Chapter 1:

Safe. That was the first word that crossed his mind when Ritsuka was in Soubi's arms. Safe and warm.

Ritsuka melted into the embrace, never wanting it to end. The love Ristuka felt for Soubi, it went beyond merely fighter and sacrifice, he couldn't even begin to describe it, just one look into the taller man's sky blue eyes and Ritsuka knew, he knew that he loved Agatsuma Soubi, and he would be with him forever.

Soubi felt Ritsuka's soft cheek against his chest and he smiled slightly, looking down at his raven haired lover, he had never known anything more beautiful. Ristuka was his everything. Soubi's hand found its way to Ritsuka's head, running his fingers through his hair. Ritsuka shivered under his touch and looked up to Soubi with his big amethyst eyes.
Soubi couldn't help himself, not when Ritsuka looked at him like that, moving his hand from Ritsuka's head, Soubi cupped his chin and tilted his head slightly. Ritsuka blushed and closed his eyes as he felt soft lips press against his own. Soubi licked Ritsuka's bottom lip, begging for entrance and almost whimpered when he felt Ritsuka smile into the kiss, denying him. Soubi's hand tugged lightly on Ritsuka's ear, enough to make him gasp. And that was all the seme needed to gain entrance into his younger lovers mouth.
Soubi smirked as he drew a low moan from Ritsuka. He climbed on top of Ritsuka, making the kiss more passionate, Ristuka ran his hands all over Soubi's back, as if he needed to touch him. Both of them were panting hard when they finally pulled away and Ritsuka was the first to get back into it, pulling at Soubi's collar, pleading for him to kiss him again. And who was Soubi to deny Ritsuka of what he wanted? Soubi gladly leaned down again, crashing his lips into Ritsuka's and smirked again as another moan was drawn out from the boy underneath.

"Sou-chan! You pervert! Get off of Ritsuka!" Kio shouted loudly as he came through Soubi's apartment door, uninvited. Again. Soubi sighed as he turned to Kio with an unpleasant look on his face.

"And why exactly are you in my apartment when I'm trying to seduce my boyfriend?" He asked plainly.
"BAKA SOUBI!" Ritsuka pushed Soubi off of him and tried to cover his blushing face. Soubi smiled lightly so cute…
"Pervert" Kio muttered. "Anyway, I came to celebrate, we got an A on that art project, even if it was just you painting those butterflies again!"
"celebrate on your own" Soubi said blankly, he grabbed Ritsuka's hand and started dragging him away.
Kio waved him arms up and down and put on a sad expression.
"Wait! Wait! Wait! SOU-CHAN! That's your room! Why're you taking him there! What happened to us?!"
"shut up, Kio" Soubi muttered and Ritsuka couldn't help but laugh a little at Kio's actions. Ritsuka held up his hand to stop Soubi.
"sorry, but I really have to get home, my mom and all…" he trailed off. Soubi smiled gently, understanding the situation. He didn't like Ritsuka going home, he knew Ritsuka's mom abused him but he couldn't help it, Ritsuka still loved her.
"yeah sure, I'll walk you home" Ritsuka blushed at the attention, making Soubi smile again.
"thanks for being such an awesome friend, yeah sure no problem! Oh no no no, don't mention the food and stuff! Sure you just leave me after I turn up! Its TOTALLY cool" Kio moaned to himself.
"see you later, Kio" Ritsuka laughed and waved as he and Soubi headed out the door into the dusk swept streets. The pair walked in silence for most of the journey, their arms brushing against each other's with every few steps they took.
"hey Soubi" Ritsuka whispered, stopping at the turning corner to his house.
"yeah?" Soubi asked, glancing down.
"do you…um, do you think with a name like Loveless I can ever truly be…loved?" Ritsuka hesitated at the last word and tore his sight away from Soubi, forcing him self to look at the ground. He already wished he could take what he had said back, he closed his eyes tightly and began walking quickly.
"never mind, just leave-" Ritsuka stopped, and looked down at his wrist where Soubi's hand was. His eyes looked painful, and in there was a feeling Ritsuka knew all too well. Unloved…
"
Ritsuka, how can you think I don't love you?!" Soubi took a few steps closer to Ritsuka and wrapped his arms around him, clinging to him, because how could Ritsuka not know? How could he not know that he was Soubi's entire world?
"Soubi….." Ritsuka stood there for a moment stunned, then placed his arms around Soubi's waist, returning the embrace with all he could.
"I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to, it's just, I'm not even sure what love means anymore, I've…forgotten" Ritsuka held onto Soubi tightly, on the verge of breaking, without love, without anyone to remember him, Ritsuka thought he wouldn't exist. And that thought terrified him. Soubi tilted Ritsuka's chin and leaned down to whisper in his ear.
"Then let me remind you" That voice sent shivers down Ritsuka's back and he couldn't contain the blush spreading across his face. Soubi smiled and pressed his lips against Ritsuka's soft mouth. Ritsuka felt almost week with the passion and as if anticipating this Soubi pressed his hand against Ritsuka's back, supporting him whilst deepening the kiss. Soubi couldn't begin to explain what he felt like when he kissed his younger lover. Everything just felt right. He needed Ritsuka. When he pulled back Ritsuka's eyes were shiny and Soubi could see small tears forming in the corner of his eyes.
Don't, please don't cry Ritsuka…It hurts me so much to see that look on your face.
Soubi's thumbs wiped away the small tears and before he could say anything Ritsuka wrapped his arms around him again, burying his head into Soubi's chest. "Soubi…..I-I love you" Soubi's breathe caught in his throat, this was the first time Ritsuka had said those words. Those words that made Soubi's heart skip a beat.
I love you.
His eyes closed and a warmth he didn't even know spread through his entire body. He couldn't help but smile when it dawned on him. He couldn't control himself around Ritsuka and he knew, that he would do anything for this boy because…
"I love you too" Soubi whispered. Those simple words had more meaning for those two than anyone could have even imagined. So they stayed there, until it was dark, huddled together in the cold, embracing each other, because that's all they could do at that moment in time.