Note: this is the first non-yaoi/yuri I have posted. This is from Queen Serenity's point of view. After she died. Then it changes it's a weird little fic. Sorry to depress you guys.



With out you



To start out with I want to say I'm sorry. I wish that I could have fixed everything. After your father died I swore that I would not lose you too.I wish it could have worked out that way. I just want you to know that I miss you. It's a little lonely up here with out you. I'm glad that you are alright though. It makes me happy to see you alive.Your father says hello. He also says that he misses you.too. I missed him alot. Don't be sad that I'm gone. I know you won't remember me, but if anything bad should happen and you ever remember don't be sad. I'm fine. We are fine. I was so upset when I saw you die. It crushed my heart. My beautiful daughter with so much ahead of her. Now you have to start life all over. Only this time you will get the life you dreamed of. I am sorry that I can't be there, I'm sorry I won't be there to see your first steps, I'm sorry that I won't be able to hold you when you get scared of the dark, I'm sorry that I won't be there for you to get your first crush again, I'm sorry that I can't be there when your first boyfriend breaks your heart. I will have the memories of these though. I can always look back on them. How I wish I could see your future.

Love, Your Mother.

Serena burst into tears when she read the letter that her mother had written before she died. She asked Luna when she wrote it. Luna replied that she trapped her words in the crystal and central computer wrote them in her handwritting which it stored in it's memory banks. She cried a little more. She couldn't study or even talk to Mina-chan on the phone. It was just too much. She closed her eyes and held the crystal to heart. She could see her past life. It weaved a pattern around her heart. The worst of all came though. She saw her and her mother. They played and sang and danced together. She cried again. Why was fate so cruel? Not that she didn't love her earth mother. She loved her dearly. Serena was just the person though that she ached to know that the mother of her spirit was dead.

Everyone saw the change in her spirit. They saw her normal smile crumble.They saw it all. She finally pulled Luna aside on day and asked her some strange questions.

Serena: Luna Luna: Yes? Serena: Do you miss my mother? Luna: I don't know. She's only been gone half an hour. I'm sure she will be back from the store in no time. Serena: No I mean Queen Serenity Luna: Oh. I don't know I try not to think of her. If makes me sad. Yes I do miss her. Serena: I wish I can tell her that Luna:......... Serena: I want to tell her all that has happened and tell her that I miss her too. Luna: Maybe you can.

I wish I knew what to call you. I don't know if I called you Mom, Mommy, Mother, Momma or whatever. I just want to say that I miss you. It's kinda lonely down here with out you. I'm glad that you are happy though. It makes me happy to know that you are happy. Tell Dad I say hello and that I miss him too. I know you didn't want us to have to become senshi again. Don't be sad I am fine. We are fine. I was upset to see how you died. It crushed my heart. My beautiful mother, who had so much more to look for. Now your life is over. Only now you have the peace you dreamed of. I'm sorry that you can't be here. I'm sorry you won't get to be at my wedding, I'm sorry you won't get to hold your granddaughter, I'm sorry that you won't get to see me rule, I'm sorry that you can't be with me. I look foward to these things and cry. How I wish you were in my future!

Love, Your Daughter.

Serena burned the letter and watched the smoke drift up to heaven.

Serenity and her husband smiled.