This Fanfic was inspired by I'm Sorry by MagicMan01 and takes place in the same universe as that Fanfic though a few changes have been made. I was really interested in continuing the story of Light's second life that I'm Sorry only showed a little bit of.

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Chapter 1: A Strange Déjà vu

My name is Light Yagami and this is a story about my life, well my second life actually, my first life ended about five years ago. I am currently working for the Japanese Task Force; it has been my dream job ever since I got this new life. I am going to meet L again in Winchester. In my old life, L and I were sworn enemies but in this life we are best friends. I am leading an investigating team to help capture a serial rapist. Now you must be wondering how I got my second life. Well I don't really know what I did to deserve a second chance at life because as far as I am concerned I should be burning in the pits of hell for the murders I committed in my past life.

I will never forget the day I died. I will never forget entering the Yellow Box Warehouse with the Task Force to meet Near face to face. We were there concerning the Kira Investigation, but I was just one step away from stopping all the threats in my way and becoming the god of the new world. When I discovered the power of the Death Note, I developed a philosophy and sadly a god complex. My philosophy was that all criminals deserve to die and that we should all live in a crime free utopia. I started going by the name Kira, not because that was the name I chose but because the internet chose that name for me. These ideas got shattered once I started using the Death Note to kill those who disagreed with the idea of Kira and those who were after me. I ended up crossing the line, the line of no return. I got more and more insane as the Death Note corrupted me more. It is not like I was always Kira; the Death Note's influence turned me into Kira. The only part of the path I chose was killing off criminals for my crime-free utopia. The rest was me falling under the corruption of the Death Note. I became the thing I made my personal mission to destroy, a criminal. This god complex and this philosophy all ended January 28, 2013, or as I like to call it, the day I died.

We were waiting for Teru Mikami, the Hand of Kira to arrive. I was anticipating their demise with great anticipation. Me and Near both asked him to come in. I was trying to hold back my true self; I had to hide it if I wanted Kira to live. I was waiting for those 40 seconds to be up and for them to all die. At the moment the 40 seconds were up I said, "Well Near, it looks like I win". At the moment they were supposed to die, they didn't and I just accidentally confessed that I was Kira. Near gathered the evidence against me and apprehended Mikami. His evidence was the Death Note that Mikami wrote the Task Force and SPK members names in, there were only two names not written on that page, mine and Mikami's. When the evidence came out like a fan, I freaked out, saying this was a "trap" and tried to think up a good excuse to why it was Near trying to frame me. Then Aizawa came and told me that Near had won and when I said my "Well Near, it looks like I win" it was more than enough of a confession for them.

Just before they could arrest me I ran straight to the wall. Near then told me that it was over and that I had lost the game. Near talked more about how he was able to defeat me and was able to provide more evidence that I was Kira. He even got Ryuk my Shinigami to give evidence against me. Then I freaked out. I laughed an insane laugh that would put many to shame and I ranted about how the world was still rotten and how the idea of Kira is the right way. Then Near shut me down triumphantly saying that I am just another criminal, "Just a crazy serial killer, nothing more, nothing less". I simply ignored it. Now in my second life, I believe he was right about me but this was before I came to my senses. I tried one last trick, to write Near's real name on a Death Note paper in my watch and then Matsuda shot me in the hand. I tried to convince Matsuda to get on to the side of Kira but he just reacted in more anger and rage. I tried to rationalize my actions to him including my father's death but he shot me four times in the torso. He almost shot me in the face but the Task Force held him back. I was defeated, I cried out for Misa, Takada, and Mikami for help but none would come.

It was at that moment that Mikami killed himself. It distracted the Task Force and the SPK for a few seconds but it was enough for me to get away. I used the strength I had to get on my feet and leave the warehouse. I just ran and ran. I knew what was coming, I was gonna die soon but I needed to go somewhere where I could think about my actions and the five years I was Kira. I saw my old self, as I started to think about what I had done. I was able to get to another warehouse about a quarter mile away from the Yellow Box warehouse and entered. I lost strength in my body and collapsed on the stairs. I looked directly at the sun above me. I was going to die soon, of blood loss, or so I thought at the time. So I thought of everything that happen since I got the Death Note, the thousands of regrets I had from using it. The deaths I caused ranged from countless criminals, to my own father, to a god of death, to my arch rival who was also the closest thing I had to a real friend, L. It was then that L arrived at my location. It wasn't really L though, it was more like L's spirit.

I began to cry and when he asked why I was crying I apologized for what I did to him. L forgave to me, though my actions were beyond forgiveness. He forgave me for killing him. It was because he loved me at a time when I wasn't Kira, when I gave up ownership of the Death Note, and lost my memories of being Kira, even though it was simply part of a big plan for me to get it back. I even told him that I deserved what I got. He comforted me as I lay dying. I asked if he could hold me until I died and he did. He then told me that Ryuk had written my name in his Death Note. The minute I heard him say it I really knew I was going to die. I knew I was going to die of a heart attack in 40 seconds. He then kissed me and held me until I was dead.

