Fifty shades of Jealousy – Fanfic
Chapter 1
APOV
"Ana come on, let's drink something, you definitely need to relax" Ethan told me, and he was right.. if only he knew how right he was. After I told him Christian was in my apartment with one of his ex girlfriends (I couldn't say submissive, even though I wanted to) doing whatever they were doing. Oh I wish I could know what they're doing! But I can only imagine. Were they..? no, no. I don't think Christian would ever do that to me.. or would he? Why would he be freaking alone with her in my apartment?
"Yeah, you're right. Get me something strong!" Ethan seemed surprised . "Ok, bring in some vodka!" Ethan was really excited about this, probably 'cause we haven't seen each other for so long. we needed some friend time. "One, two, three!" i felt the vodka burning through my throat. This was fun, I should enjoy this little time with Ethan. We kept drinking for like a hour, we were having a great time experimenting all of the shots on the bar menu.
"Ana, I've really missed you. Are you feeling better?" Ethan was now staring at me, he wanted an honest answer.. "Not really, but I really appreciate your company.. " I couldn't speak properly, my tongue was not helping. Have I been drinking too much? Well it's really possible Steele. You never know how to stop drinking! Oh, Ethan talking to me.
"Ana? Ana? Can you hear me?" he looked worried. "Oh yes, I'm sorry " could he see how drunk I was? I sure hope not, that was embarrassing. "Do you wanna do somewhere? Or we can drink some or.. Whatever you want" what? Definitely he was not aware of how drunk I was, thank god. "Thank you Ethan, but I don't think I have the courage to stand up, I think I may fall" what was I saying? Stupid Steele, just shut up.
"I would never let you fall Anastasia, I was hoping you knew that by now" Oh that was sweet, but what was he trying to say? I kept staring at me with those soft eyes. I wasn't feeling the pressure of the last times with him, it was all so natural, I was not worried, not nervous.. Just enjoying the moment.. the pressure that Christian always makes me feel, was killing me.
Ethan was not close to me, I could feel his breath. Any other time I would have stepped back.. But after today, I just wanted to feel some comfort. I felt his lips in mine, they were soft and warm. He deepened the his.. This was calm and sensual, nothing wild or possessive as I was used with Christian. Christian, oh my god. This was not right.
"Wow" Ethan said.. "I've been wanting to do this for too long" he was embarrassed.. what was I supposed to say after that? I was in big trouble. I realized what I have just done.. I had no idea what Christian was doing alone with Leila, I wasn't sure of anything, and I just kissed Ethan, I'm so stupid. He is never going to forgive me after this, I will never want me again.. and probably he is going to hurt Ethan if he finds this out. "This was such a mistake Ethan, I need to get back to Escala, I'm so sorry" I told him, could I feel any worse?
"Ok.. I'm sorry too. I'll take you there" Ethan was so serious right now, I could feel that I just made him feel worthless. I just kissed him and I wanna get home to my boyfriend.. was he still my boyfriend? I couldn't think right
"I'm just not feeling well" that part was true, I was feeling dizzy and I probably wanted to puke. I stood up and I almost fall. Gosh I really drank to much.. If Christian is at the apartment when I get home, he's gonna kick me out, I'm sure of it. Maybe I should wait until tomorrow, I will probably feel better by then. I still really upset with him, how could he choose her instead of me? I should go home.. I've done enough for the day.
- ESCALA -
"She's here" Christian looked sick. He looked at me like he hasn't seen me in years. "FUCK, WHERE WERE YOU?" he shouted. It was so loud that I jumped. He was mad, oh really mad. But so was I!
"Stop yelling at me" He couldn't do this. Leave me for his ex girlfriend and then yell at me like I started this. He didn't even know the worst part.
"WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU ANASTACIA ROSE STEELE? WITH WHO?" uh, that was the problem. He wanted to know who I was with, and that I could not tell him.. he has so mad, and I could not get out of this situation without answering everything I asked me, and I don't think I could do that.
