Right now I'm slowly getting my life back together. It's been really rough for me for quite sometime. I was in a deep depression and in and out of therapy, but I think I'm ready to be happy again. I know it's not going to be easy, considering what I've already gone through, but I'm going to try my best to get myself back to normal… to being happy… to just having a life again…
Bam shook his head and brushed his hair back with his hand. He closed his eyes and took a breath, as Missy stood across from him, wide-eyed and stunned.
"Missy I'm sorry I yelled at you like that, but you know I've been under a lot of stress lately."
"Well I know but that's still no reason to call me that!"
"I said that I'm sorry! Fuck, Missy, everyone's been trying to get me to do all kinds of things at once and I feel like I have to say yes to everyone. MTV wants me to appear on this show and this show, my team manager wants me to do these demos and make these appearances, I was asked to do like three different commercials and endorse some bullshit that I don't remember what it is. I haven't been able to take time to relax at all and I have problems to deal with at home. I don't know if Novak's going to stay sober or not, I got these kids trying to break onto the property and camp out on the lawn hoping that I'll spend time with them. And if I don't then I'm made out to be the biggest asshole. And on top of all that it seems like all we ever do any more is fight!"
Missy placed her hands on Bam's shoulders firmly and got him to look directly at her.
"Bam just calm down. I know what you've been going through lately, and I understand how stressed you would be about it. You just need to take some time to relax and think through everything."
"Missy… I wish I could just drop everything for a little while. Believe me, I feel like I'm about to have a break down if I don't get away from everything soon."
"Then… do it. Drop everything. Get out of here if you have to."
"I really should." He covered his face and then pushed his hair back again
"If you keep doing that you're going to rub the hair off of your head."
Bam rolled his eyes and dropped his hands to his side.
"You're right. I need to get out of here. And the sooner the better."
From what I remember, I didn't waste any time in leaving. I packed a bunch of clothes and went in the lambo, and I just drove. I didn't care where I was headed. At first I wasn't even planning on spending any time around any one. I was just driving to get away from everyone and everything. But then I guess I started feeling lonely just being by myself on the road. Something inside of me felt like I should go find one of my friends, that I haven't seen in a while, that wasn't in Pennsylvania. I guess I felt like I needed to be around someone I could just pour my heart out to and they wouldn't tell me what they thought I should do. I needed someone who would just listen to me bitch and just comfort me. There was only one person like that that came to mind. I knew I had to go see her.
"Bam?" She asked quietly in the darkness as she opened the door "Bam what are you doing here? And so late?"
"I needed to get away from everything for a while. What time is it any way?"
"It's about 1:30."
"Everyone's asleep, right?"
"Yeah. In fact I was going to go to bed myself. But come in."
"I'm sorry I didn't call before I came, Marie."
"It's ok just… let's go to my room and relax, ok?"
"Yeah…"
Bam and Marie quietly went down the dark hallway to her bedroom. She opened the door a little and made sure her cat wasn't going to run out of the room, before they entered. Bam sat his backpack on the floor and Marie walked over to the bed.
"You don't mind sleeping in here with me, do you?"
"Um… no I guess not."
"You could always sleep on the couch or on the floor in the living room."
"No this will be fine. We can share your bed."
"Just don't get any ideas."
"I won't."
"Nothing but SLEEPING. Got that?"
"I KNOW! God."
"Just making sure. Oh and by the way… Would it bother you if I slept without my pajama pants?"
"Not really. Would it bother you if I slept in just boxers?"
"Not particularly."
"Good. I guess I should put some on then." He said with a grin
She laughed a little "Yeah that might help."
"Um… should I go into another room to change?"
"Not unless you want to."
"Ok."
Bam picked up his backpack and opened it up. As Bam was putting his boxers on, Marie had turned around to take her contacts out. She pulled the covers back and crawled into bed and then waited for Bam. Bam walked around to the other side of the bed and lied down. He turned on his side, facing Marie and looked at her.
"Thanks for letting me stay here tonight."
"No problem." She yawned "But in the morning we're going to talk about why you're here in the first place."
"I knew you were going to do that."
"Do what?"
"Bring up talking."
"Well you didn't expect to show up here in the middle of the night without me wanting to know why, did you?"
Bam grinned "Well no."
"Well ok then. We're talking about it tomorrow."
"Fine."
Marie turned out the light and turned away from Bam. Even though it was dark in the room, Bam was still watching her.
"Good night Bam."
"Night."
Bam knew she was falling asleep as he lied there watching her. He felt so comfortable sharing the bed with her right then. He knew that she was the only girl he would, and could share a bed with and have any sexual urges be the furthest thing from his mind. At that moment he knew that he had made the right decision.