There is not suppose to be an afterlife. When we die we go to nothingness. That is what I figured out from Ryuk and his description, that Death Note users don't go to heaven or hell. It was really everybody was gonna go to nothingness when they die. I must have been in nothingness for about a minute, when I heard those words "Wake up now, Light, wake up". I heard my mother's voice and I woke up. I was back at home. It was late afternoon and it was November 23, 2006. It was the same day I got the Death Note. I was 17 again, not 23, the age I was when I died. I noticed that I was back in my high school uniform, not a business suit covered in my own blood. I found out my father was alive. My mother was saying that it was dinner time and I responded back that I would be right down. Before I came down, I checked if I still had the Death Note. I checked all over the room for it. When I found nothing, I checked again. When there was no Death Note to be found, I was not just relieved, I was ecstatic. It was practically the best day ever for me.

I came down for dinner and decided to be more helpful than I was in my previous life. I didn't know why I got a second chance to live, but I knew I would not make the mistake that ruined my old life. The next day, I went to school and asked a few people if they saw a black book on school grounds. I got a few shrugs, but then I asked someone who said that they saw someone look at the notebook, and then looked at the rules. The guy who looked at the notebook was frightened by it and decided to throw it in the river. When I heard that I was relieved, no Death Note to haunt me in this life. A day later, I heard that serial killer Korou Otoharada had been killed during that school raid. My first person I ever killed would have died the same day whether I killed him or not. That was unbelievable. I graduated from my High School and attended To-oh University to study criminology and how to be a police detective. I graduated there at the top of my class and among the highest ranked students in the country. I am currently the leader of an investigating group in the Japanese Task Force. My team is made up of me, my second in command Touta Matsuda alongside Shuichi Aizawa, Kanzo Mogi, Raye Penber and Naomi Misora. I previously solved a very difficult murder case with L and I have decided to meet him again soon, after we solve this case.

The Task Force is currently trying to capture a serial rapist called Takuo Shibuimaru. That is right; the second person I murdered is running much more of a muck in this life than he did in my previous life. I have gotten to know more about the people I know in this life. Particularly Raye Penbar and Naomi Misora, who I both killed in cold blood in my previous life. Maybe that it why I have gotten this new life. I couldn't redeem myself in my old life so they gave me a new one. I have gotten to know Matsuda, Aizawa and Mogi a lot better in this life than in my past life. Matsuda is a great friend of mine and one of the people I trust the most on the force. My father is still alive in this life and he is as healthy as ever. He works a different investigating team than me.

My time with L was a blast, it was the first time I had worked with him since the Yotsuba case in my past life and it couldn't be better. When we worked on the Yotsuba case, I had no memories of being Kira. I also wasn't the bad person I was during my time as Kira. I helped L solve the case and he became a friend to me, until I got my memory back. I killed L shortly after I got my memories back. We got to know each other more and talked about many things ranging from law and order to the marriage of Misa Amane and Hideki Ryuga. While I am a close friend with L, I am not gay and I will never marry him. I am however thinking of dating Kiyomi Takada and maybe one day marrying her. I have feeling more comfortable with women. I have also been given the opportunity to appear with her on the news. My sister is currently attending college and she is doing great in it. Sayu has gotten really high grades in all of her classes just like I did. She is studying Culinary and is really enjoying it. In this life, I am really happy about this. I get to see Sayu grow up. Apparently the murderer of Misa Amane's parents have been tried and executed, a new attorney took the case and they found them guilty as charged. It is always weird then somebody I kill ends up dying around the same time I killed them. I wonder what happened to Lind L. Taylor in this life. Well, I don't like who I was in my past life and I will try to forget that he ever existed.

The thing is that this life is like a strange déjà vu. I remember a lot of things about my past life, particularly when I had the Death Note, but I just want to forget about them all together. The first night in this life was actually very difficult as I suffered from nightmares of my past life. I saw my evil self in my dreams. I relived Yellow Box again and again. It just hurts my mind to think about it. Back when I killed L, it was a triumph for me, now I look at it in regret. Matsuda helped me come to my senses and as painful as those bullets were, they helped me become a better person, not in my past life, but I carried those lessons to this life. My past life was more interesting but it was tragic. This life may not be as interesting but it is a thousand times better than my previous life.

I don't know if I am really just dead and this is just a dream I am going through or if I really did get a second chance at life. I assume the latter because I actually told L about my past life and he says he remembers his completely as well. I haven't told anybody else but I assume L is the only other person who remembers his past life. Either way, I don't know. I am living a much better life than I previously did and I am grateful that I could get this life. Unlike my previous life, this life is just getting started.