"If you want to go with him, Fine! But you will listen to me first. I was always better than him. I've treated you better than he did! I always have! When we were little, I didn't tell any of your secrets. I always helped you up when you fell. I always gave you a hug when you needed it. I was always there… I remember seeing you for the first time in Tokyo. When you woke up… You have no idea what relief I felt when I saw you. That's when I knew I wanted to be with you. I always have. So if you really, truly want to be with that guy over there, go ahead! If you choose him, you'll never see me again. I promise you."

I had spilled out my heart before him.

It hurt. It hurt me to see him choose that man over me. It was like someone had ripped out my soul. Tears were rolling down my face. I stopped in my tracks. Maybe I had done something wrong. Or maybe… he liked him more than me. Maybe he really did want to be with him.

I remember the lights racing toward me, like a train. It hit me. The lights hit me. I heard snapping and breaking, all around me. But where was it coming from?

Everything went black. It turned to ash. It turned to the ash that I remember… my home. I remember my house looking like this, before Mother had died in the fire.

I fell on the ground. My head hit the concrete. It didn't hurt. I couldn't feel. I couldn't hear. I couldn't see. All I could do was think.

The tree had been cut down, and was burned in the fire afterward.

"I wish there was something we could do, Kamui."

Then it came back. My life had been poured back into my body, along with my senses. I felt the fire. I felt the fire tear through my body. I wanted to scream, I wanted to thrash around, until the pain went away. I wanted to rip out my heart and throw it into space. But I couldn't. Needles pierced my senses. I wanted to die. I can't remember anymore… why am I here…? Why did this happen to me…? I remember…

Pain.

I remember the pain. It was swimming through my body. I remember my limbs being ripped apart by the moving lights. And… I remember a voice…

I'm glad I have you by my side.

Subaru… I remember you too. This… this is how I feel…

I remember seeing you after you had awoken… I wanted to grab you, I wanted to hold you, I wanted to cry into you… But I remember that it wasn't the right time. So I held back.

I wish I hadn't.

All I've ever known was you. You were my world. You were my life… You were mine in life. And even in death, you are still mine.

"I'll wait for you, and don't worry. I'll see you again."

Subaru, you lied to me. You said that we would never truly be parted, even in our dying moments… but I can't see you. I can't see you anymore… If you really did love me… then where are you…? I can't remember what you look like… I can't see your face… I can't see you… Please come back… I want to be with you… I want to hold you…

No… I want you to hold me… But I can't remember your touch.

I remember my last thoughts…

I hope he's happy…

No bitterness. Just kindness.

I'm slipping… Subaru, you're supposed to be here, with me, keeping me, keeping my life in your hands… I guess you must have dropped it.

I love you, Subaru. I love you, and I want you to know that.

Please let this be a dream… I want you to be there when I wake up; I want you to be there, holding my hand when I wake up… Please be there when I open my eyes. That is my wish… I want him to be here… loving me, holding onto me, I want him to mourn over me instead of that man… I want him to worry about me instead. That is my wish. That is all my heart truly wants. That is my wish… My true wish…