you hate me don't you!

you want me to die!

you don't care about me

so wish to see me drown in my own blood

to see me cut deeper into my flesh

to see that crimson life drain little by little from my paleing skin

into the water that will wash away my exsistence

you wish to stand there and watch as the life fades from my eyes

how could think so little of me!

what am i to you!

a hollow exsistance for your own selfish desire

i'm so lost without you

is this how you wanted me to feel?

was this your plan?

to make me feel that this was the only option left for me!

now i lie here in the tub...

as i remeber all we had together

there were so many signs

that showed me you would do this!

I...I didn't want to acknowledge them

i truely truely wanted to believe that you wouldnt do this that i could be better for you.

i would change. for you

but.. you did and now you stand over me as the light fades from my once oh so bright eyes

you look into my darkening eyes

and say i brought this on myself

it hurts........

with my bloodied hand i try to reach out to you

yet you turn around and walk out of my reach

i pray.... please look back if only once

.......just.....once..... before my eyes darken forever

the darkness sets in and i watch you and pray my prayer

and finally the blackness encases me.......

.......you didn't look back.