Sarah pulled away from the kiss tears welling in her eyes. She looked at Chuck, his face full of hope. "So?" he asked his voice tight.

Despite her effort to stop them, tears rolled unbidden down her face. She shook her head, a small jerk so tiny Chuck almost missed it. Sarah buried her face in Chuck's shirt. Sarah chastised herself for believing a magic kiss could fix everything. Since when was she the kind of girl to believe in magic kisses. Sobs wracked her entire body. There was no doubt in her mind about one thing though, she would never kiss another man as long as she lived. She could never after feeling the tenderness of Chuck's lips on hers.

Sarah felt Chuck's shoulders shaking and his arms wrap tightly around her. For the first time she could remember in her whole life, she felt safe.

They sat there like that for what felt like hours, the sun dipped low in the sky and a breeze blew chilly off the ocean. Neither could do anything but hold the other and cry for everything they had lost. Chuck knew what that was, Sarah didn't but it didn't matter they both knew it was there.

Chuck was finally the one to pull back, Sarah looked up. His face was stoic even though his eyes were red and puffy. He took a deep breath and said, "Well, Sarah Walker, let me take you home," as he stood and extended a hand to her.

Sarah wiped the tears from her eyes and took his hand. They didn't talk on the drive. Sarah didn't know where they were going. She didn't remember the city she had lived in the past five years but Chuck seemed to be driving on autopilot. His eyes never strayed from the road but he looked like he was a million miles away.

Sarah expected Chuck to drop her off at her apartment but he didn't, he took her to their apartment together. The apartment was vaguely familiar from her assignment with Quinn but she didn't remember it from before. She liked it though; it was cozy and homey with small touches of nerd paraphernalia. She suspected those were Chuck's decorating choices but she also saw small touches that looked like things she would have chosen.

Chuck rubbed the back of his neck. He didn't know what to say or do next. "Um, are you hungry?" he asked.

"Yea sure," she wasn't but she plastered on a fake smile.

Chuck made grilled cheese. The both sat in silence staring at the food. Neither felt hungry. Chuck took a bite, he felt like he was going to be sick. He chewed that one bite for five minutes before he finally swallowed it. It stuck like a lump in his throat. Sarah never touched hers.

"What am I doing here?" Sarah wondered to herself. She was very seriously considering waiting until Chuck fell asleep and leaving. He would be better off without her, she reasoned. Until he reached out and grabbed her hand.

That same feeling she felt earlier when they kissed radiated throughout her chest, her stomach did flips and it was all she could do not to start crying. She knew something deep and wonderful was there, but she couldn't access it.

Sarah pulled her hand back, "I'm tired, I think I'm just going to go to bed if thats ok," she said getting up so quickly she almost knocked her chair over. She quickly retreated into the bedroom.

Chuck sunk his head into his hands. He had never felt this alone, especially not with Sarah. With Ellie, Awesome and Casey all gone, plus Morgan and Alex were off in their own little world, he was truly all alone to pick up the pieces. No more missions, no more CIA, just Chuck and Sarah.

Chuck walked back to their bedroom. Sarah was sitting on their bed staring straight forward, tears falling down her face. Chuck knocked lightly on the door frame.

Sarah wiped her eyes and turned to him. Chuck didn't know what to do. "I'm so sorry, I just don't remember," Sarah choked through her tears.

Chuck sat down on the bed and wrapped an arm around her, "Its ok Sarah, we can get through this." He pulled down the blankets and motioned for her to crawl under. "I'm going to sleep in the guest room ok? Sleep tight Sarah," Chuck said giving her a soft kiss on the forehead.

Sarah sniffled and nodded. She felt a small wave of relief wash over her, she wasn't sure if she could handle sleeping next to him. Chuck walked to the door and before he shut off the light he said, "Sarah, I love you," and flipped the switch and closed the door behind him.

AN: I hope you liked the chapter, more to come, please review.