chest. I had a feeling that was going to happen after what had transpired in the dining room earlier today.
We were currently on a private boat crossing the ocean to England, from our Kingdom of Mystic Falls. King Klaus had invited us over to have a ball celebrating his future wife, Caroline. I had no idea whom she was, only that my father said we had to go. In the dining room today, Elena had been the one to bring in the wine. She had walked in gracefully as usual, but she had brought my mother's favorite wine, instead of my fathers. Father had freaked out at her, calling her a stupid whore. I had felt anger, don't get me wrong. But not enough to risk my crown. Elena had looked to me for help, when father had continued insulting her, her eyes pleading with me, but I had ignored her, let my father continue to insult the girl that I loved. Though I hadn't realized that at the time, only when she walked out my door. She looked at me with tears nearly falling out of her eyes, and a look of pure hurt in them, her bottom lip trembling, before shaking her head, and walking out of the room as fast as she could. Then later when she normally comes to my room to meet with me to walk the deck, she did not show up. When she normally comes to clean my room, she sent another in her place. Only when I asked Ms. Hoyel to send her up to my room, did I see her.
I felt my heart pang in my chest as I walked over to the hidden stash of liquor in the chest at the end of my bed, opened it, picked up a bottle, and foregoing the glass put it to my lips and taking a large swig from it. I continued like this for the next few hours and then, being the idiot that I was, left my room, and ran straight into a brunette named Harly, or Hayley, or something and blacked out after her seductive smile.
I woke when I heard the door to my room open up and someone walk in. I heard a familiar sounding gasp and sat straight up in bed. I saw my Elena standing there, a bucket and cloth in hand, staring at the other side of the bed with hurt in her eyes. I was so happy to see her again, that I got up and almost ran to her, but when I looked to where she was looking, I saw why she was looking so hurt. There on the side of my bed where she used to reside beside me, was another brunette, hair spread out over the pillow, which had previously been reserved for her. I was left standing there in nothing but the sheet covering myself, she curtsied before me and looked down and the ground hurt still in her eyes.
"So sorry my lord, Ms. Hoyel told me to come wash your floors, I thought you would be out by now. I will leave you and you're…" She looked from me to the brunette, hurt evident, though she tried her best to hide it. "Friend, to whatever…" another pause, and I saw her take a breath, trying to calm herself, "you two were doing. Goodbye my lord." She went to turn, and leave my room, but I called her name before she could. She turned around, her doe eyes already glazing with tears.
"It's not what you think Elen-" I was cut off by the groan of the brunette and her sitting up in bed, clutching the sheet to her chest, which was very naked under the sheet, and there on her shoulder was something that I didn't want Elena to see. It was a big blue and black, love bite. The proof of what I was trying to convince her did not happen, had indeed happened. "Elena, it's not what it looks like." I pleaded with her, but she just smiled a simple smile, I could tell it was fake, she had no emotions in her eyes.
"It's none of my business my lord." She told me, starting to turn away.
"It is all of your business my Elena." I whispered softly and she only paused for a singular moment before proceeding and walking out the door. I sat back down on my bed and put my pounding head in my hands, shaking it back and forth. I had just hurt the women I loved, maybe beyond repair. We arrived in London this evening and I intend to talk to my father before then, about Elena, about maybe making her Mine, in front of god, maybe making her my soon to be Queen. I felt a hand on my shoulder, before I could smack it off I heard a small voice.
"I understand, my lord. I hope I did not ruin your relationship further. I am truly sorry. I will go now." Hayley, I think her name was, got up and put her dress back on, before going to the door, but before closing it behind her, she turned around, smiled at me and said "Find her and tell her how you feel. There is no use living if you cannot love." Then she walked out the door, shutting it behind her.
That evening the boat docked, and the staff were all lined up on the dock waiting for us. I walked down the line, everybody bowing or curtsying before me. I got to Hayley and shot the girl a smile, she really was a kind girl. When I got further down the line, I saw Elena curtsy and stare at the ground, not even looking at me and stopped walking, I almost walked over to her, but my father had plowed into my back.
"Go, we have people waiting for us." He hissed in my ear, and I had no choice before walking forward. I finished walking down, and was stood in front of King Klaus, and soon to be Queen Caroline. They welcomed us and my father dismissed our staff before going forward to our waiting carriage. As we rode away I saw Elena, carrying her small bag of belongings, lift up her dress slightly off the ground before walking away, towards the large cart that would be carrying our staff to the quarters that they were staying at. I sighed and promised myself and mentally promised Elena that I would go see her that night.
