Summary: They say that people have a particular aurora in life. Sometimes, it goes too far. Two Chapters. Rated M for themes. Yukari's point of view.


My life.

Panzers.

My life.

Nishizumi-Dono.

...My life.

A cold turret barrell. The sound of gunfire. The sound of me being hyperactive.

I used to be hyper. I used to feel happy...Too feel euphoric. To be so happy that no matter what happened...I'd help others up.

Not anymore.

Want to know a secret?

My mother died a few minutes ago.

I stand here, watching as my mother, Yoshiko, breathed her last breathe while looking at me.

Warm eyes to cold sad ones. Transfixated and unyealding.

My brown eyes blinked...Its too much all in one go.

It feels like a dream. A dream from which...I cannot wake up.

I know what has happened. I let my obsession get the better of me. World War II re-enactments aren't supposed to go this far. NEVER!

I feel like screaming but I don't. My father would most likely hear me...and see what I have done.

I, Akiyama Yukari, have killed my mother. Yoshiko Akiyama is now dead - Because of me.

Sad isn't it?

How someone with such a happy and selfless heart can turn to this. I...I don't know what came over me. We were re-enacting the argument between a general and a lieutenant in the final days of Hitler's Nazi Empire...

Outside the cold harsh November winds rock the boat backwards and forwards. We are sailing in just harsh weather - No rain. So, I turn to the door and begin to walk away.

"Yu...kari..."

I stop upon hearing my mother's word. I am dressed head to toe in my World War II outfit/uniform. Inspired by Nazi-Germany I probably look like that...Was it Hermitz or something? I can't really remember. All I know, is I have to leave.

"Goodbye Mother" I whisper harshly and with nothing but coldness in my voice.

"I love you..." She whispers back and I cringe. Why do people always repeat those three words when they are almost dead? I guess its the last time they can say them.

I look forward and down slightly, hearing my mother hold her last breath in. She loves me. This much I know. I am going to confess to Nishizumi-Dono before I'm arrested...We are about to pull into port so...They'll probably find me. I glance back at my mother - The knife still sticking out of her back. "I'm sorry Mother" I smile sadly as the hat I am wearing, combined with the light covers my eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't control myself. Take care up there" I take in a deep breathe. "I love you too"

Her eyes seem to happy to hear me say that. "Thank...You" She whispers back. Her body limp, white probably cold as well.

I smile one more warm smile back. Even though she's gone...I think she'll hear me. "You're welcome"

I walk out of the barber's shop, switching off the buzzer before I do so. Can't have Dad come down and realise what's happened.

I lower my head and put my hands in my pockets. I didn't even leave him a note.

That particular thought stings for many minutes as I walk across the ship. I didn't leave a note. He may never know what happened. I feel around for my gun and I smile slightly that its there.

I know that I'll be safe now. I bought this thing the last time we had shore leave so...

"You"

Crap.

"You, little girl, come over here...We'll have some fun"

I look over and sigh. "Look guys-" I start as four walk over to me. "I'm not interested"

"Oh really? I bet-Wait...What the hell is that!?"

I pull out the gun. "What does it look like?" I shoot one of the guys in the foot and aim at the girl who's with them...I almost freeze. That isn't...

Like a whisper in the night, "Yukari?" The voice quivers and I look to ginger-hair. Shit. It is...Saori Takebe.

"You saw nothing Takebe-San" I attempt to convince her.

Saori looks to the guy and then to me again. "What in, fucks name, are you doing wealding a GUN!?" She shouts at me. "You're nuts Yukari! Do you hear me!? NUTS! I'm calling the police-" Just as she pulls out her mobile I shoot it out of her hand. "OWCH!" She screams as I race past her.

"Don't make me do that again" I hiss under my breathe making her shiver in fear. "I'm gone"


[Chapter End]