Dear Diary,

I met Prue today, well not exactly in the typical manner, however I went to the past and saw her. She was beautiful, how can I compare to that? I feel like I am a poor replacement in a way for the amazing elder sister they had, although granted I am the youngest and not the eldest but still a poorly chosen replacement never the less. She was with Piper and Phoebe, they seemed so happy, peaceful, and joyful. It was clear how much love they had for each other, how much devotion and dedication to the others. Part of me wishes I could have known them back then, to have a chance to be in their lives and to be able to get to know Prue. However I seemed to have come into their lives shortly after the death of ... their favourite sister. How can I compete with a ghost?

I always wanted to meet the famous, Prudence Halliwell, always wondered what she would look like, speak like, what she would say when she discovered I was her sister. Would she like me? Would she love me? Would she even accept me as her younger sister? Or would she deny my existence? Reject me? Push me away?

Now I will never know because she's gone. I came into their lives too late and I wish so much that I could turn back time and save her, to meet her, speak with her, and to have her as a sister, but that chance has gone. That chance died with her. That chance was gone when her life was cut short. It isn't fair. How could the universe be so cruel as to have given me such amazing sisters yet refuse me the chance to meet my eldest sibling?

I will never have her in my life, and this is the closest I will get. She doesn't know I'm watching, she doesn't know I exist, all I want to do is reach out to her, but I can't because I can't change history, and if I did, I don't know what the consequences would be. Would I be here with my sisters if I managed to change the past? What would happen in Phoebe's and Piper's lives? Would everyone be happier? Or would the future be a dreary and dark place?

But I want her to be with us so much, for selfish reasons really because I just want to get to know her and have my eldest sister with us. Then again I know it would make both Piper and Phoebe happy. Should I turn back the hands of time and save her? Or let her keep her place in history? To leave her in the past when I could save her seems cruel. Was her death truly meant to be?

Paige

Sighing, the youngest of the Halliwell sisters closed the leather bound diary that lay on the soft cotton sheets of her bed. The woman lay diagonally across the bed with her legs slightly up in the air and kicking to and fro. She slid the pen into the holder that was attached to the side of the diary, it was two loops where one attached to the back board and one to the front board which effectively made the diary unable to open without moving the pen - not exactly a magical lock and rather easy to open but she didn't feel the need to lock it, what kind of demon would want to read a diary full of feelings anyhow?

Getting up from the bed she slipped the book into the underneath of her pillow cover and slipped her feet into a pair of soft and rather fluffy slippers before she went downstairs to meet her two sisters in the kitchen for breakfast.