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Later that night, after dinner, King Klaus came up to me and put his hand on my shoulder, and sighed.
"Where is this girl, the one that has you all twisted in the heart? And why is she not at your side mate?" He asked me and my brows crinkled in confusion. How the hell could he know that somebody had caught my heart?
"What do you mean sir?" I asked him, my heart rate elevating slightly. Klaus let out a roar of laughter and shook his head at me. I was still very confused
"Please, call me Klaus. I was in the carriage with you mate. I saw how you gazed out that window, at the bird with long brown hair and brown eyes. Also at supper, every time anyone would walk through the entry way, you would look up with a hopeful face, only to then look down at your food again. I know this, I had that feeling with my dear Caroline, and look, I caught and caged that bird. Why do you not have the object of your love?" He asked again.
"She is a maid, it could never be, my father would never allow it." I told him shaking my head and looking down. I heard footsteps and looked up only to see Lady Caroline, looking at me with an amused face.
"That never stopped Nik. I was just a lowly maid, and he still got me. His father, he understood, he had once felt that servants were below them, but after he saw the love in Nik's eyes, how happy I had made him, he changed his mind. It is unfortunate that he cannot be here for the wedding though, bless his soul and may he rest in peace. Now, go and get your girl, before she gets snapped up by someone else." Lady Caroline told me before grabbing Klaus' hand and pulling him towards the gardens, "Walk with me my soon to be husband." She smiled at me before they departed, both with love in their gaze towards each other. I hoped me and my darling Elena would be like that someday.
I smiled to myself at the picture in my head before running out the front door to where the servants quarters were and throwing the door open. A young man with dark skin, Harrison, I think, was standing startled at the loud noise, before seeing who it was, bowing before me. I pulled the man up.
"Where is Elena Gilbert's room?" I asked with a hopeful look on my face. The man pointed toward a long hallway before whispering out number 12, still not looking me in the eyes. I let out a laugh before running down the hallway to get to my beloved. I threw the door open only to come face to face with one full, one empty side of the room. I heard the clearing of a throat before turning around and seeing a girl with dirty blonde hair and a long face standing there with her arms crossed.
"And what are you looking for in my room my lord?" She asked me with a curious look on her face. I looked from her to the room.
"I thought Elena Gilbert was staying in this room." I asked her. Her gaze hardened before she showed a very defiant act and slapped me. I roared at her with my rage. How dare a servant slap the future King of Mystic Falls. "I could have you executed for that!"
"You deserved it my lord. You hurt my best friend. You treated her like a queen, until your father was around, then she would come back and feel like utter crap, and all because you, the man who claimed to want to protect her, and love her, would not stand up for her, then when she finally tells you how she feels, and that she would not do this anymore, unless you stand up to your father, you go and sleep with some random hussy, who looks eerily similar to her. Those are not the actions of a man who cares." She said to me with a venomous voice. I frowned, she was right.
"I know, and I am sorry, but I have to find her." I told her with pleading eyes.
"I'm sorry my lord, but she is gone." The girl informed me and my heart sunk into my stomach. She couldn't be gone. "She left after we got off the boat. She would not tell me where she was going, only that she could not stand working for the family of a man who had made her fall in love with him," She told me and my heart fluttered, and my blood felt like fire in my veins, I smiled a giant smile, "Only to have him tear it out, and see him sleep with other girls, and still have to see him every day." She hissed. My heart sunk again, my smile falling off my face, and I couldn't believe that she was gone. I had let her slip out of my grasp. I felt the tears start to form. "I don't know where she is, so do not bother asking me. Now, good evening my lord." She curtsied and walked into her room before closing the door. I walked back to the palace with a heavy heart.
I had the girl that I loved right in my grasp, and if it wasn't for my father, and my inability to stand up to him, I would have her with me, by my side, for only me for all eternity. But I had to go and fuck that up, like I fuck up everything in my life. I could feel the tears falling freely now. I got up inside the castle and went straight to my room, before collapsing on the bed and crying my eyes out. I clutched the pillow where my sweet Elena should have been. Right beside me, in my bed, in my life for all eternity, but my idioticness had made me screw up my chances and now she was gone. Lost to me forever.
