It's been five years since I've gotten a text from A, it's been four years since Ezra and I got married. It's been three years to the day that we had our first daughter, Alison.

Alison turned three today. We are throwing her a birthday party. Hanna, Emily and Spencer are helping out with getting everything ready.

Hanna and I are getting Ali ready. It's a princess themed party, so we got out her Halloween costume. "Can you believe Alison isn't here to share this special day with us?" I asked Hanna.

My daughter wiggled her way into my arms. "Mommy! I'm right here!" she yelled with excitement.

If only she knew… Spencer and Emily had heard everything, "She would have dressed up herself." Spencer laughed. We all gathered around and hugged remembering our long lost friend, whom my daughter got to be named after. Tears came to my eyes.