So I've been thinking lately, maybe these feelings aren't just a phase. I can't get over the thought that I love him.


"Hey Kao," he stared bluntly at me with a raised eyebrow "are you ok?" He seemed as though something was on his mind.

"Perfect, Hikaru. Why do you care?" He said with the same blunt tone his face expressed.

"I was just making sure. Sorry if I bothered you" I said with shyly.

He looked away rolling his eyes. I knew something wasn't right with him recently. Ever since Wednesday at the club he had acted angry at me. Honestly, I don't see a reason why. I had done absolutely nothing to him at all. Was it because I had gone to dinner with Haruhi? Surly not. He said he didn't want to go. He said he was too busy working on studying for an upcoming test.

"Are you sure everything is ok, Kao?" I placed my hand on his knee.

"Stop calling me that!" He halfway screamed, drawing every eye in the library. He quickly moved his leg from my touch.

"I-I'm sorry.. You just seem like something is wrong and it's worrying me."

"Why in hell would you worry about me? I don't mean anything to you!" He yelled again as he got up from his chair. Slamming it against the wooden table he stormed off.

"Dammit Kaoru!" I hissed, making sure nobody could hear. I hurried, not bothering with my school work, and rushed to go catch my mysterious brother.


Why in bloody hell am I doing this? Why can't I help myself feel like this when he's around. I love him.


"Dammit, dammit, dammit!" I yelled as I ran down the hall, clinching my hair in fists. I ran into the nearest bathroom and sank to my knees next to the sink. 'I can't believe you! Why did you yell at him? Why did you run away, seriously' I scolded myself. "I must me the stupidest person in all the world!"

"Kaoru! Where are you?" I heard Hikaru call from a way down the hall. 'Hikaru, you're an idiot' I thought to my self as I heard the door open. He walked over with a deep and loud breath pattern. I held my breath hoping he wouldn't see me, wishing I could have some sort of invisibility skill. At that moment, he turned around and sadly, spotted me collapsed on the dirty floor. Immediately he crouched down in front of me and touched my knee.

"What on earth is wrong with you!" He hissed, still leaving that tone that made me melt.

"N-Nothing." I spat.

"Oh really? Then why are you crying, hm?" Having not of even noticed the large amount of tears that were streaming down my face, I hurriedly wiped them away. "Honestly Kaoru, what it wrong?" He asked in a more soothing tone, placing his warm palm on my face and rubbing my cheek softly. I closed my eyes unconsciously. My body shivered slightly at his soft touch.

I swiped his hand from my face quickly, realising that I couldn't take anymore contact with my brother. "Go away Hikaru." I demanded quietly, truthfully wanting him to stay and hold me.

"Not until you tell me why you're acting so strange" I felt him grab my hand and clinch tightly. He got closer to me. I could feel his sweet breath on my chest as he nuzzled my neck then pulled away to look in my eyes. "Please kao?" He purred, practically straddling my hip. Now he was inches from my lips. Again the feel of his breath crossed my skin. I felt my cheeks become a awkward strawberry colour.

"I-I can't tell you. I just c-can't" I stuttered, shyly closing my eyes so I could pretend he wasn't there. I felt his lips brush my cheek as he stopped close to my ear.

"And why not?" He whispered smoothly, yet again making my whole body shudder. I felt weak. I couldn't move.

"P-Please stop Hikaru." My plea sounding more like a scared mouse.